While it is difficult to save money during the initial stages of a business venture, and the money you do have must be invested, the thought of emptying his accounts just after a couple of days of prosperity still pained Gao Guang deeply.
But with things as they stood, he would deserve no pity for losing his ambition over such a small sum of money; if he were to face a crisis one day and get taken out, it would serve him right if his money was stolen as well.
The arms dealer route was never the straight and narrow. Having chosen this path, one must consider how to exit it eventually and leave oneself the opportunity to wash one's hands clean.
After all, it wouldn't do to end up like most arms traders—rich, perhaps, but globally wanted, making life with money quite meaningless. Gao Guang did not want that kind of life.
What Gao Guang sought was a life under the sun—one where he could stand tall earning money and also enjoy life with pride.