Capítulo 10: Conflicted
When Trevor woke up that day, he was lying in his bed with a drip in his hand and a wet towel on his forehead. He sat up, feeling a little thirsty, only to see that Max was asleep, his head on his bed and his laptop right next to him. He must have been the one who brought his fever down while he was working, Trevor thought.
"He looks kind of cute," Trevor whispered to himself, trying to smooth his hair.
When Max felt Trevor move, he woke up immediately, only to see Trevor's hand stuck in the air. Trevor's just took his hand back with embarrassment.
"You're awake," Max said, getting up to sit next to Trevor stroking his cheek.
Trevor just nodded before adding, "Why am I here? How long have I been asleep?" He had asked Max to take him to the hospital, he really needed to see a doctor to understand what was happening to his body.
"I asked our family doctor to come here and you didn't sleep that long, only three hours," Max replied with a reassuring smile as if he knew what Trevor was thinking about.
Trevor nodded another time, "is he still here, the doctor?"
"Yeah, do you want me to call him?"
Doctor Clyde was indeed still there, he had told Max that Trevor might need to talk to him when he woke up, so he had stayed there waiting for him.
Trevor sat up to make himself comfortable "Yes please..." . For some reason, Max thought he was a little distant. Not like the Trevor he had started to discover those two days. He thought maybe it was because he was tired, so he just went out to call the doctor over.
When Clyde entered the room, Max followed him and stopped at the door.
"Max, I'm going to consult a patient here ... Can you wait outside?" Clyde asked with a grin. He seemed to have understood what was going on. He had seen Max grow and knew about his little problem too. It was the first time he had seen the stern boy care so much about someone other than a member of his family. It was as if he couldn't be an inch away from him.
He had asked Max if Trevor was the one he was looking for, but Max wouldn't answer his curiosity, but just the way he treated him made Dr. Clyde understand what was going on in that house. But he still needed to consult with Trevor to learn more about him and what was happening to him...
"Hi young man, I'm Dr Clyde, Klayne's family doctor,".
" Hi, Dr Clyde... I'm Trevor" Trevor didn't waste time, he sighed before asking with a worried look "Um, I have a few questions, maybe you have an answer for me?".
"I know you have questions, but first let me ask something about your health. Max had explained to me that you have this condition that men can't touch you? "
"Yes... Since I was eleven, I faint when my male friends have physical contact with me, after that, I developed more symptoms like severe headaches, pain, I scratch myself... I realize that the symptoms depend on the pheromones of the person touching me..." Dejected, he sat at the edge of his bed looking down "But there's no cure for it, I'm used to living like this," Trevor added.
Dr Clyde just nodded, taking note.
Trevor looked at the doctor with a concern, "What worries me more is this heat...".
"What about it?" replied Dr Clyde lightly.
"Well, my heat period had always been regular... Before I came here, I already had my heat this month... And since my first night here, I've had another one. Is there something wrong with my body?" Trevor was genuinely curious as to what was happening to him...
"I see you have a good handle on your body... You don't have to worry so much... There really is nothing wrong with your body." Dr Clyde replied, only to see Trevor frown.
Scratching his head Dr Clyde sat up beside Trevor "Um, well, let me clarify, he can be due to two factors: one is the change in your environment and stress, but I don't think the change in your living environment is stressing you out that much. The second reason is that you're getting close to your mate, so your pheromones are reacting to his pheromones and trying to tell him that you're close and desperate to meet him,".
Automatically, Trevor looked towards the door, but instead of a relieved and happy look, Dr Clyde saw sadness and preoccupation.
"I think you guessed it already, right? Besides, Max told me that you don't react badly when he touches you ..." Dr Clyde inquired, wanting to know why the guy wasn't happy about finding his destined partner.
"Yeah ... Nothing happens when it's him ... It's the first time a man of my generation can touch me without me reacting badly...".
"Actually, I think your problem is only psychological and you will cure yourself if you know why you developed this condition and fight the cause... And your mate can help you with that," Dr Clyde tried to reassure Trevor, who looked too stressed for him.
"Yeah, maybe... " Trevor just shrugged his shoulders.
"You don't seem happy about it... Is it because it's Max, or is it because of something else?"
Trevor just sighed. "Maybe it's both."
"Well, you're going to have to work on that, I think you already know what happens when two mates who have already recognized each other drift apart, right?" Dr Clyde understood that the two boys needed each other to heal, it was fate. But it wasn't his place to interfere in the love lives of young people. All he could do was take care of them.
"I know...thank you, doctor, I just wanted to make sure there was nothing wrong with me... Don't worry about the mate thing... I'll take care of it," Trevor said with a genuine smile.
Dr Clyde was patting Trevor's head to encourage him when Max entered.
"Why are you touching him?" Max asked, shooting daggers in the doctor's direction with his eyes.
"Why can't I?" Dr Clyde teased, they were used to bicker like this.
"He'll be sick ... Are you really a doctor?" Max scoffed.
Dr Clyde just chuckled "Max calm down, I'm not going to steal him you know, besides, look... He's fine, " Dr Clyde patted Trevor on the head happily.
"What ... Is going on? I thought I was the only one who could touch you" Max frowned as he sat down next to Trevor, his only privilege was gone.
"Older people can ... it depends ... Well, it's complicated anyway, people of our generation can't..." Trevor sighed, looking at Max's happy face after hearing that.
"Okay young people, the old guy is going to leave now" Dr Clyde walked out of the room, leaving the two people together thinking they had something to talk about. "And Max..." He called Max, who soon joined him outside Trevor's room "Try not to be too possessive, and remember to be patient" Dr Clyde said before going back. Leaving Max looking at Trevor's door with a tender look.
Left in his room, Trevor began to ponder his situation. Was it luck or a curse that he found his mate on the very day he returned to this town? He thought. His emotions were all mixed up, he couldn't even tell himself if he should be happy or not.
Soon he began to feel frustrated with himself. He felt that his thoughts were really conflicting. In the past, he had dreamed of having someone for himself, he wanted love, he wanted someone he could touch, someone he could feel, someone who could give him a family and a sense of security. When he lost his grandfather, he was very lonely and thought if he could have someone in his life maybe things would be easier and less painful.
But now that he learned that the man he kissed that same morning was his mate, the person who was meant for him, he couldn't be happy.
He had touched him, felt him, and liked it very much. He knew he would be easily hooked. Actually, he had gotten what he was desperate for, but now he wanted to run away.
Maybe he knew when he craved love that it was something he couldn't achieve, that it was just a dream. And even when he had the chance to be in a relationship with someone, he never thought about finding his mate. So embarking on this physically and maybe emotionally destructive journey scared him to death.
But did he have any other choice? What were really the consequences if he chose to ignore all these mate and bonding things? After all, this was how he had lived until now.
But he knew that ignoring his feelings for his mate for too long, or walking away from them, had repercussions on his physical and mental health. He knew that he had been fine until now because he hadn't met him yet. He knew that even if the mating and bonding hadn't been consummated yet; once your body recognized your mate, there was nothing you could do to run away from it.
He had heard how intense love was once you found your mate, how possessive you could get, how desperate you would be if he wasn't by your side, how the sex was mind-blowing and how you could die if you tried to break the bond between two partners.
Trevor didn't have the guts to be that deeply in love with someone. He'd seen how that so-called bond could turn you into a mess. He'd seen his mother, who had a one-sided bond with his father, lose her life slowly and painfully because her lover had chosen to bond with someone else, leaving her in agony. Trevor didn't want to end up like that.
He had certainly heard a lot about how beautiful and amazing love between two mates could be, but he had also heard of many people who had ended up in a toxic and sad relationship with their mate. Yes, it was a good thing to find the person you were supposed to be with, but what if he was a jerk? A bad guy? Their relationship would still going to be unhappy in some ways.
There was love that hurts and even killed, Trevor didn't want to end up in that kind of desperate love story. He didn't really know Max yet, but he was already desperately attracted to him like a magnet, it was like something was pulling him strongly towards Max and that feeling was just disturbing to him.
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