Prudy's pov
In the music hall was where I'd get my head clear about stuff that I can't talk to people about. I set up my semi-acoustic and sit on the floor by the wall. I'm not decided on what to play yet. The night I overdosed came creeping.
"Monsters" by Justin Beiber and Shawn Mendes. I hit the first chord and drifted away slowly in my head.
I got a call,
"Prudence, you need to come home, now!"
"Papa, is something wrong?"
"Something wrong? Police found marijuana in your room and you asking if something's wrong?" Mom answers.
"Papa I'm I on loud speaker?"
"Just get here sweetie, we will talk about it."
I cut the contact and took a cub to the airport.
"Hello,"
"Prudy, the auditions for 'grownish' are tomorrow. Luka is gonna be theeere." I know how excited she is about the show and I really hope she gets the part she wants to audition for.
"Yes, yes, I will be there."
"Where are... Are you at the airport?"
"Yes, I'm going home, pops called."
"Why, is everything okay?"
"Police found weed."
"Oh my God!"
"It's okay, I'm sure they had it handled. Gotta go they called me in, bye."
"Be..." I cut the contact.
I open the front door and mom is seated by the kitchen table. She gets up and walks towards me and before I could say her name, she smacks me.
"Let me knooow." I play the last chord of monsters and Kayc is clapping.
"Monsters. You were good. Are you okay though? Looks like the song really got to you. You are crying." I had not felt my dump cheeks before then and I wipe them off and laugh.
"Guess it's just a very nice song." I get up to disconnect my acoustic to avoid the embarrassing moment and he holds my waist from behind.
"Kayc, I'm really not in the mood."
"Relaax, I have a surprise for you. Taraaan." He says holding up a khaki bag.
"What is in there?" He sits and starts to unwrap it. There's a box which he bring out and opens to reveal a necklace.
"Kayc, I don't mean to sound rude but you know we are not dating right?"
"It's just a simple present and is it wrong to like you Prudy?"
"Kayc,.."
"Prudy, I don't wanna be like this with you. I don't wanna just be with you if we fuckin or making out. I..."
"Don't. Don't say it." I know what's coming and I don't think either of us is ready for what happens after.
"But I am, I'm in love with you and I'm sorry but Prudy we have been doing all these crazy things together. What is wrong with us doing the same with a tittle? And why do I, does anyone have to be sorry for loving you. You are pretty and so talented."
"Kayc." I'm sure he is intentionally ignoring me right now and the song 'words' by daya plays in my mind. There's no way I'm ever letting a guy in my life only to walk out of it taking a pieces of it with him. I mean he is cool and all but...
"I can't do this." I pick my guitar and stuff it fast it's bag and begin to walk out.
"Why?" He shouts after me and I stop in my tracks. "Who just wants to hook up? Who wants to use someone for sex. Leave it to you to do that. You have never loved me have you? You cannot even look me in the eye right now? You are a girl but does not want to be committed to one guy?"
"You want to judge me Kayc?" I'm really getting irritated by his tone.
"When we started this, I made it clear that it's not going to be anything and you promised not to bring this up. What changed? So a girl should commit but guys are allowed to screw whomever they want whenever? Why do you guys just go on and spoil everything? Everything was perfect wasn't it? What more do you want? You think you can just make decisions for me and judge me for my own because I'm female? Screw you Kayc. Screw you!!" I turn again to walk away and he pushes me against the wall and looks in my eye holding tight against my shoulders.
"What are you afraid of." I was so tied to Allan that it broke me when he left but there's no way I'm talking to this potential problem.
"Let go." I say between my teeth and he tries to kiss me.. I wanted to kiss back but that would only mean that I lost so I push him back and before I realize it he is holding his face. I stumble back and point at him. "Stay away from me."
I walk away. I cannot go to my room I don't feel chatty and Abbie is one of a kind when it comes to not shutting up. That girl talks non stop so I make my way to Kiara's.
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"Hey."
"Hey." The guy walks out as I make my way to a blushing Kiara.
"Who..." She doesn't even let me finish.
"Carl."
"Wtf, you said he had a girlfriend."
"Who said we fucked?" She lets out a silly smile.
"I don't need a degree from Harvard to know that."
"Okay, okay, he came here and well as usual we were chilling and I couldn't do anything because he has a girlfriend so..." She seemed to replay the whole thing in her head and she kept biting her lip.It's disgusting.
"Well, before he left i got up to hug him and i kept wishing I could feel his lips so and he said. 'Let's cut this I know we both want this' and some other things I did not really hear because, well, I kissed him and one thing led to another and here we are." My mouth remains open for a while before I sit and place my guitar aside. Honestly I expected that and the only thing I want to tell her right now is that she is stupid but she's happy and I don't wanna ruin that for her.
Abbie's pov,
"Brandy, hey." He turns around and I'm waving vigorously jumping to catch his attention.
"Abbie." He matches my energy and waves back then I jog to where he stood waiting for me to catch up.
"Hey, it's unlike you to be in this part of campus." The field was really not his thing.
"I came to clear my head."
"Is everything okay?" I begin to get worried and he laughs and I get confused.
"Isn't it funny how human perceive life? Like I just said I came to clear my head and you think something is wrong. Je vais tre's bien.
"Aaah," I laugh trying to hide my embarasment.
"The president chick you hang out with is playing today?"
"Yea. It's a friendly." He tries to bring the normal mood back and I take the cue fast to avoid further awkwardness.
"All cool, you watch her I need to get to something."
"Rynna? Why not stick around a minute."
"Yeiks girl it's really important. I will catch you later." He smiles and walks away. I watch him disappear.
"Something is definitely wrong." Yea I said that out loud and everyone gives unsatisfied glares at me. I turn to excuse myself and enter the hall looking around for empty seats.
"Abbie." Chanel's bff Mitchie waves at me and I see an empty seat besides her. I wave back and let out my best 'please let me come seat there' smile. Oh wait, Chanel is there too. I stop smiling for a while to think. Hey, it's a seat it's not like you sitting on her lap. I walk fast and when I get there Chanel switches and seats where the empty seat was.
"Oops. Taken." She stares up at me and I really want to pop those eyes with my fingers.
"Oh, okay, but you know ass doesn't get bigger by sitting on two chairs right? Oh, and dyeing hair blonde?" I let out a chuckle. She stares and stands. Mitchie pushes to my side and thank God she's separating the two of us.
The game is about to commerce and everyone is betting on Kiara. I knew she was good but people betting on her? This is sooo coool!
The commentator releases the screens for the score counting and the game begins. Kiara throws a glance at me and smiles when I wake up to cheer so loud that everyone's eyes are on me and I feel really stupid for it. Chanel did not miss the golden chance to laugh. What's her problem anyway.
Soon the game is over and Kiara had the most dribbles and shoots as well as scores. Damn, she's good, what am I good at? The whole team is celebrating and the guest team is frowned and leaving. It's a good thing we didn't loose in our home. What an embarrassment it could have been right?
"You never do anything quietly uuh." Sally says behind me after I squeal when he tickles my waist from behind.
"Don't do that! I could have fallen and died! Then what?" Yea that was so over.
"Why do you always say that. It always has to be a heart attack or death. You fear death that much?" He is leading me out of the hall and I Remember I didn't say goodbye to Mitchy but Chanel...
"Don't you?"
"Fear death? It's something that will happen to all of us sometime."
"I know but..."
"We had a win today let's not discuss death. Shall we?" He is pointing at the icecream palour and I can't say no to icecream.
"You have..." He shows with his finger and I understand he's talking about my cheek or lip having icecream stains.
"Here?" I have no idea where he's pointing his finger is all over my face in my pov.
"No, lower." I scrub lightly below my nose. "No," he get's up. "Let me help." He gets the cream and sits back.
Wtf is he doing?
We are laughing as we walk down the hallways and across to the hostels. He holds my hand and my body makes a jump but he doesn't let go. I look down to the part where out hands meet and look up at him. I look ahead quick in the fear of being caught staring.
Henry and some other dudes walk towards us and he suddenly lets go of my hand and keeps his distance. Wow.
"Bruuh" they do the shoulder bump hugs and it's like he suddenly doesn't recognize me.
"Abbie right? Bruh!!" He looks at Sally and does a dramatic finger click biting his lip and they all laugh.
Are they laughing at me?
"Uuh, sorry I need to rush. My roommate just texted me." I lie and leave and it's like I was never there. Sally does not even look my way one bit.
I try the knob and it opens. I stomp into the room and Prudy is sniffing white substance on the table.
"Prudy?" I call out carefully as if I feared my voice was going to break glass. She stares at me plainly and bends back to sniff a whole strap.
"What... Is that..." She does the shhh sound on me and i lower my voice. " Is that cocaine?" I whisper.
She laughs hysterically and sits up.
"Come..." She builds another strap or so I called it. Here. She hands me a rolled paper.
"What the hell. This is a hostel we going to get caught."
"Don't be a p**** c'mon. Go on, it's fun."
"No! You need to stop! Imma call Kiara. stay right there."
"Don't! This is who I am. I'm done with all this tryna be a good girl shit! I'm tired of tryna please people and so should you Abbie beiby, you think Sally will love you? He has never loved anyone. He uses them and you are not even his type! He's gonna fuck you and fuck Kiara after that or maybe me! Uuh, tell me, do you wanna live for that guy or do you wanna be you? C'mon." What she said might be true. Half of it well all of it except the part of being me. I don't do drugs and I don't wanna be that girl.
"What's you thinking about? Your drama queen mom? Mine died. I killed her. I killed them." She laughs this time pain evident and sniffs the strap she had made and another and another then stares at me.
"I watched them bur..." Blood starts dripping from her nose.
"Oh shit!" I rush to hold her as she passes out.
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