Capítulo 38: THE START OF FALLING APART!

{10 years back in Tang Xian's memory lane}

"Ah lam just stop it. Please don't do this with me. I am feeling sick... Please...Don't touch me. Please... Please...leave me alone, please."

But before I could say more a slap on my left cheek echoed in my head. Her slap almost showed me stars and I felt extremely dizzy for some seconds and then her dirty mouth opened up to make my mind and heart feel sick.

"When you kiss your baby brother like this don't you feel sick? When you take advantage of his innocence at that time you don't feel like vomiting? How you go and look into your own reflection and his parent's eyes after doing everything dirty with your Judi??? Don't you feel ashamed of yourself?? Don't you feel disgusted at your thinking and doings??"

Her words were piercing thrones in my heart. Yes, I was in love with my Judi since the day I took him in my arms. When I was small, all my feelings were innocent of him. I never meant anything bad for him.

But something changed in my life when I turned 16. One day when my Judi came home to spend the holiday with me, that night something changed in my feelings towards him.

Judi! How to tell you about him?

He was that cold breeze in the summer heat.

He was like that mountain water making a beautiful sound while running from rocks.

He was like those colours which made my life's canvas colourful and bright.

He was that Moon who spread his light in scary dark nights.

The one who revolved around the Earth and kept alive but very few knew that he was the reason because Earth was alive. His naughtiness and courage made it easy for Earth to smile. Her Moon was naughty that night also. He was, as usual, being lazy to get up after we talked about his favourite subject earth and moon. He asked me to carry him in the room on my back like any other day.

But when I took him on my back he started sniffing and nuzzling on my neck. While making him stop doing that I turned back and at the same time he turned his face to peck on my cheek. Our lips met for a few good seconds but that brat didn't flinch even after doing it mistakenly. He continued that kiss till his heart content like he was doing what was really normal thing to do.

But for me, everything stopped around me. The earth. The moon every bit of our story, every second that we spent alone, his every request, his every demand, his words about being soulmates become alive and played in my mind like small movies.

Something churned in my stomach and my lower abdomen felt something twisting and turning and then the pleasure of getting kissed by him got me the rarest pleasure which was totally unexplainable for me. I got him in my room and put him to sleep and found the way to the bathroom first. off course with his permission.

What happened that night was a big shock for me. When I went inside the bathroom, the first thing I did was to check on my pants. I...I found my p**** paining and swelling in bigger size like anything. That time was the worse time of my life ever. I felt like if I will not do something then my pain will take my life soon.

But then I remembered all the heated discussion of my friends in school when they spoke about the first kiss with their girlfriends. Their stories about getting aroused with just with the kiss from their love.

LOVE!

Yes, he said when he first time kissed his love on her lips, he felt a heat surged in the whole body and then his p***** was also got swelled up big.

WHAT???WHY???

But why I felt aroused when I got kissed by my Judi?

Why?? Why I felt pleasure when Judi kissed me on my lips mistakenly. No this is not correct. I should not feel like this for my little brother. He is a boy and I am too. How I will face everyone at home if I will keep continuing to feel like this?? What he told me about how to handle this thing??? You need to release it by taking it in your hands and then stroking it.

No no. I can't do it but he told one more thing to take a cold shower. Yes, I will take a cold shower. I open the tap of a cold shower and soaked myself till the time it doesn't get into normal size. When I came out of the shower I found my little lion was sleeping peacefully like always and then I laid beside him like always. Yes keeping a pillow between us.

I kept a distance between us most of the time but Judi was beyond understanding. He never listened to me and the worse thing happened in our camp that night. When everyone slept in their respective tents, Judi came to my tent, where I was sharing my tent with my best friend from school.

He came directly in my arms crying that he had seen a nightmare. My friend saw the cute crying Judi and like they always found his every antic adorable and lovable, he found this thing also cute. He gave his bed to Judi and went to Judi's tent, leaving me dumbfounded. I knew something was not correct and I looked at Judi and under my scrutinizing gaze, he spilt the beans in front of me.

"Xian ge I was missing you so much and I asked teacher Zhao to send me to you but I wanted to sleep with you, so I just came here."

I looked at him with disbelief.

"How can you do this Judi? You know lying is sin. You have to learn this quick Judi... Otherwise, I am not going to speak with you again."

It was shocking for him that time, for the first time his Xian ge threatened him for something which he doesn't want to do. He was speechless, so many emotions came out at once when the silver drops suddenly started to drop from the monologue eyes.

"Xian ge...I...You...you can't...."

His breathing almost stopped beyond my imagination, as I chocked him to death. His whole face went red and tears tinted the cheeks some more but still, he looked more adorable and cute, just like a porcelain doll. I took him into my embrace and caressed his head like an elder. It took him a lot of time to calm down but he calmed down.

"Judi you sleep now on gege's bed I will sleep on..."

But cranky voice stopped me in middle.

"Gege I want to sleep with you on the same bed. I don't want to sleep alone."

"But Judi these beds is so small and I am with you in the same tent."

When I showed him the size of the bed he didn't have anything to say to prove his points, so he chose the deadliest weapon of all time against me, which he used rarely but when he used it, it always worked.

"You are not my Xian ge anymore. You are not listening to me. Only ordering me. I want to sleep with you only."

But I was determined to not to listen to him, so I tried to reject him once more.

"Judi do you know how annoying you are right now. You just don't want to listen to your Xian ge. What should I do with you? Why don't you just listen to me?"

I almost shouted at him. Scaring the hell out of him. My fire emitting eyes were enough for him too scared to death and when my voice also increased too. He shuddered from inside. What I was supposed to do in that condition? I was also scared to death to sleep next to him when that thing happened a few days back only.

I was trying to avoid him, his touches but he was stubborn. Yes, I was scared to be near him. For my unnatural feelings for him. I was scared of myself so much at that time that I felt my heart will come out of my ribcage. I wanted to make him understand but ended up making him cry.

No matter how much things I wanted to make simple they got difficult. It was me who made him the way he was. It was me who always listened to him when he asked me to hear. It was me who always done everything when he asked me to do. It was me who always supported his all crazy behaviour.

Everything because of my selfishness. Everyone always said the Judi was clingy, gummy, over-possessive about his Xian ge but it was not the whole truth.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Dear readers, Minor's getting abused are not remained new thing in society now a days. If you find any of kids like this who got into situation like this please try to help that child without blaming him or her for it.

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