I ran toward Snarf while spamming "Drain Life." Even though I made my resolve I still wanted to be as far away as possible.
"DRAIN LIFE! DRAIN LIFE! DRAIN LIFE! DRAIN LIFE! DRAIN LIFE! "
Finally, something seemed to happen when I was about a meter away from Snarf. Aren't I a caster?!? Isn't this melee range essentially?!? I might as well be humping Snarf with the zombies. No, that isn't the issue right now.
I felt a surge of warmth hit my body, it felt like all the exhaustion I had accumulated since coming to this world had vanished. I looked at Snarf to see if it was affecting it any. Holy shit Snarf is huge, it looked a lot smaller from my original position. It seemed like Snarf's movements had ever so slightly slowed, but not much.
Ah it looked at me, I think it noticed I was doing something. It started to furiously try to remove the zombies pinning it down and lunge at me. Shit, this isn't going fast enough, it is going to break free and kill me at this rate. Can't I "Drain Life" any faster? Usually this is where an anime character yells louder and his power becomes stronger... I guess I have nothing to lose right? If it doesn't work at least I'll die in style.
"DON'T GET TOO COCKY SNARF! THIS ISN'T EVEN MY FINAL FORM! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!"
I concentrated everything I had into increasing that warm feeling I had, tugging at the invisible "rope" I felt. The warm feeling in my body seemed to magnify, it was like going from a lukewarm bath to a hot tub. My skin felt like it was tingling. Snarf seemed to lose almost all its energy. It collapsed back on the ground as the zombies continued attacking.
I was unable to maintain my standing posture and took a knee to the ground. My vision started narrowing a bit and it was getting harder to stay focused. What is happening? Did I overextend myself and now I'm dying? That's probably it. I am a useless piece of shit after all, I should be dead. Why is the world so shitty? Yema and Reen probably hate me for sure. Why am I still alive?
Why am I self loathing all of a sudden.... MORE self loathing than usual that is. This seems worse than usual. Oh I'm sorry world I'm such a sack of shit. Gah, what is going on. I was barely maintaining "Drain Life" now... wait "Drain Life" probably isn't free. It requires a resource like mana or something right? Up until now I had never expended enough mana to notice.
I'm a fucken idiot, I should go kill myself. No, I can do that later, keep thinking. I heavily used "Drain Life" so I must of used a ton of mana and... this is probably the blowback from it. Why am I such a useless child? No wonder Dad hated me... FUCK THIS SHIT!
"Hah...hah..."
I'm barely holding it together, my breath is getting ragged. Ok think. In video games you don't see negatives when you are tapped out of mana, but this is the real world. It is like losing too much blood, there is a negative impact on you.
Fuck no girl would want a gangly and pasty fucker like me. Fuck, stop it! It looks like low levels of mana impacts the mind. Reduced....body massage? What was I saying? Fuck, reduced focus, and apparently any mental barriers my shit ass self setup can't be maintained. The only question is do I recover with time or do I just die outright?
I'm on both knees now, with one hand out still using "Drain Life". I want to make sure Snarf doesn't get back up. My hand finally drops, it seems I got nothing left. I collapse on the ground.
Well good news Snarf isn't moving anymore...bad news... looks like I'm about to pass out...
"Zombies... go hide in the forest. Snarf... fuck you... you...are....the....worst....charac..."