Capítulo 120: Chapter 117

I reached the park and spotted him sitting on a bench while tapping his feet and chewing on his lip which he always do when he is nervous. I sighed and walked to him and cleared my throat to make my presence known. He looked at me and smiled. "You really came! Thank you." "Why wouldn't I if I agreed?" "No it's just that I didn't expect that you will finally talk to me." "I am still not talking to you. I just came here to listen whatever you wanted to say and done with it for all." I hissed and he sighed. "Please sit." I scoffed but complied. There was an awkward silence between us and I started considering leaving already. "I am sorry." He started making me snap back from my thoughts. "I know what I did was wrong. I should tell you before. B-But I didn't want to hurt you." I laughed sarcastically. "You really SAVED me from getting hurt, Kim Taehyung." I rolled my eyes. "I am sorry Ji. I really am and I regret doing what I did to you but can't we forget our past and live happily in present. Please Ji, I don't want to stay away from you. You are my best friend and a very important person in my life who understands me. I don't want to loose you." I wiped a solitary tear which managed to roll down my cheek. "Can't we start over?" "I am sorry Taehyung but I still love you and you know that. I can't just pretend that nothing ever happened between us and live happily. I lost a lover Taehyung and I am not strong enough to move on already. It was you who left me not me. My heart still beats for you." I sobbed. "I am sorry Ji. Please don't say that. I am already feeling guilty don't make me more." He started crying which made my heart ache. I never wanted to see him like this. I wanted to hug him and then kiss him but the reality is different now. He is no longer mine. "Are you happy?" He looked into my eyes and I averted my gaze. "With him. Are you happy finally?" He was silent for some seconds before speaking. "We are not together." I frowned. "You guys look pretty close for someone who are not in a relationship." I scoffed. "I think he likes me but there is something stopping him. Maybe his past but he doesn't tell me no matter how much I try." I clicked my tongue hearing him talking about someone else like this. I squeezed my eyes shut and took a deep breath and turned towards him and grabbed his hands in mine and saw him startled. "Tae, can you promise me something?" He nodded and squeezed my hands signaling me to go ahead. "Promise me. Promise me that you won't give up on your love." His eyes widened. "Ji..." "Promise me that you will be happy because seeing you happy will make me happy." He started crying again and I couldn't stop my own tears. "I won't be with you but promise me that you will be happy nonetheless." "H-How can I be happy without you Jimin." I shook my head in denial and wiped his tears. "You will. You have Yunki hyung. He is a nice guy and he is better for you than me." "B-But I want a friend too Jimin." "I will always be there for you but I won't be with you." He choked and hugged me and I rubbed his back soothingly to calm him down. "Please Tae..." I broke the hug and wiped his tears. "Promise me that you won't try to talk to me anymore." He looked at me with begging eyes. "Promise me baby. Please?" He slowly nodded. I looked at his red puffy eyes and red nose. Oh how much I miss him. My eyes fell on his lips which I missed kissing but can't as they don't belong to me to kiss anymore. "Tae?" He looked up into my eyes with his teary ones. "Can..... Can I kiss you for the last time please?" He choked and planted his lips on mine. It was not the kiss of love but rather it was the kiss of saying our final goodbyes to each other. I tried to pour all of my emotions into the kiss. Telling him that I already forgave him. That I support him and will always be there for him. We broke the kiss and I pecked his lips before pecking his forehead. "Forget me baby please." I uttered with pain in my heart and immediately left from there as I knew if I stayed one more second, I wouldn't be able to leave him. Oh how my heart says to turn around and run back to him and kiss him again. But my mind knows that what I did was right. Please always smile and stay happy Tae. I don't want a single frown on your beautiful face. I love you baby and always will no matter who comes in my life. You are my first love and I don't regret spending all that time with you. I am happy that you were my first. I am happy that I got a chance to experience the feeling of love with you.