Capítulo 97: Chapter 95

I was laying on bed beside Jeongguk. He went to sleep a long time ago but I couldn't. A thought was lingering my mind after the incident with my mom today. After thinking a lot I came to a decision that I should tell my parents about my uality. Anyway, I was going to tell them about me being in a relationship with Taehyung but since he is not in the chapter anymore, I at least should tell them about me being gay. I am afraid of their reaction but I never got this much courage before. And also they are going to leave soon and what if I won't have this courage anymore? I should tell them. They deserve this. I turned in side and looked at the table clock on the bedside table which showed 1:21. It's too late. They must be sleeping by now but then again I will never get this chance again. I couldn't wait for the next day so I got up from my bed careful to not make any noise and disturb Ggukie's sleep. When I got successful in walking out of the room, I sighed in relief and walked to the next door before knocking it. I was getting anxious by every passing second. When I got no reply I knocked again and a bit louder than before. "Coming" I heard my mom's voice which made me nervous. Soon I heard footsteps coming closer and then the door opened reveling my half sleepy mom who could barely open her eyes. My eyes travelled behind her on my dad who sat up on his bed looking at me with sleepy eyes. I started feeling guilty to wake them up at such an hour. "Jimin what happen?" My mom asked. "Kid are you OK?" came my dad's voice. I started fiddling with the hem of one of my sleeve. After telling myself few encouraging words mentally, I lifted my eyes and look into their eyes time to time. "I want to tell you guys something" I said and my dad nodded. "What is it Jimin? Are you OK" My mom asked worried. I nodded "I am fine mom but please let me tell you this." she nodded. I inhaled a deep breath and met both of their gaze. "Mom dad, I am gay" I blurted out and bit my lip in fear. They both were silent while looking at me with wide eyes making me more anxious with time. My mom cleared "Umm.. It's OK honey...I..." "You are joking right?" My father cut her off. His face was pale and his eyes were wide like he has seen a ghost. I my lip before shaking my head in denial. "But you are not gay Jimin" He spoke again making me frown and somewhat hurt. "Darling? What are you saying?" My mom asked and while walking to him and kept her hand on his shoulder. "Minji, you don't understand. This kid here is just confused. No way on earth my son can be a " My eyes widen and so did mom's "What are you even saying!?" My dad turns and looked at me with begging eyes. "Jimin please tell me this was just a joke and you are not gay. Please son. If you didn't find the girl of your choice, I will find her. I will start looking from now. I will bring the perfect girl for you" I couldn't believe my ears. Tears were started cascading down my cheeks and I stood there stunned at my own father's words. "Hyunwoo? What are you even saying? I didn't know you can treat your child like this?" My mom said. "D-Dad?....I am gay. I like boys and you can't c-change it" "NO!" his outburst made me flinch on my own place. "No you are not! You are just confuse Jimin. And don't you worry. I will help you." "Jimin baby please go to your room. I will talk to him OK?" My mom said and I sadly nodded before leaving the room and walking back to Gguk's. I plopped down on the bed but couldn't fall asleep. I can't believe my own father said that. To some extent I predicted this response but seeing it for real broke my heart. Will my dad hate me after this? Will he disown me? I don't want to leave my family. I love my parents and Gguk. What if he won't even let me meet Gguk? The very thought scared me and I broke into light sobs.