Capítulo 29: Chapter 27

"Seokjin ah open the door please." "Seokjin won't you even listen to your hyung? Please open the door we can discuss this matter calmly." "NO HYUNG! THERE IS NOTHING TO DISCUSS ABOUT!!" I shouted. I was feeling deceived. Deceived by my own ing parents. How could they do that to me? Won't my happiness matter to them? "Jin ah! Please bro open the door." "No hyung. Even YOU lied to me. Why didn't you tell me about this before? WHY!?" I couldn't stop myself from crying. The pain inside my heart was making me feel overwhelming. So many thoughts were running through my mind making me feel dizzy. My mind started to swirl between the thoughts of Namjoon and this marriage. I love him. I can't live without him. How will I spend my life with someone whom I am never going to love? "Seokjin please don't cry we will find a way." There is no way I can go against my parents. I don't have any choice but to agree with them. "Jin ah?" "Hyung please I don't want to talk with anyone right now. Please leave me alone." "Ok bro I am going. Calm yourself down ok. And remember your hyung will always be with you." I heard sound of foot steps fading away in distance indicating that he left. I went to my bed and laid down. I covered myself fully with comforter and again started crying. I sneaked my hand under my pillow and grabbed my phone. When I switched it on I found many miscalls and messages from Namjoon which sent a pain of guilt to my heart even if it is not my fault. I removed the comforter and sat up on the bed with my back leaned on it's headboard. I took some deep breath to calm down myself and dialed his number. "Hello?" The familiar voice caused me to shed more tears but I covered my mouth to block any sound from escaping. "Jinie?" "How are you?" I asked trying my best to not cry again. "I am missing you" "I am missing *sob* you too" I couldn't help and finally let out a sob. "Jinie? Are you crying? What happen? Are you ok love?" He asked with worry coating his voice. "Yes" "Don't lie to me. What happened? Tell me." "Nothing Joonie. *sob* I was just *sob* just missing you. It was so long that we talked like t-this" "I know and I am sorry for being like that. I read your letter but you didn't have to apologize. I can never get mad at you for long. I love you too much for that." My tears were flowing like two streams that didn't want to stop and his words were not helping either. "I know *sob* but I wanted to apologize for being dumb and doubt on you. I am sorry." "Hey it's ok love and I already told you to stop apologizing." He said in a soothing voice which calmed down my inner turmoil a bit. "I can't wait for you to come back soon" I can feel his smile through phone and my stomach churned at the thought of telling him truth."J-Joonie" "Mmm?" "It may took sometime for me to come back." "What? You are not coming back!?" slight fear crawled over my mind at his reaction. "Not now. Maybe next week or...the week after next." I spoke while holding my breath. I don't know how will he react at that. There was silence for few minutes which almost made me think that he hanged up if slight breathing sounds were not coming from other end. "Is everything ok Jinie? I can feel it that you are hiding something from me." "I told you everything is fine. It's just that...there is...there is some meeting and I am obliged to attend it. I am sorry love." "It's ok. Although I am sad to know that you will be not next to me but if you promise me to call every night then I can bear this distance." "I-I will." I know I am lying but I had to make him stop from asking me questions any further which I will never be able to answer. "Ok I am hanging up now" "Fine. I will miss you and I Love you and only you." "I love you too." before I break down completely in front of him, I cut the call. Why is this happening to me? Why?