"Ma…ma?"
Lan Yiyan opened her eyes as she mutters that words. The nightmare she has up until now, the dreams that remind her of her depression, grudge, sadness. Everything disappears as if they do not exist in the first place and all that left is only warmth.
Lan Yiyan dazedly rises from the bed after she woke up and look at the surrounding with confusion. The more bewildered she becomes.
She didn't know…
She didn't know why she's sleeping here…
The last memory she has is how she and Yin Yu encounter that scum she hates so much, as for the rest, she can't remember anything at all…! The gap in her memory make her uneasy, but the moment she realizes that she didn't wear her clothes properly, her uneasiness can only increase, which resulting in her increasing awareness.
Countless possibilities run through her small head, such as that scum kidnaped her and taken to this room and that every house design might be same which makes her think that this place is only similar to her new room, but it's not her room at all!
Although this room is indeed her and Yin Yu new room, she hasn't really put anything that makes her recognize that this is her new room! Especially when all that she can remember is how she meets that scum! She can't think of any other possibilities anymore!
*Creak*
"Oh…Finally awake slee--!?"
Lan Yiyan immediately makes and throws a black fire spear to the door without any hesitation as soon as she heard the door opened. Yet the voice she heard make her head which is full of confusion cleared up in an instant and make the spear disappear in an instant.
"Yu?"
"Who else would it be if it's not me?" Yin Yu calmly say while he sighs in relief inside. That spear just now is so close! Just a bit more and it might pierce through his throat! Yin Yu truly caught unprepared right now as he didn't expect to get attacked as soon as he enters the room!
Irritation build inside him as he didn't know the reason Lan Yiyan attack him as soon as he entered, yet hearing her next question, his irritation disappear in an instant replaced with blank look.
"Can I ask, why am I here and why am I not wearing clothes right now?"
Yin Yu didn't know what to say…
Why is she here? Isn't it obvious that it's all because she passed out?
Then…why's she not wearing anything? A row of sweats dropped from Yin Yu head while he's looking at Lan Yiyan again, indeed why didn't she wear something? The answer is obvious, isn't it? It's because Yin Yu forget to put her clothes back! And considering Lan Yiyan who wake up with that circumstances, it's obvious why she has become wary of him!
'Of course! Lan Yiyan is at the end a girl, waking up and seeing she didn't wear any clothes will make any girl panicked! Not to mention a boy is living with her, she might imagine me doing this and that to her while she's sleeping even though I haven't done anything! Yet…'
'Wait…wait…wait…'
'I'm...a boy...'
Yin Yu look at Lan Yiyan again and think back of all of his action up till now. He undresses Lan Yiyan as it hinders his sight, touch her breast to check her heartbeat, looking at her for further check, and leaving her alone forgetting to put her clothes back. Thinking up to now, Yin Yu realizes that all of his action isn't proper at all! In fact, he wouldn't be surprised if he's called sex offender the very next day!
Disaster…
It's a total disaster…
Lan Yiyan looks at Yin Yu with confusion, trying to ask Yin Yu why she's here. Yet all Yin Yu can see from her eyes is suspicion! Asking why he's taking off her clothes without her permission!
Yin Yu didn't know what to say...
He can't say that he forgets that he's a boy right? Just because he's a girl in his past life doesn't mean that it's a proper conduct right?
Thinking about it carefully, everyone may have change gender a few times as they reincarnate, and the only difference between Yin Yu and them is that he remembers a portion of his memories while all of them forget about it!
Yin Yu didn't know what to say, yet he also knows that not answering is not an option, which is why the only thing Yin Yu can do is by answering everything honestly as he's aware that he has done nothing wrong! No, at least…his heart didn't deem anything he does as wrong at all!
That's why... all he needs to do right now is say it to her…calmly, honestly, and straightforwardly without any traces of lie inside.
"You don't remember? You started to feel pain out of nowhere and passed out when we're talking. I've judged with my kingly wisdom that taking you home and let you rest is the best decision! Which is why you're here right now."
"As for why you're not wearing anything…you're sweating the whole times that your clothes might become sticky and make you hard to breathe which is why I took it off."
Yin Yu reply her answer calmly while hiding the last fact away, although he wants to be honest, somehow, he didn't want to answer it truthfully at all. No… it's more like, he totally didn't need to mention that last part at all!
Lan Yiyan weakly nod her head after she heard Yin Yu words, she didn't remember…her memories after meeting that scum is fuzzy, she can't remember it at all!
"What are we talking about before I got unconscious?"
Yin Yu feel relief when he heard that question as it means that he wouldn't get judged as a sex offender! But, Yin Yu also didn't answer her after he heard her words. Her question is simple, it's straightforward.. yet he's afraid that she passed out because of that question again!
That chains…the chains that twirled all over her soul, the chains that may make her unconscious again if she says the wrong words, the chains that took her life as a hostage.
'Chained by the god of fate…precisely so…'
Yin Yu remember the word she says about fate and looking at those chains, make him want to laugh as it's indeed what's happening. Her soul or we can say her fate is chained with a layer of chains to ensure that she can't run away from it. To break through these chains, might require a good resolve…a resolve...to die.
Yin Yu want to ask her a lot of things, but seeing the chains around her soul, Yin Yu choose to withhold his question as he might trigger and make that chains work again. It's only passing out this time, but can he be sure that she wouldn't die because of it next?
Lan Yiyan looks at Yin Yu for a while, but seeing that he didn't say anything, she also chooses to not say anything to him. What they talk about isn't important, the important part is how she starts to feel pain after she talks about it.
She can mostly figure out what're they talking about, no rather than what they talk about, it might be what did she think when she talks about that topic. With this, she has confirmed that a chain has perfectly latched itself to her fate, binding and controlling her life. Even so, thinking about it would only make her laugh because of the answer of a prideful clueless girl that wishes to be a boy.
'I'm chained by the god of fate…suppressed by higher beings…even so…'
'I will…rebel…'
The flame of rebellion has been lit!
And we wouldn't know whether it's good or bad.
AN:
I'm considering, whether to redo all my chapter all so that there's no confusion in the future or editing while continue to write some chapter while announcing the changes I made...hmmm...