Capítulo 31: day 1of trip ( had a lover like you )

Then ,,,,,,? Seeing Jihara silent, KAKERU says """Then... did Moon talk to you this time? Did you go to his house?

Jihara shrugged his shoulders and said """How can I not go to his house , while I myself was crazy to see him,,,,,Yes, I went to his house but was stopped at the gate of his luxurious house. , I knew I had met Moon's mom before so I used his name , after a while Moon's mom called me inside. She was surprised to see me as to why I had gone to her house. , because the last time I told her in the hospital """I promised her that I would never tell anyone about Moon's suicide , before she could say anything I myself said """"ahh Ma'am I have come from school, that is actually a book from the library which has been with your son for a long time , and I work to maintain the library So I came to get that book back.

With how much fear I was able to speak that day , Moon's mom had answered just as easily. """My son has not come home for a week. You can look into his room if you want. , maybe you can find that book there ,

I was surprised because her only son was not coming home for a week and she seemed happy just making her business calls. After this a servant took me to Moon's room Looking at the room made me realize once again how lonely Moon felt. There wasn't a single photo of him in his room. There was no decoration,Some clothes were lying scattered Maybe no one went to his room, I looked in the bookcase but I didn't find that book, I was worried about the moon, not about the books. ,I returned disappointed, but my confusion was not over.,kaito asked me why i was upset ,?

Yes, he already knew that I was worried about Moon....Yes, it was true that I was worried about Moon, but as his mom said, he did not return home for a week, and the last time I saw him was on the rooftop of the building where he was attempting suicide.So I was scared inside , and it was difficult for me to stop myself . I knew that Moon lived in the same apartment with his friends , but I can't go into that building without an order , that's why I asked for Kaito's help , and in the night itself Kaito stole uncle's delivery card and gave it to me. I reached the building with some things, showed uncle's card and went inside the building. , I knew very well on which floor Moon lived because a few months ago I had delivered his luggage and got him shifted.I went straight to the 17th floor and rang the doorbell। At that time, I was only concerned about Moon but I didn't know what I would answer if Moon's friends or Moon asked me why I was there. ..... After ringing the bell for a long time, someone opened the door. ,,,, Moon was standing in front of me, her lips were dry., his eyes were yellow, his body looks loose I could tell by looking at him that he was very sick, but he still had a cigarette in one hand,he was very drunk , I could sense that he was standing with great difficulty , and then fell wildly on his knees , I quickly grabbed both of his shoulders but I could not hold him, I myself fell with him,I wasn't even 16 at that time. I was so scared and I started crying loudly holding his face Even today, when I remember that day, I get scared. he's burning with fever . If only I could reduce him suffering, I would make him happy even by giving my life.

Jihara became silent while speaking , KAKERU didn't know what to say because he wanted to know what happened next. ,

after being silent for a while .... Jihara looks at Kakeru and says """It is about to be morning , you should sleep now , you were very tired ,but kakeru was still looking at jihara ,And he says very softly "Are you sad remembering all that?"

No, I am not sad, the memories of the last ten years were the most beautiful moments of my life. I just remember that moment and I get scared because he was in so much pain and I couldn't help him.

Kakeru replies: "Little bird... you know, I can feel it." I can understand what happens to a boy when he doesn't get love from his own parents. I don't remember much about my teenage years after the accident ,I was just like Moon's life. There was probably not much difference between his life and mine.But at least he had a lover like you Even today I don't have anyone who cares about me at all.

Jihara looks at Kakeru in surprise And as soon as Kakeru's eyes meet his, Kakeru whispers angrily "fuck" Why is he looking at me like that with his small eyes? ,