章 67: Boo
Boo!
You thought this novel was already dropped, didn't you? Well, maybe, I'm still not sure really.
But first of all, the reason I haven't uploaded in days was because your author got sick pretty fucking bad. Like, I haven't worked out for an entire week and my body is literally itching for physical activity (fucking hell, I'm becoming a normie).
So yeah, got sicked, didn't upload shit because I was physically incapable of editing a single chapter with my splitting headache.
Second, am I dropping this novel?
50-50 actually.
Like, I know why I had been writing fanfics.
I already wrote an original novel actually, on this very account, and let me tell you, progress was fucking slow. It was slow as hell! Like, the amount of traffic I was getting is depressingly small.
Of course, it was obviously trash, like I'm even cringing at the mere sight of the things I have written on it, but then let's compare it to the more abbhorent and disgusting piece of shit... MHA: TELEKINESIS!
WHAT THE FUCK?! WHY DOES IT HAVE 3.6k COLLECTIONS WHEN FUCKING THE GIFT OF HEALING (THE OBJECTIVELY BETTER ONE) HAS 300 SOMETHING?!
NANI?!
BRO?!
I know that the title was kinda specialized to gather traffic since I literally duped everyone else by copying MHA: Psychokinesis or whatever that novel was, but yeah, that novel was a genius in its own right, not by its writing, but by its marketability with its title (maybe I'll rewrite it, who knows, FBM is still my most popular work and it's a goddamn rewrite).
Damn, I haven't finished a single work and it's hilarious to think I'm planning on dropping another one, but this time it's a valid reason.
I've lost my goddamn burning passion to write, okay? Like, I still like writing, don't get me wrong, but fanfics is just soul-crushing when I think about the fact that all of this original content that I made is just for a goddamn fanfic.
Bitch, why the fuck am I wasting hours of my life for a goddamn fanfic?!
I know I can maybe monetize it through Patre-on when I'm finally a big boy at the age of 18 and shit, but that's only feasible if like I'm literally at the level of someone like MisterImmortal, and guess what he's doing now?
WRITING ORIGINAL NOVELS.
I know that I'm writing fanfics now so I can grow a bigger audience to then introduce to my later original novels so that it can get more traffic even without a contract, but I'm just turning insane already.
This mess might probably be fixed if I can sign a goddamn contract already and not be a baby bitch lacking a required age, but that's life.
Sigh, at least I'm still young and have lifespan to spare which is a blessing, but there are some stuff that I can't do until I'm an adult.
What I fear is that when I start writing original novels now, without a contract, it would grow too slowly.
Have you seen a popular original novel in this shithole without a contract (yeah, I did, but that had like a thousand chapters which I ain't gonna do)?
Do I continue with this fanfic mess and build a fanbase while losing the chance to start dabbling in original novels? Or do I just do it... again, and have a high chance of greeting the abyssal presence of failure?
There's a certain guarantee in growth when it comes to fanfic in this place. But original novels? Idk bro, sounds kinda meh.
Well, there are other platforms that I can hop on like RoyalRoad, but bitch, I don't expect you guys going on there to support me when I'm literally uploading the same novel here, so it would be hard as fuck to also grow there without a prior audience and the right amount of luck.
And the end goal is still (if life bids it) webnovel contract -> grow -> earn money, then diverge into either publishing novels with other publishers (and break free from the struggle of earning money by uploading chapters daily since you get money from coins spent on a chapter) or continue doing webnovel.
Ugh, life is just so goddamn strenuous if I have to think about my future when I'm still a child, but that's life.
Who knows, maybe I'll start doing youtube at one point then stream my writing so I can milk viewers for content on my novel, or do a CYOA typa shit and then publish that novel, which is just pure brilliance on my part.
Hey, if you wanna see that happen, then maybe I'll do it a few years down the line (if I'm still writing) and create my own youtube/streaming setup.
Anywho, I diverged too much from the original topic.
Basically, fanfics equals growth, original novels equals I get to partially cure my insanity while satisfying my soul's urge to write something completely mine.
Fucking writers. GODDAMN! I sound like a true fucking writer right now. Ha!
Oh, the struggles of writing indeed. Unable to grasp thy freedom to splatter ink on ze paper with thee imagination of wonder.
Fuck you, I'm writing this while still kinda sick, so I'm ending it here.
Also, I'll probably return to this novel in around a month after I do decide to drop it if Fortune Stealer: My Luck is Infinite (fuck the Lover idea because I don't wanna deal with that yandere luck waifu shit no more) flops like shit.
So yeah, see ya later you leeches.
Side note, I'll probably create a discord server around next week or next next week since I finally have some free time once I graduate and get to enjoy my vacation, so that's exciting.
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