I have died, my life on earth has ended but just because my life on earth ended doesn't mean my life had ended, as life prolongs everlasting in a loop but for some it is on the same land with memories forever lost in the deep void but for some their wishes are answered and memories remain but for some with a more complicated past they are granted more and get to choose where they go next as they have earned the right to do so, but for a very small amount of individuals they get the right to choose not just where their journey continues but how, when, and who.
And I am one of those lucky people, after my life on earth ended I was met with something that was also nothing. it didn't speak it didn't do, it just was and I knew, all I had to do was think of what it was expressing and all my questions were answered and all my conflicting feelings were replaced with understanding and calmness the feeling of knowing was weird as it wasn't really knowing but something else this will be a feeling I will remember for time to come.
After understanding all I could and knowing all I could know i began my thoughts in where, how, when, and who. I decided upon The land of middle earth or more like the being of middle earth and all the stories and history and other lands that belong beside it, I chose for my being to be at the start of all and for me to be the start to the start, upon making that decision i knew I would be given a big burden but decided for my presence to be hidden until I wished to be, my who I wanted to be was strider vaan the all being, but what I wished to be known for was the hunter, the wanderer, the understanding, but most importantly the unknown, I personally enjoyed the stories of the valar and always had interest in them I wanted to have a interaction with them at some point so I thought I would make my being be known but at the same time for it to be not known kind of the being of god on earth.
After making all my desires be made I was sent on my way to a nothingness until something emerged, it was the beings of valar they were but weren't yet completely there yet. I decided to slumber for a while until they are all made but before doing so I made something from the nothing the things I made included a sword, a bow and arrows, clothing similar to that of a noble wander seemingly hiding ones appearance, and then rings and a crown of great importance, I knew no doubt that this would cause the valars to take notice that something else exist so my plans were proceeding well so far, I then decided to enter a slumber till the time of all valar created to be.
A great time passed and the previous nothings and emptiness void was starting to become something and it was an intoxicating sight to be seen. I then noticed a place which contained all the valar I decided to make my self known to them and perhaps have a conversation with them.
A great presence suddenly emerged in a room filled with people sitting in thrones a total of 14 people were currently present, each and everyone of them were pressured by this great force and knew that the one they thought existed truly did.
Strider then appeared in the middle of the room with his hood on, he then brought his pressure back in himself and removed his hood which showed his medium length black hair and eyes which looked like the mystic death eyes of perception but in the center of his eyes you could see countless stars and galaxies, he also had a very striking and beautiful crown which was small but at the end of each tip was a gem which seemed to contain galaxies inside, he also had a sword in a sheath on his right side it was a beautiful blade but one could feel the pure strength coming out of it, he also had a bow hanging on his back the bow was like an art piece it was seemingly delicate and precious but the bow was seemingly unbreakable, next to his bow were arrows in a little container the arrows were also a beautiful piece of art but one could see the amount of pain it could inflict upon those hit by it, on this beings hands there were multiple rings each one just as beautiful as the others each gave off a great power but each were vastly different than the other. All the valar were smitten by this beings... well... being, and his appearance was never seen before he had a beauty even the valars are jealous of and each and every one of his items only added to his beauty. All were frozen in place and each person was in a trance staring at the being it was as if, if they looked away they would be disgracing all those who won't get to see.
"I would like to say hello to all of you, I have always been interested in you all since your very being was made" I state all this with a small yet gentle smile on my face which only added more beauty to myself
"I would also like to apologize about my pressure I put on all of you before I never had to suppress my self before so it took me a second to realize my pressure on you all"
"You truly don't have to worry about that great one our well being is vastly less important than you and we would be ignorant to think other wise I hope the great one finds this place to his liking please here take my seat" Manwë tried to stand up to give up his seat to me but I motion him to sit back down
"I disagree with that completely young one you all are just as and if not more important than me and never think otherwise and please just call me strider, and lastly you don't need to worry about a seat as I would prefer standing as I've been laying down for quite some time already."
The room was silent for a second and then all of them stopped being tense and smiled although they disagreed fully heartily about being just as or more important than me.
"Yes strider we will obey your wishes we all are also wondering what you would like from us and if there is anything you need."
They all nodded at this and looked at me waiting for my reply
"Well in all honesty there is nothing I would like more than a conversation at the moment haha"
They all smiled at this and some even chuckled but quickly suppressed it
"Truly there is no need for you all to be so tense and wary I just wish to be treated as an equal from now on as anything other wise would offend me" I decide to say it this way as I feel like if I don't say so they simply won't comply
They all nod in understanding and some even laugh and smile even wider
"You truly are very humble strider sir" they all nod at this and smile
"Thank you but I'm nothing of the sort" I then take notice of nienna as she seems to have been staring in my eyes the whole time and some tears have even fallen from her face
"Sir strider I'm sorry if this is rude but I can see a lot of pain in you and each time I look into your eyes I see deeper mourning than I've ever seen"
"It isn't rude at all and yes I guess I have seen my fair deal of pain and I've mourn a lot, may I know your name my lady?"
"Sorry my name is nienna and may I ask were there also other people here before us and you?"
"A very beautiful name, and to answer your question no there was no one here before me but I my self come from a different place that I can't return to and others can't go, it is a place far different than here and was filled with people before and after me."
Nienna blushes a bit at my first comment but became very interested in the place I was talking about along with the others of course.
"But I'm afraid that is all I can say about the place as it existed long before me and I guess I was sent here at the start of this place from the owner of the last place I lived"
"So you met the creator of your last existence? What were they like?"
"Well to be honest it's quite difficult to explain the only way you would know would be to meet them, it was a strange experience to say the least haha"
After saying this we then have a conversation for a while about a larger variety of things and we become quite familiar with each other, All of them look to me now as a friend, but nienna tends to see me different when ever she sees me she either blushes or cries quite a strange mix if you were to ask me, I always found her to be the most amazing valar as she tended to care the most sometimes even too much but that only added to her likability.
"Although I would love to stay with you all and continue chatting, I already decided long ago to not interfere with much and to let everything run it's course, thank you for treating me as a friend and giving me this amazing experience I will come back at some point. continue with what you were doing as if I never came here. Please if there is ever anything you guys need help with I will help but only if need be if I believe it should happen I will not come, and please when the time comes do not see me differently because of that for all things happen for a reason that includes good and bad, I wish the best for all of you and to nienna I implore you to search for happiness I would hate to see you purge into sadness for all eternity due to your kindness and love, goodbye till the time comes"
I then leave the place, I spent quite a while just talking with them and I had a lot of fun doing so. it was one of the best times of my life to be completely honest, I then continue my slumber until the time of the hobbit.