章 158: Release

**** I honestly did not write anything and one hour before the dau ends.. here I am typing. But I dont have the energy to finish the whole draft. 

I told you before that my mental health is at its edge. If where Im staying had more floors, i would have jumped from there. Just like LP's song, Im one step closer to edge and Im about to break.

Its not just because of this novel but my life as a whole. feeling worthless of what I have now. Feeling guilty of what Im doing now etc. That i dont deserve anything and everything that I have now. 

Tje amxiety of being caught as I try to update evrything. And my draft of one chpater being cut to nothing. likr the first and last sentence of yhe whole draft was left and Im trying to remember what I jave written there.

Help me finish this. Good Lord.

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