章 17: Three
I did not notice the days pass by. We all went through the same routine. Yoongi and I charged in the morning. I still went to uni for my classes. Went through practice, sometimes coaching sessions with the sunbaes. And we, again, charge at night.
My classes with Yoongi sunbae had been more productive than ever. I felt more at ease with him. Ever since the incident during the second red streak, he always kept an eye out for me. Making sure I'm not feeling faint or anything. He must've been traumatized by how I reacted. Little by little, I'm feeling safer with him.
Though I haven't really met Namjoon sunbae again after that. Jin Ju eonnie told me that he's a very meticulous coach. Making sure everything is planned and that the coaching session ends according to his preparations. She even has some take home exercises.
"He never asked about you." She suddenly blurted as we were both eating our cereals.
"Huh?"
"He has never brought up the subject of you." Eonnie smiled a little.
"But..."
"Yeah. You didn't ask but I feel like you've been dying to know." Got that on point, alright.
"Is he... uhm... is he okay?" I knew my reaction that day was too much. Borderline offensive.
"Well, he looks okay. Though, I wouldn't be the best judge of that since we're not close. It's all business once we start coaching." I just slowly nodded in understanding. "Don't worry. You'll get to talk to him soon. I'm sure they're just preparing everything for you guys. I feel like they might relocate you, if not all of us."
That certainly got me thinking. There is a very high possiblity that I might be separated from my group. I imagine it would be a lot riskier to have two of bangtan going into an all girls dorm. This picture isn't sitting well with me.
We heard the usual doorbell and the click of the door. Byung Ho oppa's certainly early today.
"Oh, you're up." As if he didn't know I've been up early the past weeks to charge.
"I'm just waiting for Yoongi-ssi."
"He won't be coming today."
"What? How will we charge?"
"You'll see him in a while. Do prepare. We'll go to BigHit."
Jin Ju eonnie also moved to prepare.
"Oh no, Jin Ju ssi. It's just Eunjung today." And I can't help but notice the O that formed her lips.
I silently moved to avoid the others from waking, put on light make up and just donned a hoodie and joggers since I already have an idea of what will go down today.
*******
"What do you mean we won't go this morning hyung? I hardly slept. I badly need that charge." This is not a good way to start the morning. I did another all nighter to finish a song due for the next album.
"You'll be able to charge. Don't worry. She's on her way to BigHit so I suggest you get ready." Well, I'm as ready as I can be. Though, I haven't really washed.
"I'll just go to the gym to wash up then."
As I sleep walked to my destination, I realized why she was being brought here. They will bond today. And most likely, all three of us will be presented with changes to our contracts. Why am I getting agitated by the idea that I will be sharing her with Namjoon? I've shared a chunk of my life with the man. This isn't even his fault but I still feel a lump in my chest whenever I spoke with him the past few days. And I can feel he's feeling the same. But why? I found Eunjung first. I became her mate first.
Go straight to PDnim's office when you're done, Yoon. The simplest message said as I was drying my hair. That means they're here. My pulse quickened and brought me right to the said room in a moment's time.
There she was, fidgeting yet again.
"Eunjung-ssi." I said to declare my presence and as she looked at me, I saw the same hesitation she had the day we bonded.
"Hyung." Joon sat opposite her, unreadable.
Pleasantries were exchanged as usual with both CEOs and us, artists. I decided to sit beside her to start charging and maybe try to calm her down. I can clearly remember her fears flooding me before the calm that enveloped us when we bonded. I held her hand and started caressing it. She looked at me with those doe eyes, totally confused. If a mate was already repulsive for her, imagine having two mates. How can the world be so fucked up?!
I hear the soft mumble of voices discussing in the room. Our managers and CEOs checking the proposals for us before we even get to read them. I no longer want to exert energy for such mundane things. The company will always ensure our best interest and safety anyway and I wouldn't have any objections to my contract. Never have. And I guess, never will.
All I wanted to do now was to make her calm down. I can feel the pounding of her heart. She's not saying a thing but her life force transmits all of it to me. I guess this is why mates always end up with each other. You get to fully understand the other person even without talking.
They way her hand clamped mine brought me back to the now. A look at the room's clock told me we've been here for about an hour already.
"Yoongi-ssi. Let's give them space." She held my hand tighter.
"Eunjung-ah, will you be okay?" And everybody seemed to take notice of her. Joon's lips twitched into a smirk as I called her. Is he pissed that we are closer now?
"I... yeah... yes. I am." Same reaction.
"Are you really?" I heard them all shifting in their seats as I turned her to look at me. The same hazel doe eyes were now welling with tears again but she nodded slowly. I knew then she's decided to get on with it whether she likes it or not. "Okay. I'll just be in the next room if you need me." Another nod.
I don't know why I did it but I gave her a kiss on the forehead as I stood up to leave. Immediately, I felt her calm down. That's enough for me. I really don't care about the stares I felt on my back as I walked out.
*********
Really hyung?! Really?!
I've known Yoongi hyung to be someone who's okay with sharing. This is the first time I've seen him be quite possessive and he isn't even thinking twice about his impulses.
Each minute seeing them together was like torture. I want to be the one to hold her hand. But I can't help but notice their stance. Hyung somehow knew what will happen and decided to sit beside her. Just by looking at her, I can see her uneasiness. Like this is the last place she wanted to be in. Are we forcing her into something that causes her pain?
"Sunbae..." she called softly. That made my heart gallop like a wild horse. "Namjoon sunbae..." Ahhh, my mind was drifting again.
"Yes, Eunjung-ssi." I managed to say calmly.
"I... I'm sorry for how I acted the other day. That was quite rude. I didn't mean it." Her whole body was shaking as she tried to stop the tears that were coming
"Why?" Her tears finally fell in big drops. But why? Isn't she happy? She just shook her head slowly.
"I'm sorry. I don't have the strength to tell you right now. But please know this is not because of you. I just wish everything was easier for me. I'm... I'm just..." She covered her face with her hands. It hurts to see such beautiful face get ruined. Her little sobs sent pangs of guilt in my chest. I never should've asked.
Just like clockwork my feet took me to her. My arms arranged the chair beside her and made hers face mine. She was too absorbed in her own little world that she didn't even notice. I completely lost control of my limbs as they caged her in an embrace.
I don't know if this will make things better but I still wanna try. I'm her mate. I think I completely lost my mind. I don't care what happens after this. What's important is the fact that she's calming down the more I caress her back. I also felt a certain peace run through my skin. The light buzz of her energy flow merging with mine. It feels good this way.
She looked up at me as she finally calmed down. Her eyes now have a certain sparkle in them. I'm not sure if it's just me or it's really how her eyes look.
"Thank you." She said softly.
"It's okay. I know you may not trust me fully now, but I'll do my best to prove myself worthy of your trust. Let me take care of you Eunjung-ssi." Her eyes turned wary again. Was there no one to take care of her? But, my search about her told me she came from a well off family. It can't be.
"You're really different." What? Did I hear her right?
"Different? Is that in a good or bad way?" She chuckled softly. That surely sounded sweet. Like eating melons under the summer heat.
"Definitely in a good way, sunbae. Do you want to know a secret?" Her little smile is pulling me in. How can she suddenly switch moods like that?
"Ofcourse, anything to know you better." I am surely getting ahead of myself.
"I am ARMY..."
"Well, that was quite obvious the first time we met." Another soft giggle.
"And... gahd this is embarrassing... uhm can we forget it? Hihi. I feel like I can't tell you." What?! After that anticipation?
"Why? Don't worry, I won't laugh no matter how absurd it is. Promise." And I am now even lifting my hand to swear.
"You really won't?"
"Scout's promise." I even pursed my lips to show my sincerity. Another laugh rang in the room.
She drew a long breath and puffed it out. "Okay here goes nothing. You're my bias."
That last word certainly rang in my ears. Like a church bell that was suddenly struck. Eunjung, I am her bias. She likes me. She... likes... me...
But wait, having a bias means a lot of things. It may mean that she just gets inspired because of me or just what they call us, maybe I'm just her idol. Or maybe, just... maybe, she really likes me.
"Sunbae... you're red." She said as she smiled wide, almost laughing. "Aigoo. You really have that habit." Stating something obvious.
"Ahhh, I did see that on twitter." And she looked like she got caught or something.
"Twitter? You do read twitter?!" As if they don't know.
"Yes ofcourse. All of us do. We know what's happening there." Now she's the one to get surprised.
"Oh no...."
"Why Eunjung-ssi? Should I go find your twitter account?" It was hard to stop myself from laughing as her eyes blew out and she started panicking.
"No sunbae. No please, don't." While shaking her head so fast.
I wasn't able to stop myself from laughing anymore. "Don't worry. I won't look at it unless you show me."
The room went silent again.
"So, should we do it?" I laid my hand out to her.
"I don't want to spoil this for you. So I won't tell you how it goes."
"Ready?" She softly nodded and gave me her hand.
I felt the surge of warmth as I clasped my hands with her. A certain dread came over me before the serenity that followed. I can't explain it. Was it her? Was that her fear? And it was like she knew, she nodded and smiled shyly. As the seconds passed, I felt the heat rush all over my body. So this is how it feels to charge. But, wait, I can even feel her heartbeat. And if I keep my attention on her, I can even feel her pulse. Amazing!
She laughed a little as she saw the wonder in my eyes. Maybe she expected this reaction.
"Eunjung-ssi, I hope this is not too much but I want to try something." She blinked back at me. "It's just that I saw hyung touching your cheek when you were charging. Does it make a difference?"
She smiled, her eyes forming crescent moons. She's certainly fascinated by this. "Try it then sunbae."
Surprisingly, she didn't flinch when I touched her face. Maybe the daily routine with Yoongi prepared her for this. And yes, it was even better. It's like having two different points of heat contact. I know this should be enough for now but I certainly want more. More of her. Eunjung-ah.
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