章 17: CHAPTER 17
Sebastian's P.O.V
Hearing my phone vibrate beside me I reach for it but feel someone stir next to me and I stiffen , turning my head slowly I'm greeted by black and wavy hair. I furrow my eyebrows and sit up , examining the scene in front of me. Why is she in my bed? I specifically came here to avoid her.
Her hair is in a lazy ponytail with small strands on the side of her face , one arm is under her head in a bent position while the other is over her tummy and her beautiful legs are slightly bent pushing her oversized white t - shirt up giving me a small peak. I scold myself for staring and look away but my head snaps back around.
Wait. She didn't come here with any clothes and all she had on yesterday was a towel. That must be one of my t-shirts. Damn it looks so good on her , she could wear it all day and I wouldn't complain , lowering my upper body my nose softly brushes over her shoulder and I take a whiff. My scent is mixed with hers and it's driving me crazy.
I release a light growl and try to keep Jax at bay , my wolf. If I let him even have an ounce of control he'll destroy her.
She smells so good, like lavender and vanilla with a hint of the woods and roses , she smells like home , my home. No ! I can't do this , fall for her, I just can't.
Getting up I grab my tee and head to the bathroom. I get the shower running while I brush my teeth then head in. 'I need to take her shopping so she can buy some essentials' I think to myself. After showering I dry off then heading to my walk in closet.
After deciding to wear sweats and a t-shirt for now but change when we go to the mall I head to the kitchen. "Good morning Sir." Kiki greets as she puts my plate down.
"Morning Kiki." I greet back digging in. After eating I start the stove and take out a pan.
"Uhm sir, what are you doing?" She asks seeming too amused.
I roll my eyes and head to the refrigerator. "I'm making breakfast."
"You just finished your breakfast." She says.
"This is for Zendea." I finally say and turn to a smiling Kiki. "What ?!"
She raises her hands in surrender. " I didn't say anything, you go ahead and make her something to eat plus , I know you know your way around the kitchen pretty well." She says walking away and winks at me.
I roll my eyes and decide to make her eggs , toast , bacon with avocado slices. Just as I place her plate down I smell her scent but don't see her.
"H-hello?" She calls out. I leave the kitchen and walk to her, I find her close to the elevator and smirk to myself. She looks so lost and adorable.
"Zendea." I say to her and notice her body tense making me smirk that I have this affect on her but I quickly change my facial expression , looking a little more irritated. She turns around and looks straight into my eyes. Wow she's beautiful.
"Good morning." She says sheepishly looking down.
I walk to her and raise her head , "Come , this is the way to the kitchen." I grab her hand to guide her. Reaching the kitchen I sit her down in front of the breakfast I prepared for her.
"Is this mine ?" She asks, nibbling on her lower lip and I try my hardest to not imagine kissing her.
"Yes, I hope you like it." She looks at me.
"Did you make this?" She asks and her eyes pool with hope.
"Yes." Her eyes sparkle at my answer and she smiles, making me want to smile but I stop myself and keep a straight face instead.
“Thank you." She says before eating. I watch her as she finishes her breakfast, from the way she lets the fork slip in between her beautiful pink lips to the way she chews and closes her eyes to hold back a moan.
When she's done she gets up and heads to the sink , washing her dish then sitting back down to drink her orange juice.
"I was thinking we head to the mall today to buy you things you may need while staying here." I say rubbing the back of my head. Coughing lightly she puts her glass down. "I don't have my credit card here , it's at Amara's house." She says shyly. So she’s not apposed to the suggestion that she should live here.
"I'll pay for everything, so it's fine." I say , partly because I don't want her going back to Amara’s place.
"I can't take your money." She argues, that’s a first.
"Technically you're not taking my money, you’re my mate so what's mine is yours by wolf law, just as what's yours is mine."
"But-" I cut her off.
"It's settled. Now please go bath so we can leave." Her face falls but she doesn't disagree. Leaving, she stops to look back at me.
"W-what's your name?" Pfft! Was she thinking about that this whole time? How cute.
"Sebastian." She smiles.
“Sebastian." She repeats and I feel my member harden, my name falling from her lips sounds surprisingly arousing. She turns and heads upstairs oblivious to what she's done to me. After waiting a while I decide to head to my room to dress more appropriately before we leave. I open the door carelessly and see Zendea's left leg on my bed as she applies lotion. Fuck! Her towel is spread enough for me to see a glimpse of her core but I clear my throat.
She gasps and stands straight clinging to her towel for dear life.
"I apologize, I just wanted to change and I thought you were already done." I say walking to my closet.
"It's okay, Sebastian can I borrow another t-shirt of yours?" She asks.
"Sure, pick whichever is to your liking.”
"Are you sure you don’t mind?”
"I wouldn’t have agreed if I did." Not noticing she was hot on my tail, I I bump into her turning around. “Oh sorry, you can take whatever you like. I’ll get dressed and wait downstairs.” I watch from the corner of my eye as she runs her hands through my clothes. Turning around slowly she looks at me.
“Did I do something wrong?" She asks lowly. I furrow my eyebrows at her.
"Why would you think you did something wrong?" I ask.
"Because yesterday after we, after what we did you said it was a mistake then went to sleep in a different bedroom." She says as her eyes get glossy. Oh, that, was she bothered by it?
My face softens, "No you didn't do anything wrong I just made the mistake of touching you, that's all. I should not have done that, I should have waited for us to build some sort of relationship before jumping into the physical stuff." I say then turn to walk out but feel her hand grab my shoulder.
"Please don't go." She says calmly.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because I don't think it was a mistake and-" I interrupt her.
"Well it was!" That came out as if I was yelling at her. With my back still turned to her I feel her hand slowly slide off my shoulder , making me hate myself even more.
"Please." She steps closer. I keep quiet , not saying anything but can feel her getting closer by the second. "Please don't shut me out." She puts her hands on each of my sides and slowly slides them to the front of my abdomen. Sparks course through my body as her hands link together giving her a tight grip. "I don't know you yet but please let me in." She whimpers. She's driving me crazy but I can't give in to her, I just can’t. I slowly reach for her hands then separate them and eventually drop them.
"I can't." I say to her then walk to the door. Putting my hand on the handle I stop when I hear her faint cries , how can I put my mate through this? This rejection? I'm hurting her and I know it but if I let her in I know I'll just be putting a target on her back and my pack.
A great Alpha always puts his people first and himself after but I at least want to try to make her happy even if it is just this one time.
Walking to her I stand behind her and lift her from the ground , with her back still turned to me I start running my hand slowly up the back of her thigh. She gasps and leans into my chest.
"What are you doing?" She manages to say.
"For some reason I can't seem to contain myself around you, especially when you look like this." I say slipping my hand in between her thighs , going higher. She moans and tries to lean forward but I snake my arm around her waist. Reaching her core I slide my finger in and out slowly causing her to moan softly. "You didn't tell me you were a virgin while I was wrecking you with my fingers yesterday Zendea." I lowly growl into her ear sucking her lobe.
"I'm s-sor.." I dip my finger into her again and take it out. Making her lose her breath.
"Bad .." I growl then roughly shove two fingers into her , "Girl" I say repeating my actions.
"Ah!” She moans out as I repeatedly thrust my fingers into her knuckle deep , over and over again.
Her body slides down slightly because her legs are shaking. "Sebastian." She breathes out.
"Yes kitten." I whisper in her ear then begin kissing and sucking on her neck. Finding her sweet spot I graze it with my canines then lick over it making her whimper.
"Ahhh" she moans out as she tightens her grip on my arm. "Please may I cum.” She begs.
I pick up my pace , twisting my fingers every time I enter her to drive her a little more crazy.
"No." I say softly. I'm going to make sure she can't walk tomorrow. Lifting her body slowly, her feet dangle in the air and her head rests on my shoulder. Right when she’s relaxes I add a third finger and her body jolts up.
“Wa- wait. Ahh!" She moans out loud as she struggles against me.
"You're so tight kitten." I growl lowly, rubbing my nose against her neck to get a whiff of her. God her scent mixed with her arousal smells so good. “Is this what you wanted?”
“I-”
"I asked you a question Zendea.”
“Sebastian please." She whimpers.
“Please what?” I tease.
"Please let me cum Sebastian." She begs. I tighten my hold on her and lower my head.
"This is nothing." I growl "I'm going to make you beg me harder next time, should you dare to even ask me to touch you. You’ll be begging me to stop from ripping that little hole apart , do you understand?" I snarl.
Tears well in her eyes as she moans louder . “I understand." Curling my index finger I hit her g-spot making her a moaning mess and her nails dig into my flesh as her toes curl.
"Cum." I finally say and feel the wetness running down her legs while she rides her orgasm screaming my name. Once her orgasm ends her legs give out on her , I catch her quickly and hold her to my chest listening to her heavy breathing.
Holding her right now , once again, arises emotions in me that I'm fighting so hard to keep at bay.
"I'm going to fetch a cloth to clean you up alright?" I tell her , she nods and I gently lay her on the carpet. Coming back I use the damp cloth to clean her then lift her up to put her on the bed.
"Sleep." I say putting a blanket over her.
She tries to get up but I push her down gently. "But the mall .." she tries to say.
"It's ok we'll go later , you just rest." She settles and her eyes close slowly. I lean in to kiss her forehead but stop midway deciding to just exit the room.I take out my phone and dial Mark’s number.
Mark : Mr Jabobs, how may I be of service?
Sebastian : Mark I want you to clear out the biggest mall in the country for me to use this afternoon.
Mark : That would be your mall sir, Mall Of The North.
Sebastian : I don't like repeating myself Mark.
Mark : I understand Sir , right away.
(Call ended)
Heading back to my room I slowly open the door to see her still sleeping , she looks exhausted. I hope I didn't take it too far with her, I should’ve done a better job at holding back but when I heard her crying I couldn’t help but want to give her whatever she wanted. I must be getting soft. How pathetic.
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