章 29: The Search for Normalcy

…Lucas never mentioned a girlfriend although I knew that he was getting action from girls in frat parties and female sport teams. I did not agree to go out with any boy from our school. Tessy and Francisca joked that I would grow old and die alone. 

I was content with dying alone if Lucas would die alone too. Of course, I would never have voiced that out loud but it was a viable thought in my head. They said distance made the heart fonder but the three thousand miles between me and Lucas only made me miss him more. Like him more. 

Brittany

Relationships were not easy for me when we moved to Canada. Intimate relationships were even harder for me. Anytime I was sober and making out, the crazy memories that I've buried resurfaced again.