章 29: chapter 30
In the morning I woke up having a headache from all the crying I did last night when I got home mom opened the door for me they were sleeping I woke her up and fall in her arms busted out crying my crying sounds woke up Palma some times family is all you just need the hug me cry until I fall asleep
I took some pills and go to the laboratory for work
After work I went to visit Alice I didn't want be alone and I don't want to go home since I will have to explain why I had a mental breakdown last night Emily was with her boyfriend Divas when I got to Alice's place she was making some cookies I help her I want to talk to her about my last night experience but i don't want to cause unnecessary problems in her relationship
" Juliet told me you found her at James's last night " Alice say we are sitting down waiting for our cookies to be ready
" oh she told you " am surprised she even said anything
" yeah she didn't wanna hide anything since she thought you would tell me anyways " she say turning on the tv " you know they are going to that fundraising tonight and it will will pass on tv " she adds i shrug I know but i don't know if I want to see them my jealousy is on the high lever these days and I don't know what to do about
Later we sit watching the show as some celebrities are passing on the red carpet and other businessmen and women Emily knocks at the door Alice open for her she called us earlier when she had that am with Alice she said that Davis will drop her off
" am here for both of you " she say sitting between us holding ours hands on her laps we were talking laughing and James pop on the screen wearing a black tux white shirt underneath and Juliet who is wearing a red dress okay this is not what I need to see how perfect she looks while I sit here looking hopeless James is holding her close taking pictures on the red carpet James whispers some thing in her eyes and she laughs " hell no do I need to see my girlfriend flitting with your boyfriend " she ask me
" what can I say they do really look perfect together " I say Alice and Emily stare at me as if I've grown another head
" what …. Don't look at me like that" i lower my head feeling like crying again " I might have told James last night to go fuck Juliet" they stare at me with wide eyes
"Why" Alice ask me
" last night I went to see James to his apartment "'I start to explain " and I found James with Juliet in the kitchen cooking together after what I heard during sleepover night that I didn't know I got angry and we hand a fight " i sigh
" this situation is messing with my head I don't know if it's jealousy or pregnancy hormones "
" I think you need to have a serious conversation with James about all these and he needs to be more transparent about what's happening and you need to be more understanding " Alice tell me " that's what am trying with Juliet and I choose to trust her "
"He didn't even let me spend the night after our fight he didn't drive me home he called his driver to take me home I tried calling him to day but it's going straight to voicemail " I feel tears falling down my cheeks what hurt me the most the fact that he practically threw me out of his apartment hurt more than the fight we had I just wanted him to try at least where am coming from
" look I know James loves you and you will always find a way back to each other " Emily holds my hands
We chose to watch a movie and talked about celebrities up coming movies and stuff I was scrolling through instagram when i saw a picture that is been posted by since Juliet was tagged it was Juliet and James kissing from the clothes they were wearing I can tell that it happened today I staring at the phone that Emily asked me something but i didn't hear her
"What are you staring at like that" she snap my phone from my hands when she sees the picture she looks at me and the picture again Alice took my phone Emily she looks at the phone she stare at the picture I look she scroll through my phone their was a small video of James being interviewed
" tell us a little about your fiancé"
"She is the best thing that ever happened to me am so glad for her father to have introduced us "James answer looking at Juliet who is is standing next to him
" when do we expect a wedding "
" soon not later than two months I can't wait to have her by my side forever " he answer kissing the cheek of Juliet who turns and peck his lips it ends there
I sit down and sigh I know they are pretending and trying to look like it's real but what if they actually fall in love in the process what if they later finds that they are actually great together
" I know they are pretending but am starting to have bad feelings about this " Alice say sitting down pulling her legs close to her chest
" what if they find themselves in love I know they are pretending but you never know" I say holding my bell as if protecting it from the world
" this two months are going to be the longest time of my life " Alice say
" at least you don't have babies to think about " I say I can't imagine my life without James
" look how about you have some trust in your spouse I know but do you really have a little faith in your relationship to the extent that everything that happens will have you questioning yourself " Emily say sitting at the table facing me and Alice and continue " am starting to think that the problem is not Juliet being a fake girlfriend to James it's you guys it's not like they are hiding you know exactly the situation and being like this won't help you if you want to be happy in the relationship learn to trust your partner because even if this situation ends your partners will always meet other people but are you going to feel insecure every time you need to work on your trusting and talk to your partners have an open conversation I know they love you and they will never betray you like that so please don't let your insecurities kill the best relationships that you are having
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