章 25: Chapter 025
'I will become your first friend'
After reading the words which are written by him... I can't help but stare at his face; his red eyes are also staring directly at me and didn't even move a bit, from the moment he called out to me... He also has a small smile on his face...
Seeing all this, my face also begins to get redder slowly... Why...? I don't think of a reason of why my face reddened a bit, maybe because I am happy that finally I have a friend... Yes that must be case...
I quickly removed the thoughts about the things; I have been thinking for a while and quickly turned my face to the blackboard and write...
'Thank you Kaneki-san'
...
We chatted for quite a time, about half an hour or even more.
I also don't know but I told him everything, I had in my mind, without any worries or me getting nervous. He also didn't interrupt me and listened to all my blabbering. Even though I know I am just telling him my annoying past but I didn't get embarrassed by it, like I get every time. I am telling him things; I didn't even told my family about... Why am I?
Then, he said me something that made my heart flutter a bit... What is wrong with me?
"Komi-san, you know this is something you have to do on your own..."
When I heard this, I don't know but I think I felt sad and I began to look downwards... What is going on?
"... But I will be there for you if you need anything, as I am your friend."
My heart begins to pound so hard, that my face begins to get hot, at every passing second... I forced myself to not look at his face, so I just stared directly at the ground... No, no, I need to say something...
So, I raised my head, look straight at him... I didn't even notice but I was smiling at the moment I heard him say '... I will be there for you if you need anything...'
'Thank you'
'And sorry for taking your time and also you have to listen to my things. Sorry'
I apologised also, as I know that in his mind, he definitely thinks that I am annoying girl and he is just don't showing it on his face because I am here... I am sorry.
"Good Grief..."
I heard him say something, so I again raise my head and see him coming towards him... What he –
He raised his right hand... and... Started patting my head... Wha...?
I was surprised at his sudden movements and started to get embarrass because of it... Do friends do this also...? As few seconds passed, my embarrassment got replaced by my face became, full red from my cheeks to my ears... I don't know but I felt ease, from the moment he put his hand on my head... What is going on here...? What is he?
...
After he stopped patting my head, I was a bit sad but he didn't left my side... He asked 'shall we talk a more before we leave, if you want?'
I don't know but hearing him say that he wanted to talk more, I didn't help but nodded my head just like what a cat does when it gets happy...
We talked about all type of things from how the weather to what is his favourite dish... He also, took his time to think and then answer... Seeing him like this, I can't help but smile all the time, when we chat...
...
"Let's meet tomorrow, Komi-san..."
I nodded at his words, as we completed our talk... We talked for a total of about more than 1 hour, I don't know but my face is still red, and when I tried to look at his face my red face just becomes redder and I can't help but started to look downwards...
I still can't find the reason of my behaviour about what is happening to me. Why my face gets red when I see his face...? Why I wanted to talk with him more...? Why I am feeling sad when I am seeing his back getting far from me? What is this feeling???
...
"I can't find it..."
I muttered as I still didn't find the board duster, which I have been searching for about 30 minutes...
"Where is it? Why is this happening to me...?"
I can't help but ask from myself. I am helpless; I can't even do this... What will happen if Kaneki-san stopped talking to me...?
At the thought of it, my whole body ached and I don't know why... Is this how it feels when people think about losing their friend? If that's true, then it is painful, and I don't want my 'first friend' to hate me...
I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it... I don't want it...
I repeated this, in my mind, again and again, I don't know for how many times...
Then I started to think the times when the teachers used it...
...
After thinking about it, I get it... In the last class, Chhabashira sensei took the duster from the class and also told us that duster needed to be registered for each and every respective class...
How can I forget about it...? And now, how should I ask her to get it back?
"Kaneki-san..."
I muttered his name as I can't help but think about him... Yes, I have to, no, I must, ask for the duster from her because I don't want him to hate me...
...
As I reached there, I saw that all the teachers are in the staff room and Chhabashira sensei was sitting at the corner of the room, doing some paperwork... How should I ask her? What will be the best way to get the duster from her...?
I can't help but think of many possibilities of me 'failing' the task, of getting the duster from her... No, I have to take it...
As I was going to enter the room, someone tapped me on my shoulder and my whole body trembled at that... I turned my head to see, to find out that a sensei is standing behind me... She is a tall woman with long black hair that falls over her shoulders and reaches her shins. She has unkempt bangs that cover her purple eyes. She is wearing a lab coat over her work uniform: a black vest with a dress shirt underneath, black pants, and a tie that she wears loosely… Who is she?
"Hello student... What brings you here?"
"Eto--...."
"..."
"..."
I didn't utter a single word, and she didn't move a single bit from her spot...
"Oh sorry, I haven't introduced myself, hahaha... I am Shizuka Hiratsuka, homeroom teacher of second year, section 2."
"..."
She introduced herself, but I still can't find the courage to do anything... So, I bowed to her slightly flinching and excused myself from her... She seemed to be surprised at my behaviour... I am sorry.
At the end, I came back to the class, grabbed my bag and left the blackboard as it is... I am sorry, Kaneki-san... I am not a good friend and I don't think I deserve you as your friend.
...
When I reached home, I was welcomed by my mother who has a smile on her face...
"Welcome back, Shouko"
I nodded at her words; I didn't even look at her and just continued my way back to my room while looking down at the ground all the time... I think I have some tears welled up in my eyes... I think I am going to cry... I don't know but my heart is aching every time I remember the talk I had with Kaneki-san... Because, I am sure that tomorrow I am going to lose my first friend...
"Shouko, what happened?"
My mother seems to followed me in my room, as she was standing at the door looking at me while I was sitting at my bed, my legs folded and my hands are supporting my legs to remain in that position... She has a worried expression on her face... I don't know but my mother always finds out my problems, even if I tell her or not...
"Shouko?"
She calls out to me again and slowly walked towards me... She sat down next to me, put her one hand on my head and started patting me... just like Kaneki-san...
"sob sob"
"Shouko!?"
I don't know but the thought of him, triggered me to start crying...
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