[Warning: Mature Content]
As the next month arrived and days passed, Felix was getting more and more nervous about having his heat.
He was scared that he might lose his senses again like last time.
He didn't want to show off such a disgusting side to Asher and scare him.
Now that Asher was someone like his family, he was very considerate of him. After Asher comforted him through his hardships, he felt like Asher was not a servant but a person he cares and loves, admires.
He had so much respect for Asher that he found himself agitated with himself about what he was going to do.
He definitely wouldn't want to let Asher see him losing his senses, getting pulled deep into the desires that make him unwilling to escape.
He wasn't like that.
He was better than that.
He could do better…
He couldn't bring himself to even imagine hurting Asher. It pained him to even think about it.