章 140: Chapter 140

　　Chance Kyson

　　I was standing in front of one of the building in the headquarters and looked up to the beautiful night sky. I put my hands in my pocket. I took a really deep breath and let it out slowly.

　　These days, I'm trying to adjust myself. I was trying to show that I'm okay in front of everybody when I'm not. I started on jumping back to alcohol a lot and had a hard time to sleep.

　　Everytime, I close my eyes.. I could picture Aria and Heinrich getting married and it was like a nightmare to me.

　　I'm happy for her, she's settling down for good.

　　But why it is so hard for me to let her go? I was confused because slowly.. I'm going back to my old self. I was lost once again.

　　Yesterday, I admitted to her that I regreted knowing her. I do and I will regret it until the day I die. We should have not meet in the first place, she should have meet someone else. She deserves better and I think the right person who can fill that is Heinrich.