章 28: Chapter 28

He missed Pad’s beautiful face, those lush lips, the brown loving eyes. Freckles dark and light on his nose, the smallest chip on his one front tooth you can see when he grinned. His heart ached as he remembered each time how Pad looked at him.

He never told Pad he was beautiful. He never said he loved Pad, back.

You fucked this one up, RJ!

As he took the last mile, RJ went over how he would apologize to him, what he would say. RJ knew he had to maintain constant contact with him, especially since Pad was back home. Confirm the change of follow-on assignment from the Seattle area to Fort Walton Beach in Florida. All of this they would have to do on the down low because of “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.”

Stupid policy

Since their argument, he analyzed and agonized about the policy, and concluded Pad was right. This policy made military gays remain in the closet, kept him from being honest with Pad.