章 11: Chapter 10: New Home
It was a bit rough for me to walk out the door, a lot of that having to do with the fact that I was quite a bit tired, and I had not got the best of sleep last night, as it felt like I had been rolling around in my bed most of the night. Not only that, but I had the strangest dream that I could not remember for the life of me, even if it felt like I tried my best to try to remember as to what it was that had happened in that dream in the very first place any ways. I then let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I did my best to try to shake it all off.
It was not just the fact that I felt a bit worn out, but it was also the fact that I knew that I was about to leave my place that I had lived the most of my life, as I knew that it was my home. There was also the fact that I also knew that I was going to be leaving my father, who it seemed like was the only person that has ever loved me, or ever given 2 shits about me none the less. I had thought that Kimberly was also another one of those people, but clearly I had been wrong about that. I let out a bit of a soft as well as a rough sigh all at once, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well.
I got my focus instead on what it was that I was going to be doing next in my life, which I knew was more important, and I knew it was what it was that I should have my thoughts on right at this very moment in time as well. I looked back through the door way of my home, as I had left the door open, due to the fact that I still was not all too sure if I actually wanted to leave just yet. It was a bit late to change my mind any ways, even if I decided that I did not want to leave, as I had already signed the papers, and made the agreement to join the army.
I could not opt out of it at this point, and if I was going to be honest with my self as well, I really did not want to opt out of it any ways, as I wanted to get as far away from this place as possible. It was not due to my father at all, as much as it was more due to the fact that I knew that I had always been treated differently in this place, like it or not, as I had some hopes that things might change once I got in to the army. I sighed a bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I got my focus off of all of those thoughts.
As I looked through the door way, I could see my father, and yes, I would call him my father until the day that I died, even if by some miracle I might meet my actual father, which I felt like was not the case at all, based off of the fact that when I asked about my father, to my human father, he always dipped his head a bit low to the ground. I suppose, there had to be a reason as to how I had gotten here in the very first place any ways, and if my father had to kill my real father, than I suppose I could not blame him too badly.
Even if people did in fact treat me a bit harshly here, I still would rather be here than be living in an orc village, and be doing all sorts of nasty and evil things there. I felt sick as to the fact of the thoughts on some of the things that I had told had happened at those places, as I did my best to tell my self that I was not like them. I then got my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well, as I locked eyes with my father all of the sudden, as I could tell based off of the look on his face, that he was in a lot of pain.
It was clear that all of the love that he had shown me for so long, was in fact real love, and he actually did think of me as his son, which I was grateful for as well. I was grateful for every thing that he had ever done for me, and I could never repay him for it. At the same time as well, I also knew that I could not live off of him, and I could not be under his roof any longer. My anger was getting worse, and I had destroyed some of his things as it was so far. I did not want to break any thing else, and I did not want to make his life hard for any longer, any more.
It was time for me to move on, and I knew it, as I dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as I bit of a soft nod to my father, as I saw him from the corner of my eye, then nod right back over to me all of the sudden, as it was clear that he too was in pain, and he too was not all too sure as to what it was that he should do right now. I could tell that he did in fact almost want to run in to try to stop me, and to try to change my mind, but at the exact same time too, he knew just as well as I did, that it was too late for all of that at this point.
I lifted my head up all at once none the less, as I got my focus off of all of those thoughts, as I saw my father all of the sudden make a bit of some movement that caught my attention, as I looked up to see what it was. As I looked through the long hall way, I then noticed that he was no where to be seen. He had left me now, as at first, it kind of hurt me, as it felt like he was leaving me out to die out here, but at the exact same time as well, I knew that he was only trying to help me. I sighed just a bit to my self, as a few tears shed from my eyes, which was a rare thing for an orc to do, as I then all of the sudden closed the door shut behind me.
I stared at the door that was in front of me for a little while longer, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was doing right now. It was almost as if I did not want to leave, which I knew was not the case at all. It was not just the fact that I did want to leave, and I wanted to move on to a new part of my life, but it was also the fact that I had to leave, as I had no other choice now, as I had made my mind up when I had signed the papers with the army. I could not leave until I turned 40, or I had been in the army for 5 years. It was going to be 5 years before I turned 40 how ever, as I had simply just turned 20 a few months ago.
I shook off all of those thoughts from my head, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that they did not help me at all right now, as I knew that I just had to keep my focus on what it was that I was going to do next. I was a bit lost if I was not going to lie to my self, as I looked over at Paris's diner for just a little bit of some time, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that was going to stand out for me there. I was tempted to say good bye to her, but at the same time too, I also did not want to have to tell her that I was going to go out and join the army.
I sighed just a bit to my self, as I shook off all of those thoughts from my head, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I was looking over in that direction for a much different reason. It was still very early in the morning, as I was grateful for my father waking me up at this time, as I knew that I would have slept in for quite a bit longer if it had not been the case, as I knew that it would be even worse, due to the fact that I felt so worn out. I had to go and join up with the army, at the army place that I had been with my friends at, not any more than just a few days ago.
It was not just that how ever, but what it was that I was looking at, and what it was that I had my eyes on right now, all of the sudden then hit me, as I saw that it was the park, and I then began to remember, all at the exact same time as well, that I had told both Eldon and Ashton that I was going to meet up with them there, so that we could be together when we went in to the army place. I let out a bit of a soft sigh, all at the exact same time too, as I then nodded to my self all of the sudden, as I knew that if my friends were not already there, than they were on the way, and they would soon be waiting for me if I did not hurry my self up none the less.
I then nodded to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I could see that the road was a bit busy, due to the fact that I knew a lot of people were trying to get to work right now, but it was not awfully busy, like it was a lot of the time in the afternoon, when people got off of work after a long and hard day, and they just wanted to call a cab to take them back home. I looked over at the road for quite a bit of some time, as I then saw a bit of an opening of a gap for me to go through, which did not take me all too long for that to happen thankfully, as I quickly began to head through it, not all too sure if I wanted to waste that chance, when I was not all too sure if I would get another chance any time soon.
As I ran across the road, I then got across the other side, as I then all of the sudden nearly ran in to some one at the exact same time as well, as I luckily managed to stop my self at the last second before I ran in to the poor lady, as I nearly fell down to the ground, but luckily I had stopped my self. I had clearly made a bit of a scene how ever, as I dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as I could not help but to have a bit of a guilty look on my face, all at the exact same time too, as to the fact that I had nearly ran in to the lady of course, as well as the fact that I had got a lot of eyes on me all at the exact same time as well, which was for sure some thing that I did not like to often do, due to the fact that I was an orc, and I knew that people would be staring at me for an extended period of time, all at the exact same time too.
I saw a bunch of people start to move away from me, as it was clear that they knew who it was that I was in the first place as well as the fact that it was mainly the fact that I was an orc, as I was fairly certain that they did not think that I was going to run at them and attack them for some stupid reason or another. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I then dipped my head a bit low to the ground, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt a bit bad for the fact that I had nearly ran in to the poor lady still, and I hope that she was not going to get too upset at me.
As I saw the lady turn her head over to me, I then all of the sudden realized immediately as to just who it was that I had nearly ran in to, as I then all of the sudden squinted my eyes at her, as I still was quite a bit upset at her, as I no longer felt bad for the fact that I had in fact nearly ran in to her. I was not saying that I had wanted to run in to her at all, but I just did not feel bad for her as to the fact that I had made such a scene now. I sighed just a bit to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I then saw the girl, who happened to be Addison none the less, as she then nodded to me.
She had a smile on her face at the exact same time too, which was the exact opposite look that I had on my face at this very moment in time never the less how ever. I hated this girl now a days, and I did not want to be any where near her either. It was as if she had all of the sudden forgot what it was that she had done to me not all too long ago all of the sudden. When she saw the look that I had on my face, all at the exact same time as well how ever, it all seemed to come back to her, all at the exact same time as well.
Normally, seeing the look that she had on her face, when I had liked her not all too long ago, I would in fact feel bad for her, but that was not the case at all any more, as I kind of wanted to smile due to the fact, but I held my self in, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that she only had that look on her face, due to the fact that she felt a bit bad for me. I let out a bit of a soft, but also quite a bit of a heavy sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as Addison all of the sudden began to speak to me, all at the exact same time as well, none the less.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I then all of the sudden lifted my head up, all at the exact same time as well, as I then looked at my long time friend, and my long time crush, right in to her eyes, showing no sort of emotion at all on my face, whilst I did so. I did not want her to feel happy, nor sad as to the fact that I might be in pain. The truth was at the exact same time as well, I really was not in pain at all either, none the less, as I had kind of got over all of that, all at the exact same time as well, as I then began to breath in quite a bit heavily, as I then saw Addison nod to me.
I continued to stare her, right in to her eyes, as I squinted my eyes at her, doing my best to get her a bit down. I did a good job, as she dipped her head a bit low to the ground, as soon as she all of the sudden began to realize that I was not going to nod back to her at all. I felt a lot better seeing her that way, which was kind of a sick thing for me to say, but I really could not help the grin that I had on my face. As she looked up at me, I was a bit worried that she had noticed it, but if she had, it was clear that she had ignored it, as she then all of the sudden began to talk to me, and I listened as to what it was that she had to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, keeping quite a bit of a blank look on my face through out all of that.
"I am sorry about all of this Zin... I did not mean to hurt you... I hope that you can forgive me for all of it at some point too... Maybe we can meet up at the park one of these days, and talk about it..." She said to me. I looked at her dead in to her eyes, as the sad look that I saw in her eyes, did in fact entice me quite a bit, as I was tempted to agree to it, and I was tempted to crack a bit of a smile on my face, all at the exact same time as well, as if every thing had all of the sudden came back to normal, and we were now good friends again.
That was just not the case at all, as there was a lot of the reasons that it was not the case, as for one, she had gone to date my arch nemesis for one thing, the guy that I hated the most, and the guy that went out of his way to remind every one that I was an orc, which I felt like that was some thing that Samuel had done to Addison to get her to not like me, the way that I had liked her. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like I should not dwell on that for all too long either, as I knew that it was in the past now.
It still did not mean that I was going to forgive her how ever, and I knew that it was too late for all of that at the exact same time as well, as I knew just where it was that I was about to go, which was over to the park, to go and meet all of my friends, as I knew that we were about to go and join the army. I felt quite a bit sick about all of it, all at the exact same time too. I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was doing, nor what it was that I had even thought as to what it was that I was even doing in the very first place any ways, as to the fact that I had decided to join the army, simply over a girl that I had thought that I had been in love with.
It was too late to change my mind at this point, as I felt like it was best for me to not think on it all too much at the exact same time as well. If I was to be realistic at the exact same time as well, I was sure that it was not all just Samuel that had gotten her to change her mind about me, as much as it was her own decision, as well as the fact that she could be talking some truth about what her father would think about her doing such a thing. I sighed to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I had my head dipped a bit low to the ground all at the exact same time too.
It was too late to change my mind at this point, and there was also the fact that I knew that I could not live off my father my entire life, as much as he might let me do as such a thing, as I knew that at some point, I would have to wake my self up a bit, and I would have to get my own job, and my own place none the less. My own place for now, was going to be in the army, and I knew that I was going to be saving up a lot of money, all at the exact same time as well, due to the fact that I knew that I was not going to be spending any of it whilst I was in the army, as I knew that they would provide me with all of the necessaries that I would need in the very first place any ways.
Maybe I would not get to drink as much as I would like, which I knew might be a problem for me, but I knew at the exact same time as well, that drinking was not a good thing for you, as well as the fact that it was not good for your body either. Perhaps this was all for the best, as I was sure that I was simply just over thinking all of this in my head right at this very moment in time. I gulped a bit to my self, as I then got my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to remember that Addison was in front of me right now, and that she was waiting to get a response out of me as well.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I had a bit of a blank look on my face, but it felt like there was not much that I could even do to help my self with that, as I looked at the girl that I had once thought that I had fallen in love with, right in to her eyes, as I felt quite a bit of pain, not just in my own eyes, but also in hers. I went in for a hug, which I felt like might be a bit of a mistake, but she took it in with both arms. I felt like I might as well tell the truth to her at this point, as to what it was that I was planning on going in doing, as she would wonder where it was that we had gone to, I was sure of.
As I held on to her for just a little bit longer, I then finally let go of her, as we continued to look at each other through our eyes for just a little bit longer, until I then all of the sudden nodded to her, to let her know that I was about to speak to her, all at the exact same time as well, as I saw that she had a bit of a blank look on her face, but in the end, she did in fact nod back to me thankfully enough. I began to breath in quite a bit of a heavy sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as I really did not care if she had noticed me do as such a thing, and I did not care if she had heard that either.
I blinked my eyes just a few times, as I got my focus off of all of that, as I then got my mind on what it was that I had to tell her, and what it was that I was about to say in the very first place any ways, as I looked at her dead in to her eyes, as I was not all too sure about all of this. I knew that I had no other choice but to tell her the truth how ever though, as I knew that if I was to tell her a lie, than it meant that she would be worried about me, and she would probably go to my father, to ask about me, which I for sure did not want my father to be the one to tell her the news as to what it was that I had gone on and went ahead to do.
I shook my head a bit, as I did my best to shake off all of those thoughts from my mind, all at the exact same time as well, as I instead got my focus back on to the thoughts, once again, as to the fact that I had to speak to her, and I had to tell her the truth about all of it, or to at least tell her a bit of the partial truth, as I knew that I was about embarrassed as to the fact that I would tell her that she was the reason that I had gone out to join the army. I began to breath in just a bit to my self all at the exact same time as well, as I then began to speak up, as I knew that she had her full attention on me right now.
"I don't think we can go to the park, at least any time soon... Me, Ashton, and Eldon went up and signed up for the army... I had to stop relying on my father for every thing... Plus, I am an orc after all... We are going to join up with our legion today..." I said to her, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt a bit harsh with the fact that I had said I could not rely on my father to do every thing for me... But what was even more harsh, was the fact that I had said that I was an 'orc after all'. It was kind of what it was that she had said to me, when she had denied me, as I felt a bit guilty to even bring that up.
Luckily, it did not seem like she had seemed to manage to catch that, thankfully enough for me, as I saw that she had a bit of a sad look on her face, as it seemed like her thoughts were more just on the fact that I was going to go and head off to the army, and it was not just me that was going to be leaving, but also so were some of my own friends at the exact same time too, as I knew that it probably hurt her as to that fact as well. I knew that she was close to Ashton and Eldon, just as I was, and I kind of felt a bit bad that I was bringing them with me.
I suppose, that they were the ones that had already made up their mind as to what it was that they were going to do how ever, and in the end I had decided that I was going to go and join them in what ever it was that they felt like they wanted to go and do. I just wanted out of my home, and out of my city, as I knew that it this point, it was not just Addison that had made up my mind, though she was the last straw for me, as I knew that I did not want to live in a place where every one was scared of me, and every one talked behind my back, and treated me like trash.
I sighed just a bit to my self once again, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that I should do, nor what it was that I was even doing in the very first place any ways, if I was to be completely honest with my self never the less. This all felt like it was a waste of time, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was even doing here in the very first place any ways. I knew that I was wasting a fair bit of time, as I was sure that at this point, my friends were at the park, and they were waiting on me, such as it felt like it was always the case, as it felt like I was always behind a promise that I had made with my friends.
I felt a bit guilty about all of it, as I had my eyes past Addison now, as my eyes were instead on the park that was in the back ground behind me, past the diner none the less, as I could see that Paris was out side, and I saw that she had a big smile on her face, as to the fact that she had spotted me. I was fairly certain that she too wanted to talk to me, such as Addison did, but I knew that at this point, I did not have time for all of that. I shivered just a bit to my self, as I felt a little bit sick as to all of those thoughts, as to the fact that I knew that they were all good people, and they were the only ones that treated me like a normal person.
None of that mattered to me at this point though, as I knew that I had made up mind on what it was that I was going to do, and there was no way that I was going to let any one change my mind on all of this. At the exact same time as well, as I knew that I had already signed the papers with the army, and it was too late. I did not care about all of that any ways, as I had put plenty of thought on all of it now, and it was time for me to simply get my focus on the fact that, that was where I needed to be headed off to now. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I lifted my head up to Addison, all at the exact same time as well, as I was about to speak to her, before she then nodded to me.
I blinked my eyes just a few times, as I was a little bit lost, as I tilted my head a bit, all at the exact same time as well, as I not sure as to what it was that was even going on right now. I then let out a bit of a rough sigh to my self, as I could tell that she was waiting for me to let her know that I was paying attention to her. I still was a bit lost, but I did in fact nod to her, to let her know that it was safe for her to begin to speak to me, which she did in turn decide that she was ready to do as such a thing, as I then all of the sudden began to listen as to what it was that she even had to say to me in the very first place at the exact same time too.
"Well... I suppose... Just come to my place when ever you are in town next time, and we can talk..." She said to me, as I could tell that she had quite a bit of a sad look on her face, as well as the fact that she had a look of guilt, and a look of regret. I just was not all too sure as to what it was that she might have regretted in all of this. There was a lot of things that I could think that it could be, but at the exact same time as well, I also had to realize once again, that she was a human, and I was an orc, and I was over thinking all that was going on through my head at this very moment in time as well.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I saw a single tear drip from her eye. I felt quite a bit bad for her, as it was clear that there had been some thing that she had wanted to tell me, but it was too late for all of that at this point, and it was just as much her fault as it was mine, as she had plenty of time for her to come to my house and try to talk to me over the past few weeks, but in the end she had decided that she was not going to do such a thing. Perhaps that was due to the fact that she was afraid of being alone with me.
At the exact same time as well, I kind of felt like that did not make all too much sense, as to the fact that we had been alone with each other several times before, and I had not done any thing that people had said that orcs did to woman in the very first place any ways. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, as I got my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden saw Addison start to walk away from me. She had her head dipped a bit low to the ground, as she continued to head back over to where ever it was that she was headed off to.
Where ever it was, it was certainly not her home, as I knew as to just where it was that she lived, and I knew that next time that I was in fact in town, that I could of course go and speak to her, and meet her at her home, but the simple problem was, I just was not all too sure if I did in fact want to do as such a thing in the very first place any ways. I too dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time too, as I got my focus on what it was that felt to be a lot more important to me at this very moment in time never the less.
That was of course, the fact that I needed to get to the park, and I needed to go and meet my friends there, so that we all could go to the army place, and meet the people that were going to be in our division in the legion, so that we could go and start all of this, and go and find out where it was that we were going to be staying at for the next bit of time, as I knew, though my father had not told me all too much about his time in the army, he had in fact told me the basics, and he had told me all that I needed to know, as to the fact that it was almost as if he knew all along that I was going to join the army.
At the exact same time too, I also felt like that did not make all too much sense, all at once, as I knew that he had made a bet with that guy in the army place, that I had come to find out that his name was of course, Edward Sage, as I did in fact remember my father bringing that name up a few times, as I remembered that he had told me that he was one of his companions that he had in the army. He had used the word companion, but it seemed like Edward viewed him more as a friend, as he had a good sense of humor, and he did talk a lot of crap about my father, but he had also me some of the good things about him as well.
I knew all of that how ever, as I knew that my father was a big name around the town, and people talked about him a lot, usually mostly good things, as I was sure that most people did not know all that much bad about my father. I really did not know any thing bad about him, besides the fact that he had to do some sick things whilst he had been in the army, but at the exact same time as well, I also knew that a lot of that was not really his fault, as I knew that he was kind of forced to do a lot of the things that he had to do whilst he had been in there.
I let out a bit of a rough sigh, all too my self, which I saw scared a lady quite a bit as I did such a thing, as I saw her give me a bit of an ugly look. I did my best to get my focus off of all of that how ever, all at the exact same time as well, as I did not feel bad about it any more, such as I might have not all too long ago, as I knew that pretty soon from now, ladies like those would not have to worry about me any longer, as I would soon be gone. I cracked a bit of a weird and a strange smile as all of those thoughts seemed to go through my head, all at the exact same time as well.
I once again got my focus off of all of those thoughts how ever, as I just kept on going further and further in to the park, all at the exact same time as well, as I spotted my friends from not all too far away, all at the exact same time as well, as I could see that they were talking to one another right at this very moment in time. I was tempted to try to sneak up on them and scare them, as I knew that it would cause quite a fright in them, all at the exact same time as well, as to the fact that there was a big and massive orc that had all of the sudden walked up on them.
Though, I had tried that several times before in my life on my friends, and it usually did not work, due to the fact that my foot steps were quite a bit loud all at the exact same time as well. I also felt like it might not be the best of an idea for me to do such a thing at the exact same time too, as I knew that I wanted to not have people freaked out and worried about me on the last day that I was going to be in the city. I knew that it did not matter all too much, as I knew that I really should not have my focus on that, but at the exact same time as well, I kind of felt like I could not help it, never the less.
I sighed just a bit to my self, as I then shook my head all at the exact same time as well, as I then got a bit closer to the both of my friends, as I knew that they had heard my foot steps from a mile away, as the both of them all of the sudden lifted them selves up from off of the bench, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden saw Ashton nod to me all at the exact same time too, as I saw that he now had a bit of a smile on his face, all at the exact same time as well, which seemed to lighten up the mood that it felt like was not a good mood in the air at this very moment in time none the less.
I looked at Ashton for just a few moments, with a bit of a blank look on my face, all at the exact same time as well, as I then nodded right back over to him, all at the exact same time too, to let him know that I was here, and that I was ready to go with them over to the army place right now. The both of them had quite a bit of some big smiles on their faces, which was some thing that felt much needed right now, as I knew that I had to get my focus on the fact that as to what it was that we were doing, as well as the fact as to just what it was that was even going on right now in the very first place any ways, as I then all of the sudden began to hear Ashton begin to speak to me, as I blinked my eyes a few times, but in the end, I did look at my best friend right in to his eyes, as I then began to listen as to what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any ways.
"Alright... Is every one ready to get this started?" He said to the both of us, though he had his eyes on me, due to the fact that I was sure that he had already asked a similar question to Eldon, and I was sure that Eldon had already given him the answer that he had wanted to hear, just based off of the big smiles that the both of them had on their faces at this very moment in time. I still was a little bit lost about all of it, if I was not going to lie to my self never the less, as I felt like I had to keep my focus in just what it was that was even going on right at this very moment in time any ways, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self.
After just a little bit more time seemed to pass, I then all of the sudden nodded back to Ashton, just to let him know that I was in fact ready, which I could tell made him feel quite a bit better, all at the exact same time as well, as this time he did in fact turn his head over to Eldon, as it was clear that he was making sure for certain that Eldon too was ready for all of this, which based off of the look that I saw on our friend, it seemed almost as if he was born ready for all of this, as he then nodded back to Ashton, just to let him know that he was ready for him to take the lead for us.
Once Ashton had seemed him do as such a thing, I then heard Ashton let out quite a bit of a rough sigh all of the sudden, all at the exact same time too, as he blinked his eyes a few times, before he did in fact take the lead for us at the exact same time too, which had me a bit worried all at the exact same time too, as it seemed like he was the one that was having second thoughts on all of this right now, if I was going to be for real, and completely honest with my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I tilted my head at my good friend, and I squinted my eyes at him, all at the exact same time too, trying to figure out just what it was that was up with him right now.
Clearly Ashton did not seem to notice that at all how ever, as he had his eyes on some thing completely different, which of course happened to be the fact that it was where the army agency was in the first place as well, that we had gone over to a bit over a week ago, and we had signed up for the army, all with each other at the exact same time as well, as I had made sure to tell Edward that we had to be in the same Legion as one another, or else he should count us out, which clearly it probably did not take Edward much convincing to the army captain, once he had heard the news that an orc was the one that had asked as such a thing.
There was also the fact that they were trying to fill up a new legion, all at the exact same time too, so I was sure that too had a lot to do with it never the less, as I then out out a bit of a rough sigh to my self, all at the exact same time too, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts in my head, all at the exact same time as well, as I did my best to get my focus on some normal thoughts all at the exact same time as well, as I saw that Eldon too had a bit of a worried look on his face, as it was clear that he too was a bit worried about our friend Aston.
Eldon shook his head how ever, as he then noticed that I was looking him at this very moment in time, as it was clear that he also realized as to the reason that I was looking him right now too, as to the fact that I was wondering if he noticed just what it was that was wrong with Ashton, such as I did. Eldon looked at me right in to my eyes, as he then shrugged his shoulders, all at the exact same time as well, as it was clear that he was doing his best to try not to get all too worried about all of that, all at the exact same time as well, never the less, which was what it was that I felt like should be the way that I was acting right now, at this very moment in time too.
I then nodded a bit to my self, as I then noticed that Eldon was now following Ashton, such as it had been clear that he had asked of us to do in the very first place any ways, as all of that all of the sudden seemed to come back to my head, all at the exact same time as well, as I then got my focus on to the thoughts of all of that, and I then blinked my eyes a few times, as I followed the both of them, trying not to have my focus on any thing else, as I got my mind clear, and I then kept on going with the both of them to the army place that we had been asked to meet at today, just yesterday.
I looked at the front of the army agency, such as it had felt like I had been doing a few days ago with my friends, back when none of us were still all too sure if this was the best option for us. It was too late to change our mind this time, as we had a chance to do such a thing last time. We had signed up, and we were now a part of the army, for at least the next 5 years, or until the day that we died, and we passed along to what ever it was that was up there, if you wanted to call it a God, or what ever it was that you wanted to call it, if there was any thing up there in the very first place any ways.
I sighed all at once, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts that it seemed just so happened to be in my head right now, as I knew there was a lot more important things going on that I should have my mind on. Which of course, one of those being the fact that we were at the army agency, and I was sure that they were waiting for us in side, as I had seen a few people go in as it was already, and they had not gone out yet. It was not normal for all that many people to be signing up for the army in a normal day like today, so it was clear that they too were here for the same reason as we were, which I was to guess as to the fact that it was not just the fact that they knew that they were going to get paid well.
I knew a lot of people went in to the army, to get away from the real world, such as I was doing right now, as I looked down at the ground a bit sadly once again, as I kind of wished that this was not the way that things had to go, and that I had another decision that I could make. I knew that it was how things had to go how ever, as I knew that I needed to find a job at some point now, as to the fact that I was already 20 as it was, and I still had never had a job for one thing, and also the other thing was the fact that I came home very late a lot of nights, which I knew for a fact for certain woke my father up during the night, even if he did not want to bring it up to me.
Of course he didn't want to though, as I knew that he would be a bit worried as to the fact that I might get upset at him for all of that, and I might throw a fit, which I felt like I could not blame him for, as I knew that I got very angry when things did not go the way as I had planned, and things did not go the way that I had wanted them to go. I hated being an orc, but I knew at the exact same time as well, as much as to the fact that I did not want people to treat me the way as they treated orcs, I knew that I could not think like I was an orc, and I could not put all of the blame on the fact that I was an orc.
I dipped my head quite a bit low to the ground, all at the exact same time as well, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that was going on with me. I had seen a bunch of the new army men give me a bit of a nasty look when they had gone in to the army agency, but I felt like once they got to know me, and they realized that I was not a bad person, as much as I wanted to tell my self that I was, than they would not treat me the way that they were right now. I nodded to my self, all at once, as I then all of the sudden heard the voice of Eldon, as he began to speak, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I still was a little bit lost in my head, if I was not to lie to my self, but I did my best to try to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well, as I then turned my head over to Eldon, as I was a bit lost as to what it was that he had to say, as well as the fact that I was also interested in what it was that he had to say to me, all at the exact same time as well. I let out a bit of a rough sigh, all at once, as I then began to listen to what it was that he had to say to the both of us in the very first place any ways, all at once.
"You guys ready to go in now? I'm sure that they're waiting on us..." He said to the both of us, as if they were in fact waiting on us, and only us. I sighed just a bit to my self, all at the exact same time as well, as I did my best to try to not get all too worried about all of that, as I did not want to have people claim that I was privelaged, due to the fact that I was an orc in a man's army, which I knew would not have me off to a good start as to the fact that I was trying to gain the peoples side, and the people's trust in me none the less as well.
I shook my head, as I did my best to get rid of all of those thoughts from my head, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden nodded to Eldon, to let him know that I was ready to head in with him in to the agency. As I did as such a thing, I then saw Eldon turn his head over to Ashton, to make sure that he was in fact ready as well, as I did the same thing that Eldon was doing none the less. The both of us looked at our friend for quite a bit of some time, which I could tell was in fact making him quite a bit nervous, as he was clearly not sure what to do, nor how to handle all of this.
Ashton had his head a bit low to the ground, for quite a bit of some time, until all of the sudden, he then did in fact lift his head up, all at the exact same time as well, as he then put a little bit of a smile on his face, just as he had done earlier, as I was starting to think that it might have been a fake smile that he had earlier, all along. It just did not make sense as to the fact that he was trying to make sure that we were ready for all of this, and we were sure that we wanted to do this, if he was not all too sure him self how ever.
Perhaps he was just looking at us to make sure that this was a good idea, and that this was what it was that we wanted to do. As far as I was concerned never the less, this was what it was that I wanted to do, and based off of the look that I saw on the face of Eldon, it seemed like he too was ready, and he was prepared for all of this as well. It was too late to change our minds at this point any ways, as I knew that we would get in a ton of trouble if we did in fact not show up to this. It was clear that Ashton realized that as well, as in the end, he did too in fact nod right back over to Eldon, to let him know that he was ready just like the both of use were, even if I was in fact not all too sure if he was.
I shook off all of those thoughts from my head how ever, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden saw Eldon take the lead in all of this, which was very much a big surprise to me, as he was a good guy, but he was not the guy that you would want to look over to when it came to job such as a leader how ever. I sighed just a bit to my self once again how ever, as I then did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, as I saw that Ashton was in fact following Eldon, and I felt like I should do the same thing as him, as I followed the both of them to the front door of the place.
Eldon then opened it, as it was a bit of some dim lighting, such as it had been a few weeks ago when we had come here, but this time I knew that it was open in fact, as I had in fact, just like the other 2 that were with me right now, seen people go in to the place, as I then let out a bit of a soft sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as all of us then began to walk in, as I saw all of the eyes on the room, of about 30 or more people that were in here with me right now, then all of the sudden turn their heads over to me, as I saw a few people moved back in fright, which did in fact make me feel quite a bit bad all at the exact same time too.
I dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as I felt like I really should not be this way right now, and maybe I should just take in the fact that I was an orc, with some pride, and a little bit of some passion all at the exact same time as well, as after just a few more moments had seemed to pass, in the quite empty and silent room, I then did in fact lift my head up, and I cracked a little bit of a smile to every one that was in here right at this very moment in time none the less, as I could tell that it did in fact make a few of the people feel a little bit uncomfortable.
I did not care how ever, as I felt like pretty soon from now, they would be treating me a lot different, and they would be happy that I was with them in this legion. I kept the smile on my face through all of that, all at the exact same time as well, as the room stayed a bit silent for just some more time, until all of the sudden, I heard the voice of a familiar man begin to speak from not all too far away from me, as every one then all of the sudden turned their heads over to the man that had just spoken up in the very first place any ways, none the less.
I blinked my eyes just a few times, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that I should do right now, even though the answer was fairly obvious, which was the fact that I should have my attention on the man that was speaking to every one that was in the room with me at this very moment in time. At first I thought that he was talking to me, or he was talking about me, but I realized that it was not the case at all for Edward, as he had his eyes some where else. I let out a bit of a soft and grateful sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as I then began to listen as to just what it was that he had to say in the very first place any ways.
"Every one go to the back side, and follow Tanner... He will lead you to your new home..."
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