章 6: Chapter 5: We Will See About That
I stared at my father, with quite a bit of a shocked look on my face all at the same time too, as to what it was that he had said to me in the very first place any ways, as it just did not seem real at all to me, if I was not going to lie to my self. My father had been in the army ever since I could remember, as that was how he had found me in the first place any ways, as he had saved me from not just the orcs, in some village they had attacked, but he had also saved me from the humans, that were going to kill and innocent baby, simply due to the fact that I was an orc.
I suppose, some times, I felt angry, and hatred, that I might not be innocent at all, and I might actually be evil, and I could be bad. I felt like that was not true at all, but I still could not help but to have those thoughts in my head, as I some times had dreams of killing humans, and doing a bunch of other evil stuff. It was what scared me as to the fact that I got drunk a lot of nights, even if I did like to drink, I felt like one of those nights, it would not be a dream that I was in at all, as I would in fact kill a bunch of innocent humans.
I felt sick, and I felt a bunch of shivers go down my spine, as to the fact that I even had those thoughts in my head in the first place any ways. I knew that I did not want to kill any humans, even if it was some one such as Samuel. I just did not like the guy, and I did despise him a lot of the time, but it did not mean that I wanted to kill him though, as I knew that he was still a normal person, even if he was in fact an ass hole, it did not mean that he deserved to be killed.
I sighed, as I stared down at the floor boards to the hall way that I was in right at this very moment in time. It was quite a bit cold on the floor, as I had taken off my sandals as soon as I had walked in to the place in the very first place any ways. It was that time of the year I suppose, as to the fact that it did always get cold. Though I felt like a lot of it was not real at all, and it was just the fact that my mind felt quite a bit cold right now, so it made every thing cold, and it made nothing normal at all for me.
I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was doing, or what it was that I was going to do. I did my best to try to shake off all of the thoughts of killing any one, as I got my focus on what it was that my father had said to me in the very first place any ways, as I blinked my eyes just a few times, making sure that my thoughts did not go on any thing else right now, as I just kept on staring down at the ground, as if nothing had happened at all, and my father had not told me as to what it was that he had just said to me.
I suppose, the more that I thought on it, the more that it started to make sense to me, as I was not all too sure as to how I had not known it before. My father was at the house a lot more than he usually tended to be, over the past few months, which I knew was not normal for him at all, as I knew that he had been in the army, as that was now past tense, and I knew that just because he did not go in to battle, and did not go in to war, it did not mean that he didn't stay busy.
My father was quite a bit old at this point, as I knew that he was in his late 50s, even if he was in good shape, and in healthy condition. It did not matter at all, as I knew that he was simply too old to go in to battle. He mainly just trained people, that were trying to go in to the army, and wanted to go to war. I suppose, that even if I did go in to war, my father would not be at my side in any of that at all sadly. But I did at least have a bit of some hope that he might be able to train me.
Hell... Even if he had retired, he still might be able to train me just a little bit, as I knew that he knew a lot of battle techniques, and a lot of other stuff none the less as well. I wish that I could try to get him to change his mind, but based off of the look that I saw on his face right now, he had already made up his mind, and there was no way that I was going to be able to change it at all sadly, as I let out another soft sigh, as to all of those thoughts all at once as well.
Maybe this was a bad idea, and maybe it was stupid. My father, whilst he might be in the army, it did not mean that he liked war at all. He simply just did it, as it was a way to provide for me and him, and also the fact that he was good at it, and he had been put in to all of it when he was a young age as well. It was some thing that he had made sure not to do on me, such as his father had forced him in to all of it, when he was a young child, as he always trained him, until he was of the age to join the army.
He got paid well, and there was nothing that you could complain about in that at all, as I knew that it was nice to have a good pay check, and I good income to supply your family, and all of the needs that you had to help them with, though you might not be able to be around them all that much, such as he had not been when I was a lot younger. He was around me a lot more now how ever, and I was grateful for it, as I was blossoming in to my true self at this very moment in time, and I knew that I needed some one by my side, that would give me good advice.
Like it or not, I knew that my friends were not the best people to go to when it came to advice, as I tended to stay away from all of that. I knew that my father was all that I needed to do, and whilst I had pretended that I was just going to go home and get some rest, I actually had gone to my home, to get the advice from my father, as to what it was that I should do in the first place any ways, and what it was that they would do, if they did see an orc walk in, wanting to join a human army.
I was not worried about being turned down, so I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was worried about in the very first place any ways, as I knew that every thing was going to be alright, and every thing was going to turn out just fine for me, as I then nodded to my self, and I got my attention back on to my father, to see as to what it was that he was doing, and what it was that was going on with him right now, as he had been the one that I had gone to for the advice of course.
As I looked over at my father, I could see that he was tired, and he was worn out. Maybe that was because he had a long day, or maybe it was because he had been doing all of this army stuff for his entire life, and it had torn him apart practically, at this point. I knew that it was always rough on him, and I knew that it was not some thing that I could take lightly at all, as I knew that war was real, and that war would most likely get me killed, if I stayed in it nearly as long as my father had.
I sighed, as I looked my father right in to his eyes for a few seconds, as I then all of the sudden saw him squint his eyes at me, as soon as he had seen me do such a thing, which confused me, and it surprised my just a bit, as I then titled my head at him, not all too sure as to what it was that he was doing right at this very moment in time never the less, as I was quite a bit lost. I was quite a bit worn out to, as I had not slept all too well last night.
I had drank far too much, like it or not, as I was just too stressed about the fact that I was going to confess my love to Addison. I suppose, there was a good reason as to the fact that I should be stressed out of course, as in the end, she had said no to me, and it had hurt me. So I was kind of glad that I had a good drinking night, for me to be prepared for all of that. I sighed, as I did my best to try to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the same time as well, as I then got my focus back on my father, as I began to hear him start to speak to me at the same time too.
I was quite a bit lost by it, as well as the fact that I was a bit shocked my it too, as I then locked my eyes back on him, glad to see that he was no longer squinting his eyes at me, which did give me a bit of some anxiety to some extent at the same time too. I breathed in just a bit heavily, not too heavily though, as to where he would notice it, as I then got my focus off of all of those thoughts that I had my mind on not all too long ago, as I then all of the sudden began to listen as to what it was that he had to say to me in the very first place any ways.
"I will still remind you, that you will see a lot of blood... A lot of gore... And you will have to kill a lot of people... A lot of your own people often times..." He said to me, as he squinted his eyes at me once again, just as soon as I had relaxed my self after the first time that he had his eyes squinted at me. I was quite a bit freaked out, as I was still not all too sure as to what it was that I should do right at this very moment in time, as I then began to get my focus back on the thoughts of what it was that he had just said to me. I had all of those dreams, at the same time too, as to not just the fact that I was killing humans, but I was also killing orcs. Baby orcs none the less, which made me feel quite a bit sick, that I would ever do some thing like that. I hoped that those dreams were not real, and that it was not predicting my future. I felt a bit evil, on the thoughts that I had been thinking on, after the fact that Addison had denied me, but the thoughts of killing babies made me feel even more sick, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh, and I then stared down at the ground, as I could not handle the fact that my father had his eyes squinted at me. I stared at the floor that was beneath me once again, as I felt like I did not want to be standing on this for any longer. I had come back home to get some sleep right? I nice, warm, and comfy bed, felt to be the best thing that I could think of in the world right now, as a bit of a sad smile cracked up on my face. I could tell that it confused my father quite a bit at the exact same time too, as he then tilted his head at me, and he then let out a bit of a heavy, and loud sigh at the exact same time too, to try to get my attention clearly, as I then lifted my head back up, and I looked over to him all of the sudden, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that he was getting at. I did how ever, nod to him, as I knew that he was about to speak to me, as of course, just as I had expected, he did in fact begin to speak, as I listened as to what it was that he had to say to me once again as well. "But hey... It's your own decision in the end... And you have to make your own choices at some point... I am not going to lie... They pay well, especially if you get up to the rank that I was... They know me, and they know you... You'll get paid more, simply just due to the fact that you are strong..."
I looked at him with a bit of a blank look on my face for just a few seconds, as I was not all too sure on what it was that he had said to me any ways, even though it was clear that he had made it fairly clear. He was telling me that I was going to get paid well, which I knew that I would, not even due to the fact that I was an orc, and that I was strong.
It was more due to the fact that I had spoke to some of my fathers friends, and some of the people that were in the army that were not high ranking at all, as they got paid well, and they got a bit of a compensation once they got out of the army too. I knew that even just a few years in the army, than I was set for life, and I would not have to live off of my father any more. That was a lot of the reason that I was thinking on all of this as well, as I knew that as much as I loved my father, and I knew that he loved me too, I knew that I could not live off of him, and I could not mooch off of him for my entire life, as I knew that I had to grow up and do my own thing at some point.
It would hurt me to leave my father behind and all, but I knew that he was going to be fine, as he had made it far on his own before me, and he was going to make it far on his own after me. Besides, for all that I knew, I could get a place near him, and I could still visit him when ever I felt like it. Though, if I was going to get a place, I was going to make sure that my bed room, as well as the place that I was getting, was not going to be on the 2nd story.
I hated going up steps, as he knew it just as well as I did. Sadly, there was only 1 room down stairs though, so I had no other choice but to walk up and down the stairs, which I knew some times woke him up, when I came back home from partying often times. He did not say any thing about it at all to me, but I was not stupid, and I did in fact know that it bothered him, as it would bother me to, if I was trying to get some sleep after a long and hard day of working, only to be woken up in the middle of the night, to overly loud foot steps going up the stairs right beside me.
I sighed, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I was even thinking on right now, if I was going to be completely honest with my self, I knew that I needed to get my thoughts off of all of that, as I then looked at my father, who I saw had a bit of a blank look on his face at the exact same time too. Though, when I looked it to his eyes how ever, I could see a bit of a sad look in his eyes, as it seemed like he was in a bit of some pain, as to what it was that he had just had to say to me.
Perhaps this was not a good idea at all, if I was going to be for real with my self now, as I felt like based off of all that I had been told, and all of the dreams that I had, that I could not do any of this that I first thought that I could have. I just was not all too sure as to what else I could do though, as I knew that it was a bit hard for me to get a job any where else. Perhaps I could go and help on farms, as I knew that I was strong, but even me being an orc, and also the fact that I was an orc, working on a farm, that I was not going to get paid worth a shit none the less.
Any other jobs that I did, I would just ruin every thing that I touched, so it was starting to dawn on me at this point, that I might not have much of any other choice, as to the fact that I had to go and join the army. I shivered, as I then nodded to my father, as I felt like I was finally ready to respond to what it was that he had said to me not all too long ago at this point at the exact same time too.
My father still had a blank look on his face, for a few more moments, but after it then seemed to hit him, that I had nodded to him, he then got a bit of some expression, and a little bit of emotion back on his face, at the exact same time as well, as he then nodded right back over to me, to let me know that he was listening as to what it was that I had to say to him in the very first place any ways. I let out a bit of a soft sigh of relief, as I then all of the sudden began to speak to him finally.
"I think... I think that... I think that I will just sleep on it, and maybe I will wake up feeling like I know what it was that I should do in the morning..." I said to him, even though he knew just as well as I did, that I was going to have a bunch of nightmares, that were going to tell me the opposite of what it was that I wanted to hear, as I knew that I had told him all about the dreams that I had been having, ever since I was a little orc.
I did not ever tell any one else about any of those dreams, not even my friends, as it made me sick, as to the thing that I did in those dreams, as I knew that I would never do it on another human, but my sub conscious seemed to be telling me some thing that was completely different from all that though. I then shivered, as I did my best to clear off all of those thoughts from my head how ever. I knew that the dreams would get me to not want me to join the army at all, but perhaps, that was what I needed, as I felt like this would only end badly for me.
I stared at my father, dead in to his eyes for a few more moments, as I saw that he had quite a sad look on his face, as if he was thinking back on a memory of his. I wish that I could do that, as I often forgot all of my memories that I had, simply after a few days of having them, as I could not hold on to any of the good, nor bad, nor sad memories at all, salty enough for me. A lot of the times it was a good thing, but a lot of the times it was not at all, as I knew that I would get angry some times, and I would not have a single clue as to just why it was that I was angry in the very first place any ways.
I sighed, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts all at once how ever, as I then saw my father all of the sudden nod to me. I blinked my eyes a few times, not comprehending as to what it was that was going on in the first place any ways, until I then all of the sudden saw him begin to head back over to his bed room, which was where it was that he had been in, before I had come back home, from spending, a not so good day with my friends, which was a bit rare for me, as I tended to enjoy the days that I spent with my friends.
That was not the case at all today how ever, and I knew exactly why that was the case of course, as I knew that I still was in quite a bit of some pain, after what it was that Addison had said to me not all too long ago. It was not just the fact as to what it was that she had said to me, but it was also back on the old term that I know had been used time and time again, as this was also one of the perfect examples of it, as I had heard the phrase go as such 'actions speak louder than words'.
Her actions did speak quite a bit loud to me, as I had watched her leave the park holding on to the hand of one of the guys that I hated the most out of any one, which was of course Samuel. I was fairly certain that I would never forgive her for what it was that she had done today, and I was glad for it as well, as I did not want her in my life any more, as I knew that I just needed to grow up at this point, and I needed to move on from all of that, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh all at the exact same time too, as I saw my father turn his head back over to me, as I saw a sad look on his face, as he nodded to me, shortly before he closed his bed room door.
I wanted to just lay down on the ground and cry, as if I was not an orc at all, but I was instead a sad little human girl, and I still was not all too sure as to how it was that I should handle all of my emotions. That was how it was that I was feeling right now, if I was not going to lie to my self. I was not too sure as to how it was that I should handle my emotions, as it made me feel a bit sick, but not even just that, but it also made me feel quite a bit angry, as I did my best to calm my self down, before I threw a temper tantrum, and broke a bunch of shit.
I breathed in just a bit, as I stared to take slow and steady breaths as I then nodded to my self at the exact same time too. Perhaps, it was not only a good idea to go and get some sleep, to remind me as to the fact as to why I should not join the army at all, but also the fact that it would get me off of all of the anger, and all of the aggression that I was feeling right now. I felt like I wanted to hurt some one, and the only person that was near me right now, was my father of course, which was the last person that I wanted to hurt, as I knew that I loved my father to death.
I shook off all of those thoughts all at the exact same time too, as I then began to walk down the hall way, that led to the stair way. I suppose, that it was more than likely a good idea for me to go ahead and go up the steps before my father was to fall asleep any ways, as I did not want to wake him in the middle of his sleep, as, even if he was no longer in the army any more, I still wanted to at least respect him, and let him get his much needed rest, as he still took care of the house.
It was some thing that his wife used to do, but, I knew very well as to just what it was that had happened to his wife, and his child. Every time he told me that story, he got very emotional, and he teared up quite a bit. I knew ever time that he even though on those thoughts as well, as he always had the same look come up on to his face every single time. I then let out a bit of a soft sigh all at the exact same time too, as I then began to walk away from all of it, as I then began to walk up the stairs, hearing my very loud foot steps as I did such a thing as well.
I winced, as I did as such, as I hated as to the fact that I was so big and that I was so heavy. I just wanted to be a normal human, and I was not all too sure as to why that was so much to ask. If I was going to be an orc, maybe it was a better idea, that I was to grow up in an orc village, or an orc home, as I knew that I was fairly certain that the humans over exxagaratted about the fact as to what it was that orcs did for one thing, as I was sure that they would treat me better than the humans did. I let out a bit of a soft sigh, as I felt like it was not the case at all how ever.
I was lucky that I grew up in a human home, as I knew that it was a lot better than an orc home, and that there was nothing that I should complain about, as I had to be the most lucky orc that had ever lived. Well... Perhaps, besides the king of the orcs, as I had been told just how evil that man was, and all of the stuff that he did, and all of the stuff that be got none the less as well, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh. If I was an orc king, I would not do such a thing, and I would make peace with the humans, so that we were not always at war, and we were not always killing each other.
It was not my decision though, so I suppose that I should not think all too much on it, as I just shook off all of those thoughts all at the exact same time as well, as I kept on going up the stairs, wincing each step that I took, as it let out the most massive creak that I could have ever heard, even as soft, and as silent that I was trying to make my steps, it did not seem to matter all too much how ever, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh at the exact same time too, as I felt like it would just be a better idea to just go ahead and get all of this over with, as I then got all the way up the steps, going as fast as I could once I got to the mid sections.
It seemed to be quieter than the soft steps that I had been taking, though I felt like that was not the case at all how ever, as it simply had only felt to be that way, due to the fact that I had been going at such a quick, and such a fast pace, that I had been a bit loud, not just only the foot steps, but the rest of my body, and the loud grunts that I had made, whilst I had been trying to get up all of the steps in the very first place any ways.
Once I was up though, I felt a lot safer, as I then nodded to my self, as I stared at the bed room that was right in front of me right now, and I then began to walk over to it. I had left the door open, letting in all of the cold air. It was going to take a while for the room to warm back up now, and I knew it, as I let out quite a bit of a loud sigh, which I knew was even louder, due to the fact that I was an orc of course, as I heard the sigh then echo across the entire house, as I felt like a bit of an idiot.
I shook off all of those thoughts at the exact same time too how ever, as I then began to slowly close the door, at the very least, making sure that it was not all too loud, as I had broken the door a few times, some times on accident, due to the fact that I was in a rush, and I was just trying to close the door, to get out of the house, but also a bit on purpose, to prove a bit of some sort of stupid point to my father, and the rest of the world, that I was angry, as I had slammed the door closed, and it had made the door fall down.
I sighed, as I knew that I was a mess, and I was lucky that my father did not only take care of me, but also the fact that my father loved me too, as I knew that I had a few friends that were humans none the less, that did not have father's at all. I felt quite a bit sick, as I then got my focus off of those thoughts all at once, as I then began to head over to my bed, going over to the candle that was right beside it as well, so that I could light it up, and light up the entire room, as it was now completely dark out side at this point.
Orcs did not have the best eyes either, as I nearly fell in to the cabinet that was beside me, and I nearly crashed every thing down, as I was lucky that I did not do as such a thing, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh of relief, and I then began to go and grab the lighter, and I lit up the candle, letting out a good glow of light all around the entire room. I let out a bit of a soft sigh, as I then all of the sudden laid down on the bed, realizing just how worn out I was right now.
It had been a bit of a rough, and a draining day on me, not just in the mental aspect, as to what it was that Addison had said to me, but also the fact that I was worn out physically, due to the fact that I had awful sleep last night, and also the fact that I had got quite a bit drunk last night none the less. Whilst my hang over might not nearly be as bad as a humans would be, I still was quite a bit hung over, and it had been a bit of a rough day on me, as to the fact that I had moved around so much.
Luckily, I did not have to worry about it all too much, as I knew that I did not have to make my decision with what it was that I was going to do with my friends, and the fact that we wanted to go in to the army, until later in the day. I could sleep in as much as I wanted to, for all that I cared. It made me feel a lot better as well, now that I realized that, as I then put the blanket on top of me, after I took all of my clothes off, as I knew that I tended to like to sleep naked.
Once all of that was done, I moved my head on to a comfortable spot on my pillow, and I then began to close my eyes. The light from the candle did not bother me what so ever, as I knew that my eyelids were strong, and no light could emanate from that at all. I was glad for it, as I let out quite a bit of a soft sigh this time, that I could hear once again, echo around the room, as I then began to fall asleep thankfully, not all too long after that.
I woke up, and once again, I was in a dream, though I hoped that it was not a bad dream, nor was it a scary dream at all, as I hoped that I did not have to kill any humans, nor did I have to kill any orcs, like it just so happened to be in a lot of my dreams. I let out a bit of a soft sigh all at once, as normally, the way things seemed to be, it was dark, and I would assume that I was not in a dream at all, but rather, the reason that I had a sub conscious train of thoughts right at this very moment in time, was simply due to the fact that I had just woken up, and it was early in the morning.
That was not the case at all for this one how ever, or so I hoped it to be, as I heard a lot of noise going on all around me right now, that just did not make sense for it to be that I could be in my home right now. I knew that I was some where else, as all of the noise that I heard right now, was in an open area, which as big as my home might be, it was by no means an open area, meaning that I was in a dream right now, like it or not.
Also, another reason that I knew that I was in a dream, was the fact that when I opened my eyes, it was still pitch black at this very moment in time, which was not normal at all. If I was to wake up to a normal day, than it meant that if I was to open my eyes, I would at least see a little bit of light in the room. If it was in the middle of the night none the less, I would at least see a bit of some movement in the room that I had been in.
I sighed, as I did my best to shake off all of those thoughts all at once how ever, as I felt like I should stop freaking out so much, and I should at least try to figure out just what it was that was even going on in this dream in the first place, though it was quite a bit hard for me right now. This was not a normal dream for me, due to the fact that my mind was working a bit better than it normally did, and I was not hungry to kill what ever it was that I saw in front of me at all, like it was in most dreams, which I felt like, might have to be due to the fact that I could not see a single thing in front of me at all.
I shook off all of those thoughts all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to hear a voice, of a man start to speak from not all too far away from me. The voice seemed to be a very obese man none the less, as he had a bit of some globber in his voice, as it seemed like there was some thing that was wrong with the voice of the man. I shivered just a little bit, which I was not all too sure as to just why I might have done that at all, if I was going to be completely honest with my self.
I was not all too sure as to how I was even doing that, as it seemed like I was in emptiness and nothingness all around me right now. I felt quite a bit sick, as I did my best to try to shake off all of those thoughts from my head, once again never the less, as I then got my focus on what it was that the fat man was trying to say in the first place any ways, as I then began to listen as to what it was that he was saying, to who ever it was that he was with right now.
"Where is my son damn it! Tell me now, or I will not hesitate to kill you, you stupid slut!" He yelled to who ever it was that he was with right at this very moment in time. I was not going to lie, though the voice seemed to be the voice of quite an evil man, the man seemed to be a bit angry, as well as in a bit of some pain, as to the fact that he had lost his son, and it was clear that who ever it was that he was talking to right now, knew as to where it was that his son was in the first place.
He lost me at the last part though, not only on the fact that he had called who ever it was that he was with right now, a slut, which was a word that I did not like to hear at all, but also the fact that in the middle of all of it, he also had said that he was going to kill her. It sounded like an abusive husband if I was not going to lie, as far as it had seemed to be up to this point, though, I still felt like I did not have enough back ground information, to get what it was that he had meant by it.
I dipped my head to the ground, or at least, what I felt like I had dipped my head low to the ground none the less, as I was trying to think on all that was going on right now. I had no story line in to any of this, so I was not all too sure as to which person's side I should choose right now. Though, I was leaning towards the woman, which it was clear that was who it was that the man was with right now, even though I had not heard the woman say a word to him back just yet.
I shook off all of those thoughts though, as I felt like I should not come to a bit of an assumption just yet, as I just stared in to the darkness, and in to the abyss for a little bit longer, not all too sure as to what else it was that I should be doing right now, as there was nothing else for me to do at all. I had made up my mind, and it was clear as to what it was that seemed to be going on right now, as I was not all too sure as to why I was in this dream in the very first place any ways.
This dream seemed to have nothing to do with me, as I just wanted to wake up, and get on with another day of my life, not all too sure as to what it was that I was going to do with that day any ways. It was besides the point right now, as I knew that I was in a dream, and my focus should not be on my real life at all right now, but it should be rather focused on just what it was that was going on in this dream in the first place, like it or not, which I did not like it at all.
Luckily, if you wanted to say that it was luck at the very least, I did not have to think on any of that for too much more time, as I then all of the sudden heard the sheeth of a blade at the same time too, as I then got my focus back on what it was that was going on right now, as I was now suddenly scared for the lady, as it was clear that the threats of killing her were not just soft threats at all, as it was clear that the man was actually having the intent to kill her, which made me feel even more sick.
I did my best to get my focus off of all off those dark thoughts all at the exact same time too, as I then finally, then heard the voice of the female lady, which also seemed to be a bit of an obese voice, as she began to speak back to the obese man. I was a little bit lost buy all of it if I was not going to lie to myself, as I then all of the sudden at the exact same time to begin to listen to what it was that she had to say back to the man.
"You call me a slut when you raped me? I sent him to a very safe place where you will never find him, well for at least a long time... Maybe someday he will come back and kill you... That's what you're so scared of isn't it huh?" She said to him. After I had heard what she said it confused me even more as I had not a clue what she was talking about. Why was I in the stream in the first place it was really confusing me? I let out a bit of a soft sigh though it didn't seem to do much because I was not actually here.
None of this seem to matter to me at all so I was not sure why I was even here in the first place. I just wanted to leave this dream, and wake up, as this all felt really stupid and useless to me. But, at the same time too though something did feel a bit off with the stream and it did feel like it was some thing that I needed to hear out at the very least, as I felt like I should just give up on this and just keep on listening to all that was going on in the first place any ways.
It states silent for a little bit longer, until all the sudden I heard the obese man began to start laughing which was a quite maniacal laugh if I was not going to lie to myself never the less, as I shivered a little bit. Now, at this point I had fully gone the support of the woman in this situation as it felt like she was the one that I should have on my side, as it felt like, after I had heard the words rape, which was a lot of the words that people had said about me, simply due to the fact that I was an orc, I felt bad for all women after all of that.
But what was this? It was quite a bit confusing to me as to what it was that was going on in the first place, as I just stared in to emptiness. All of those thoughts were cut off, after I then heard the man's laughter begin to get louder and louder. It was really starting to freak me out is the man seem to be a little bit of a a messed up man, some there in his head. I did not feel bad for the man at all how ever, cuz I felt like a lot of it was the man's own fault, as to all of the evil that he might have done.
I had my thoughts on that for a little bit longer, until, I then heard the blade make a very loud ruckus. My heart seems to stop even though my heart didn't even seem to be here in the first place any ways. I knew what it was that the man had done and it made me feel sick. The man was in the wrong and the man had made the fatal mistake of killing this woman, which seemed to have a lot of information that not even I knew about.
I suppose none of it in really mattered all too much to me at all how ever, as I then gave up on all of it, as I then heard the man begin to speak at all the sudden once again. I was a little bit lost as to who it was that he was speaking to considering he just killed the woman, clearly. The man was a psychopath for sure, as I felt like I should just give up and I might as well listen to what it was that he was saying any ways. I did in fact do a such a thing none the less as well.
"We will see about that..."
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