It was during that period that she steeled her mind and heart, sealing her true feelings off and putting on a false facade before the peers. She hated the world for hating her, and that hatred passed onto Xu Jiaqi, who put her in the brink of death after hours and hours of labor as she wasn't provided with extensive care and was still categorized as a young teen.
Losing her trust and hope for humanity after all the pain that she had to bear, she didn't even have the time to cry over her fate and recover from the blows before she was forced into prostitution once again. Such was the harsh laws of the world.