章 24: Confession of a notebook 1/2

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When I opened my eyes today, I immediately looked deep inside myself, trying to discern where I was going now. There was no unequivocal feeling in me, but the desire to continue on my way prevailed over the desire to give up.

Doubt is four out of ten! And unfortunately the focus is now on those oppressive doubts. I will have to master the skill of indifference in the right proportions, so that the doubts will weaken and hopefully cease to exist in me.

The decision is made!

Page #18

This entry I make eight months since the decision was made to continue the journey. I have succeeded in starting a small business, but unfortunately in it I have again been unsuccessful. I am now having to work off my loan by doing work that disgusts me. I try my best not to lose heart and this notebook is my only companion.

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