章 11: Leave her alone.
I didn't stop running and when my legs were tired, I didn't stop walking.
I walked, and walked, and walked until my legs gave out at the foot of my parents grave.
I was tired, I felt filthy, and I felt drained.
Emotionally, physically, and mentally drained.
"Mom, please I want to come. Please." I start to cry. "I'm tired of staying here. Can't I just come meet you guys up there?"
Suddenly, it started to rain.
It wasn't even supposed to rain today!
I just sat there, under the rain, in front of my parents graves doing nothing.
The rain was mixing with my tears, so you really couldn't know the difference.
"Dad? Was I a mistake? Is my existence a mistake? Maybe mom wasn't supposed to have me. Because I really can't think of a better explanation for the situation I'm in. Maybe it's my punishment for being alive, for killing you guys." Another wave of tears hit me.
"You know, sometimes I wish it wasn't my fault. I wish I didn't have to be so persistent that night. I wish I had just had dinner at home. Maybe then, you guys would still be alive."
Sniff.
"Sometimes I imagine how life would have been like if you were still around. Would dad chase off all the boys I bring home? Would mom use her pastries and delicious food to fatten me? Would we still be living at the beach? All these kind of questions run through my mind everyday."
"Every freaking day."
After a while, the rain stopped and I decided to go back home.
My clothes were soaked but I didn't care.
I couldn't care.
I was tired and I had a terrible headache.
It was getting dark and I didn't have any cash on me for bus fare.
Yay happy me.
It's going to be a long walk back home.
"What's a pretty lady like you doing out here all alone?"
I see a middle aged bald man walking towards me. Or should I say staggering?
I could smell the alcohol coming from him even though he was just a few feet away.
I ignore him and kept on walking.
"I'm talking to you sweetheart." He grabs my arm. "What are you doing out here alone?"
"Leave me alone." I try to free myself but he pulls me and sniffs my hair.
"You smell nice."
"Please." He holds me tighter and the smell of alcohol hits me again and it makes me dizzy.
"Just follow me home and I'll make you feel alright."
"Please." I was too tired to fight but I at least had to try.
Right?
"Hey!" Another male voice interuppts and I see him walking towards us. "She said you should leave her alone!" He punches the drunk man's jaw and he falls down with a thud.
"You fucker! Mind your goddamn business!" He groans.
"Not when shits like you are messing with girls." He kicks the man in the stomach once. "God I hate you guys." He uses his hand to move the hair that was in his face and he turns to me.
"You okay?" He takes a step forward and I take a step back which makes him stop. "I'm not going to hurt you." He takes another step forward and this time I don't move.
I really couldn't see his face.
"You okay?" I nod. "Did he hurt you?" I shake my head.
He takes another step forward..
A wave of dizziness hits me and I felt overwhelmed with tiredness.
"You sure you are okay?"
"I'm fi-" Before I could finish my words, my legs go weak and darkness hits me.
"Hey! HEY!!"
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