章 10: Who am I?.

After an entire day of pacifying the familia which was out for blood, at least Jason's head. Things calmed a little they still had a dragon to hunt down. Alfia had already given her ultimatum of not approving of Jason,

meteria had to act as a mediator and give the prospect of 'anut' alfia and 'grandma' hera to both of them, was when things calmed down. Zeus familia on the other hand was celebrating like no tomorrow with soon to be father Jason, I on the other hand stayed in my tent for the whole debacle.

Next day, early in the morning the adventurers took up arms and left for the valley which the dragon was residing in currently, I on the other hand just lied inside my tent thinking all the stuff I have been doing, and I think one things for sure, I was all over the place, there was no goal, no aim, I just worked according to the quest system gave me, there was no my free will there even if there were no penalties.

Right now, I had one dilemma, weather to save the two great familia or not, there was no quest to save them. now that I think about it, it never gave any quest to save anyone, ever. The people who knew about my abilities were all here, except for the people of the town but they just think I am talented, not the part that it is almost nonsensical amount of talent,

Defeating the black dragon is out of question, I am certain the S class skills can harm him but that's all even they can't one shot it, plus with the requirement all of them has for use I will only be able to use one skill once and then nap time for a few days.

Me being famous isn't what I am worried about, me attracting other gods attention is what I am worried about. My powers comes from the arcanum other gods used on me, but then in the whole show it has been shown multiple times how fickle gods can be. One moment they defend me and other they leave me to fend myself. Not only that if there explanation is correct, my soul doesn't even belong to this world, I am by the very definition of the word, an anomaly. And gods love to play with those. Since there whole motive is relieving there boredom. Plus gods directly using there arcanum to change mortals was prohibited,

Plus they don't like zeus, I get that but there is no other god shown in the series that loves mortals more than zues do maybe hestia, for the rest they were more like toys, or a means to there entertainment, or for satisfying their desires (freya). The whole purpose of having a hero is for humanity of this world to have a pillar, a figure to rally behind, to unite with. And my job here is fuck that up?, I highly doubt that. Even with my meddling, bell will still be born, although his life might be different, zeus pulling strings from the heavens will allow him to become a hero, no matter the condition, even if I am the villain he had to fight against to become one. Then what?, replace him as the main figure, nah. The last thing I want is to stand on a pedestal. Not in this world.

If the two great familias survive, stuff like evilus and enyo will not come out and will stay hidden, ryuu's familia will still be there, loki and freya will not rise to the top, so many changes, that should be more than sufficient to disturb the game that is going on but,

A 6 year old, with only 4 months worth of experience, saved the two great familias from the black dragon, yah there is no way they will just let me be. Then again...

What do I want to do?. What the fuck am I even aiming for?. Strength?. A new life?. Fame?.

Definitely not the last one, I don't like too much attention.... Hold on, haven't I been in the spotlight for the last few weeks, why am I not bothered by it?.

Simple, Children like attention, and I was a child, but also an adult?. No I was a child with the knowledge of a 20 year old from modern world. Woah finally figured that one out.

I just assumed that my and my... Hold on its getting confusing. the soul residing the Lionard form danmachi was the mine from the start, but without its memories hence I grew up twice, had two different childhood, two different parents, two different morales. That's why my thoughts and decisions were all over the place. My knowledge as adult was being cautious while the child wanted to be a hero, to make sure no one else losses there loved ones like he did.

I looked outside the tent, sun was was longer at the horizon but shining ever so brightly in the sky, it was almost noon, the two familias must have already started fighting the dragon. The result must be coming back anytime, as the commotion started increasing, guess they are running on thin line now,

Not my problem....I won't lie, a part of me just want to jump in there to help them but I will hardly make a difference. But then haven't I just been doing everything I decided not to do.

As I sat down on the mattress in the tent, my god shiva came in. And asked

"aren't you going to help them" asked shiva.

"I... I don't know" I said unsure of my own motives. Up until now the only thing I wanted was to increase my strength, but for what?, I know having a badass shadow army is cool but why do I need that, go out of my way to have one?. one reason could be that this world is dangerous, and it fucking is, no shit it's a dog eat dog world, if you aren't strong enough only three things awaits you, one. You become someone else's lunch, two. You become some lunatics toy, three and the best, you get a quick death.

He just nodded, and stood there,

"why me?" I asked suddenly.

"why what?" he asked for more content then that, we are surrounded by adventurer here and you want me to say it out loud. Fine.

"why did you gods chose me to come here" I asked, I hoped I was a little special, but then again they might have some other reason, but I liked to think that I am little special to be the chosen one. But most importantly I didn't want hear there was nothing special about me, nothing.

"I dunno, maybe they used a luck draw or something" ouch that hurts.

Well I have nothing to hide from freya at least. The commotion outside increased, someone might have died, and I am having a existential crisis here, man I need to get my priorities straight.

A looked at lord shiva.

"Lord shiva, who am I?" was I earthling or a resident of gekai, I could possibly use arcanum as well so was I even human, I had already died once, but here I was as a child,

Shiva looked at me and laughed. Oi why the heck are you...

He suddenly flicked my forehead,

"you can be whatever you want to be" he said

Whatever I want to be huh?. Now that I think about it there wasn't one thing fixed about, my looks changed, my habits changed, my values changed, but at the same time they were still there, the only thing I was right now was a mess, a fucking confusing and dangerous mess. So just use that mess to make something beautiful or wicked, anything I want,.... I like the sound of that.

"so what will you do now?" shiva asked with a smirk. Bastard already knows my answer.

"kick a dragon's ass"

.....

The whole place was in a panic, they were retreating, seems like they know they won't survive. Some were crying, some already mourning, but the battle was still ongoing, the voices were clear and the fireworks.

Both me and my god started running there, I was focusing on the shop, I could buy one S class skill that consume less mana and I could buy enough time for them to escape. And I had the perfect skill of that.

"so how will you kick it's ass" shiva asked while running beside me, he was slower than me but I was focused on the screen more, I have to be certain this works on monsters, because I don't think they will let me reincarnate again.

"I won't or rather I can't, not right now, but I do not need to" I replied.

"so how are you suppose to save them?" he asked.

"by letting it kill them" I replied,

"you do know that you are not making any sense right now" he said looking at me weirdly, as I chuckled, as I finished reading the full description of the skill, yah this will work like a charm as I bought my first S rank skill.

"don't worry it will work, go to the group lord shiva and do not let them attack the dragon, the moment I signal, take them and run away, DO NOT ATTACK IT" I said as he nodded and parted ways. He ran towards the valley will I was above,

Suddenly a roar shook the entire land, holy hell that scared the shit out of me. As I arrived near the valley, the dragon was as big as the twilight Manor in orario, smaller than behemoth but still massive and a lot faster, and completely onyx black with a ominous yellow red eye, one of it's eye had a gruesome wound on it, mercenary King's handy work. there were a few dead bodies there, some people already died, the remaining were barely standing, it is only a matter of time before they all die.

Alright, let's get down to business, to win without even fighting, I know a character from naruto that does that like a pro.

Took a long breath, and casted [inferno], draw its attention, let's began, as my pupil in my right eye suddenly become red and black lines started appearing on it...

[Eternal mangekyou sharingan....

The dragon immediately looked me, his single working looking right at my eye. Checkmate.

[... Tsukuyomi]... The dragon froze where it was,

At the same time shiva started shouting "don't attack the dragon" again and again. As thankfully no idiot attacked it, the moment it is shaken it will wake up, as my body lost all it's strength as I planted my face on the ground, ouch that will hurt when I wake up. But I always wanted to do that. My eye was definitely bleeding, as both were tight shut.

Currently it is seeing the illusion that it is killing everyone here, keep its ego up, it will not resist. Because the moment it discover that something is off it will resist the illusion and with the difference in level it can easily break it and then everyone here will be dead meat, actual dead meat.

Suddenly I felt someone pick me up,

"holy shit, what the hell did you do kid" it was shiva, he completed his task quickly, well this means nap time. Adios.