章 42: Chapter 42: Broken Beyond Repair, Part 2

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In the end, he told Nolan that I wanted to break up with him.

Nick.

My friend.

The person in whom I had confided, when I simply wanted advice, told Nolan behind my back that I wanted to break up with him. I suppose it's hypocritical to complain about betrayal, given that I have done so much of it. But it still hurt. Nolan, Nick, and I had signed a lease that went until June, and it was only February. I was going to wait for that long until I broke up with Nolan, seeing Tor the whole time.

In hindsight, being that committed to a double-life scares me. The capacity for deceit in me is terrifying. But in the end, it was like ripping off a band-aid. Nick told Nolan my desire to break up with him, so he did it for me. The next time I came back to the apartment, it was to pack up some things for a little while.

"So where will you be staying?" Nick asked.

"Tauni's. I'll crash on her couch until I find a place to stay."

In reality, I was sleeping with Tor in hotel rooms.