章 40: Chapter 40: Losing Control

"Describe the importance of protection of patron privacy. What are some specific ways you can employ this in the library? Responses must be at least 500 words and you must reply to at least two others."

I stared at the prompt.

I haven't even read the chapters for this week, I thought. I'll do this tomorrow.

Glancing at my class calendar, I noticed the project we had three weeks to complete was due by the end of the week. I hadn't even started.

A vague, fuzzy panic gripped my chest.

No matter what you do, it's not going to be good enough anyway, whispered Anxiety Voice.

After I quit bartending, and returned to stripping, I started to spiral during the winter, twirling around and around Charybdis. I failed both classes I took, mainly because I just didn't do the work or projects. I let deadlines slid by, discussion posts go without responding. Perhaps in an on-the-nose, metaphorical way, one of those classes was "Information Ethics."