章 43: Chapter- 43 Everything Bare

I run away. I see myself slapping him. What was I suppose to feel? Anger? It's not there. It's disgust. Pure dure disgust at myself.

It's like it's not my head any more. So I only do the one thing I feel like I can do. I go to my room and lock myself in. And then I throw up. I continously, shamelessly throw up. All over the floor. I run at the bathroom and throw up again. Until I feel like maybe I will choke on my own breath. I somehow get up from the bathtub after forcing myself to breathe. I feel as if my brain is squeezing up my entire nervous system, beads of sweat falling on my head. I stare at myself in the mirror. And it's like a stranger is staring with red racoon eyes. And weird strands of hair falling in every direction.

The bedroom door shudders with loud incessant banging. I shake myself and cautiously walk out the bathroom.