章 21: I shouldn't have asked
I entered the room and sat on the bed. I looked myself in the mirror.
I've just spoiled their happy moment. What a bitch am I.
I looked myself again at the mirror. But I saw my family standing behind me. My mom, dad and my grandma were standing.
"You guys are..." I said and turned back. I again looked myself at the mirror and there was no one.
I went and stood at the balcony. I tried to forget it by looking at the view.
I saw a family by the garden. They had a son about 6-7 years and a new born child. They were happy. I just smiled at how happy they were.
A tear escaped from my eyes. I couldn't control but ears started flowing gradually. I haven't cried a lot before. But now, everything changed.
The last time I cried was when my dad passed away. After that not really. But now, that's the only thing now.
I missed being with a family. I went back in and sat at the corner of the bed.
I thought how it would be to in a proper family. I didn't have a family photo.
"Wish I'm up there with you." I said and tears rolled down my cheek.
I felt someone's presence next to me. I lifted my head and saw Jimin standing.
"Why do you tell things like this?" He asked as he sat next to me.
I didn't look at him nor reply to him.
He lifted my face and we faced each other. He wiped my tears with his thumb and said,
"We're family. We're there for you." He said.
"It's not about that." I said.
"Then what is it about?" His voice was sweet and light.
"I don't know." I whispered. I really didn't know what happened to me suddenly.
"Maybe you need some energy booster ." He said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
He came with my phone and headphones.
"Let it all out." He said.
What is wrong with me? Why am I like this suddenly?
Maybe he's right. I need some energy dose.
I got up from there and said,"I'll come back in an hour or two." And I left.
The others were confused to see me coming out.
I opened the door and went out. I reached the elevator and waited. But it was slow so I decided to take the steps to the terrace.
I ran faster. I thought it would be a warm up to me.
*after climbing heck a lot of stairs
I reached the terrace finally. The breeze made me ready.
I put on my headphones that I brought while coming out. And I played some music.
I started moving my body to the beat. I let the music control my body. Then I started moving myself with control. Tears started flowing.
The more I danced, the more pain I'm trying to let go, the more tears flow.
I danced till I forget everything that happened till now.
*time skip
It was 8:00 pm. I kinda felt peaceful after taking in all the things.
"I better head down." I said and walked downstairs to the room.
I walked slowly, cause I didn't have anything to do.
*after few minutes
I reached the ground floor. Thank god, I didn't collapse while coming down.
As I came to the room, I saw someone who I didn't want to see at that moment.
"Oh look! It's y/n. No, the one who got suspended for no reason." Hyun-ae said and started laughing.
"You know how much fun was today? It was the best day ever." She said and laughed with her group.
'Y/n, just leave it. She's not worth it. Just calm down.' I kept repeating it to myself.
"We had fun. But what did you do?" One of her side hand asked.
"I'll tell. She would've probably looked at her fathers photo and cried 'Abeoji! Abeoji!' She basically doesn't have a proper family like us. Sad that she doesn't get parent love. And that's the reason for her behaviour. She didn't have parents to tell her things like what to do and what not to. She might have had her father, looks like he didn't teach her anything. That's why she's like this." She said in a teasing way and laughed.
'Just. Let. It. Go. Y/n.' I tried and tried but I couldn't.
I walked forward but was stopped by someone. He suddenly came in front of me and stood.
"Hyun-ae, just leave her alone." It was Jimin.
"Y/n, why do you waste your time with her? Come let's go." He said and grabbed my hand and we walked together.
Thank god he came, or else I would've gotten into trouble again.
*************
Jimin's POV
Personally to me, I felt touched hearing those words from y/n.
"Maybe I shouldn't have asked that question." Jin hyung asked.
"Nothing like that hyung. It was just personal to her." Namjoon hyung said.
She was mood off by it and went to her room.
"I'll go talk to her." I said and got up. I slightly opened the door and saw her seated on the bed corner.
"Wish I'm up there with you." I heard her say.
She misses being with a family.
I walked towards her and said,"why do you tell things like this?"
She looked up and saw me. And again she looked down.
I sat down next to her. I lifted her face so she could see me.
Tears flowed. I wiped them with my thumb and tried to comfort her.
"We're family. We're there for you."
"It's not about that." She said.
What is it? Why is she sad? What can I do to make her feel better?
First of all, why am I really concerned?
Is it because we both have the same problem? She also doesn't have parents. Even I don't have but I have ahjumma.
"Then what is it?" I asked concerned.
"I don't know." She said.
She's really broken inside. She's trying to over come the truth.
"Maybe you need some energy booster." I said and took her phone and her headphones.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
I handed it to her and said,"let it out."
She took it and said,"I'll come back in an hour or two." And left.
After she left, I went out. The others were staring at me for a answer.
"Let her have some lone time. Don't worry, she'll be back." I said.
"Jimin, you've really changed." Yoongi hyung said.
"Yeah. You've changed. And started caring for a girl." Jin hyung said.
"It's not like that. I just gave it a try." I said and went to my room. The others were teasing me.
I went to my room and flopped onto the bed.
I've changed a lot. And the only girl I talk to is y/n. But why? Why do I only talk with her? Why do I want her to be happy?
Thinking about her I fell asleep.
*time skip
I woke up and saw it was 8:00 pm. Did I sleep for that long?
I got up from the bed and washed my face. I went out and saw no one was there.
I sat on the couch and looked around. Jungkook came from out.
"Where you coming from?" I asked.
"Oh hyung, you're awake. I just went for a walk." He said and sat next to me.
"Did Y/n come?" I asked a bit low.
"Ani. She didn't come. By the way..." I stopped him and said,
"See, I know where this is going. And it's not what you think. I just wanted to help her." I said.
"You won't realise it now hyung. There might be a small space for her in your heart. Someday, we'll see you confess her love and it will happen." He said.
"Stop talking rubbish. It's not gonna happen." I said and got up and headed to the door.
"Hyung, where are you going?"
"To find y/n."
"Continue, continue." He said and laughed.
I just came out. Will it be true? Do I have space for her, in my heart, without me knowing? No, no. I don't like her in that way.
As I walked through the corridor, I saw y/n. Then I saw Hyun-ae and her gang hurting her.
Why does she do this? Why does she trouble my friends?
I went in front of y/n and stood.
"Hyun-ae just leave her alone." I said.
"Y/n, why do you waste your time with her? Come let's go." I grabbed her hand and walked her to the room.
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Y/n's POV
We went inside and sat down. I thought for a second, what Jimin said.
His tone was angry and the way he held my hand, he had a tight grip.
Does he have any connection with her? I recalled the events I saw them.
During class, while I kicked her out, I saw him smirk. But I didn't consider it then.
He was walking on the corridor and heading to the room. I ran and pulled him inside the room.
I made him sit on the bed and I walked front and back.
"Y/n what happened? Why did you pull me in?" He asked.
I was thinking about those events. Were they both...?
"Y/n? Y/n?" He called me.
"I want to know a truth." I said and pulled a chair and sat opposite to him.
"What truth?" He asked.
Do I ask him? Will he get hurt? Am I interfering his past?
"Were... were you and... you and Hyun-ae together?" I asked a bit tensed.
His expression changed from a happy face to a stern look. Maybe I shouldn't have asked him?
"Wh-why do you ask suddenly?" He asked in a kinda angry tone.
"I'm just asking." I said in a low voice.
"You don't need to know." His voice grew angry. His eyes were red and glistening.
"Why?" I asked firmly.
"You don't means you don't." His voice raised.
"I'm trying to help you here." I too raised my voice. I want to help him get out of it completely.
"How can you help with it? It's all over. Just freaking leave." He shouted turning back.
"How? You'll see, if you say. How long will you hide yourself? I've opened up myself, but until now, not even one word you've said about you. Is this what you call friendship? How will someone trust you then?" I shouted at him.
"Just don't interfere in my life again. Looks like every girl is the same."
"Think whatever you want. I will interfere. What'll you do?" I shouted. I'm trying to help him but why doesn't he understand.
He turned around in anger and...
*thud
He slapped me. I fell on the table and hurt my arm.
"What is the noise?" Namjoon oppa came in with the others.
"Y/n what happened?" Lisa came to me.
I looked at Jimin. He looked at me and realised what happened.
"I...I..." he left.
"Jungkook, Taehyung." Namjoon oppa said and nodded his head. They both went behind Jimin.
Lisa held me and made me sit on the bed.
"Why were you guys shouting?" She asked.
"Nothing." I said.
"Y/n, you're bleeding. Let me get you some first aid." Jin oppa said and went to get first aid.
He came back soon and applied some medicine on the wound.
"Y/n, get up and turn this side." Lisa said. I did as she said.
"Y/n, why is your cheek red? Did he hit you?" She asked.
"N-no." I said looking down.
"Don't lie to me." She said.
"Yeah." I said coolly like it was a small thing.
"You guys act like married couples. What is the reason for him to slap you?" Yoongi oppa asked as he came forward.
"Just let it go." I said, hiding my pain.
"He slapped you. And you don't ask him anything. Let me go ask him." Jin oppa said and was about to leave but I stopped him.
"Oppa, don't. It's ok. I'm fine. Just leave it. No more of this topic." I said and went out of the room.
"Y/n." Jungkook called me as I went out.
"He told me what happened. I'm sorry for what he did. He shouldn't have done that." He said.
"It's ok. He's my friend and it happens. We'll be fine. Don't worry." I said and went out.
I went out the hotel and sat on a bench.
I shouldn't have asked him. Why did you do this y/n? Everything were in place, now I've spoiled everything.
I knew he would get hurt, but I asked. I asked, but he didn't understand why.
It's all my fault. Ughhhh! I shouldn't have asked. I've caused such a mess. Tears found their way.
A grandma sat next to me. She saw me crying and asked,"child, why are you sad?"
"I got into a fight with my friend." I said but didn't look at her.
"Here. Take this. You're hurt. It'll reduce the pain." She said and gave me something. I ate it.
"See child. Everyone's life has ups and downs. Not everyone has a good life. Talk out the problem with someone or the friend itself and solve it. At this age, friends are the only ones who understand you. Talk it out. It doesn't matter if the fault is yours or your friends. Go out and let it out. Friends are important. Don't ever leave them.
I better take a leave. Think about it." She said and left.
She too had a point. I should talk to Jimin and apologise to him. At least as a third person, I should talk to him. He helped me at problems.
I went back to the room.
"Where's Jimin?" I asked as I came in.
"He said he wanted some alone time and went out for a walk." Jin oppa said.
I quietly went in and to the room. I don't want to disturb him. Let him come home, then I'll talk to him. He probably wouldn't like to see me now.
To be continued...
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