章 19: Bus stop

Honestly, I didn't want him to see what I was reduced to. It wasn't going to be an easy walk either. Naturally I had to bring a duffle bag with me. It wasn't all that heavy because it had mostly extra clothes in it. My textbook for my fire investigator class. Ugh that test is going up soon. I totally forgot about it. I sighed. Stupid Adonis. My toe tapped a small pebble along the sidewalk and I began to kick it. As it rolled ahead of me I thought perhaps it was a piece of stray concrete. The sidewalks on this street were in dire need to be redone. Most of them were gravely and broken up as if someone had taken a jackhammer to it. Most houses were similar if not the same variation as mine. The only real difference was that everyone kept their yards pristine. I hated doing my lawn. It was always full of dead grass and weeds. On occasion the grass would get too long and a neighbors boy, Matt, two houses over would mow it for me. I always try to thank him but he insists it's not him doing it. I always see my grass is mowed after seeing Matt mow at his house. Now I've never been able to catch the kid but I still make sure to slip him some extra money when he does. At first he wouldn't take it and I'd find the money in envelopes in my mailbox with notes from him. We played that game for a while but he got tired of it. As I walked slowed down by the weight of the bag I listened for car passing and I reflected on the kindness of those around me. Finally I reached the bus stop. There were four others waiting including a woman with a young child. She appeared extremely pregnant. The child was whining softly wanting to be help. He had to be about two or three. The poor mother looked so rattled and clearly unable to hold the child as he probably weighed too much. Quietly I watched as others waiting became more and more irritated with the child's cries. I made eye contact with the mother. Her eyes looked pleading, as if to say, please don't judge me as a bad mother. My hear felt for her.