Trudging in between shadows and dreams
You try to seek what remains of your innocence
You yearn to find even only remnants of your sinless self
Though nothing else was there but darkness…
Closing your eyes you desperately try to grasp
the memories long hidden deep within
Why only now when you've felt life's about to last
you found the courage to face what you vowed to have forgotten?
Shedding your thorns as your life fades away
Isn't this an irony of the path that you've chosen?
In all seasons you had tried to be strong
Why in the end you succumbed to the feelings you've forsaken?
Singing out loud of your bitter fate
Crying your anguish in silence
As you let your petals fall on the very ground you hate
How much more pitiful can you get?
Restless, sleepless
The emptiness is tearing you apart
Loveless, hopeless
If you'd wither away then why didn't you just wither right from the start?
Whose fault it is that you're weeping?
Who is to blame that you're breaking?
Shattering in each step that you take
All because of the choices you have made…
Time can never erase all the pain
You might be gone soon yet the scars from your thorns shall remain
And this requiem for that sorrowful rose will be forgotten never
Your bitter-sweet existence will reside in my heart forever…
written for Julian of my story
Le Desespoir