章 71: Flashbacks (Part 7)

Being the NZ Embassy's Female Administrator, she worked hard and not one paperworks for visa have arrived in her table without her keen scrutinizing eyes, for either she decides to approve it or deny it, or require more papers and so. She's that very careful and doing her job well as an administrator.

And so one morning when she scanned some of the papers for Visa applications that required her approval, she glanced at one paper that has a picture of a very familiar face. She looked closely again on it, this time, she glared closely to scrutinize it and all. She couldn't be mistaken! She checked again on the specific details on it, and she's right, it was her one and only Karl.

"So, Karl is now a famous rock star, huh?" she thought to herself.

How come she didn't even know about it? Maybe she's too busy of recovering herself and of her work that she didn't even know what's going on globally. Or worst, she didn't even care of what's happening out there away from her comfort zone. She realized that it has been 2 years that her and Karl have not seen each other.

"I wonder if he has a girlfriend now, or girlfriends?"

At the thought of it, a sudden pain in her heart crept in. A mixed emotions of regrets, and at the same time of curiousity of what could have happened, if she did not sacrificed herself, if she was not that seemingly immature and impulsive on her decisions years back? Would she and Karl would've ended up together then, or not? Probably not still. Coz if she didn't sacrifice, Karl wouldn't be able to survive and live from his state of coma for a year. At least she was able to save him and he awakened finally.

Only then she realized that her 'sacrifice' have served it's purpose even if they didn't end up together. For Karl was awakened, and was able to live his life to the fullest. He got his dreams come true being a famous rockstar, only without her.

Little did she know that they will really be with each other sooner than she thought.....

Suddenly, an idea started to come up on her mind. An idea that she knows, only her, can actually do it. With her position right now, it's a win-win situation.

For the last time, she will try to do things for Karl and for herself too. She promised herself. This time and this one would be the last. If Karl would not pursue her this time even after her 'idea' will be done, then she will have no more regrets! At least she did it her way.

At that instance, she couldn't help but sing in a soft voice the song "My Way"...

"And now, the end is near

And so I face the final curtain

My friend, I'll say it clear

I'll state my case, of which I'm certain

I've lived a life that's full

I've traveled each and every highway

But more, much more than this

I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few

But then again, too few to mention

I did what I had to do

And saw it through without exemption

I planned each charted course

Each careful step along the byway

And more, much more than this

I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew

When I bit off more than I could chew

But through it all, when there was doubt

I ate it up and spit it out

I faced it all and I stood tall

And did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried

I've had my fill my share of losing

And now, as tears subside

I find it all so amusing

To think I did all that

And may I say - not in a shy way

Oh no, oh no, not me

I did it my way

For what is a man(woman), what has he got

If not himself, then he has naught

To say the things he truly feels

And not the words of one who kneels

The record shows I took the blows

And did it my way

Yes, it was my way."

She was teary-eyed singing the song, for it felt like it's lyrics fits her. So now, she developed in her heart a slight glimpse of hope, but not expecting much positive results afterwards. Whether she would succeed or not on her 'idea', what's important was she have tried and did it her way then.

Good thing no one is in her office now. Otherwise, anyone that would've seen her having a deep serious thought at first, followed by singing and teary eyed and smiled afterwards, would think that she's gone crazy.

This office of her served it's purpose in the sense of her privacy. No one is allowed to enter her office unless she would request her secretary Dianne to do so, or unless there's an appointment she would have to attend to.

As part of her 'idea', she then did marked 'disapproved' on Karl's papers.

Needless to say, that was the start of Karl's 'pursuing her', after doing the 'deed' of their 'Deal Night'...