章 4: Sleepless nights..

After coming home I avoided mom. All I did was to stay at home lock myself in my room and cry for countless hours. I am soo depressed that I couldn't even think of any other things than the day I saw Haize with other girl. I spent several nights crying and cursing what I have done to deserve this. On sitting near the window looking at the starry nights I was thinking of you. The nights became longer and i became lonelier without you. Sometimes it didn't surprise me when I cover my head with pillow crying while remembering the time I spent with you and when i take out the pillow there will be morning sunshine kissing my puffed eyes . I became used to this routine. There will be times when I am tired of crying and cursing the God for putting me in this situation. I wished several times that it would be a lot easier and my life would be a lot happier if I had never met you. Your absence broke my heart into pieces RIP my soul. I wished I would be happy if I am better dead than going through this horrible life. You left me without saying a word. I asked myself what did I do to make you leave me. We were happy when we are together. Your love is all I needed. But why do you hate me so much that you left me...