章 24: I'm Not Broken So I Can't be Fixed

After what Linri said Jaime became even more confused and started to get angry at him at the same time. She was thinking that Linri was playing a big cruel joke to him because of what happened.

"What are you trying to get at? I was wrong I already admitted it but you can't play me like this!" said Jaime furiously.

"You wanted to talk and we are talking right? If you do not want to you can always always leave."

He looked towards Jaime and didn't see her leaving so he continued.

"Now If I were to tell you that the reason I am like this is because of something simple would you believe me?"

"No." said Jaime. She was getting angry every second now.

"And why is that?"

"Because you just lied to me"

"Did I though?" said Linri and Jaime got even more confused.

"But you just said you lied to me."

"If I was a liar why would you believe anything I said?" asked Linri again.

This time Jaime could not answer. This whole talk was confusing to her and she did not know what was right and what was wrong. She couldn't wrap her around it and started to question her judgement.

"Let me tell you why, it's because it is more convenient for you that way."

"Convenient?"

"Yes convenient. You just want to believe what you want to believe. Everything that's different from what you believe is a lie. Because that's convenient for us. Every human is like that including me."

Jaime started to think about what Linri said. Seeing her silence Linri continued to talk.

"As I said before the reason I am like this is something very simple, very ordinary, maybe something that's happening right now in another place in this world. Though I don't know if you would believe me now." said Linri and gave Jaime a smirk. Linri seemed to be enjoying this talk but that made Jaime furious again. She could barely understand what he was saying but he was already making fun of her.

"You see when I was 6 in this park something happened. At the time there was a Digimon fever in our neighbourhood. They had released this shiny collectable cards which you could get by purchasing potato chips but I was not very into that stuff. I just collected for the sake of collecting them. So that I wouldn't be left out by my friends. One day I got the number 32. It was incredibly rare in our neighbourhood as I was the first one to get it. At the time my friend Henry was next to me when I opened the pack. He was one of the cool kids you know. He would always come up with some new games and all the kids would follow his lead.

The moment he saw the card he took it from me. He said how I was lucky and stuff. He wanted to show the card to other kids and I agreed. I didn't really cared about the card anyway. So he did just that. He showed the card to other kids and everyone was praising for his luck. But it was my card why did they praise him. I wanted to be praised too. I wanted to be the one in the middle showing others my card. So I said it was my card but Henry called me a liar. Told everyone that I was jealous of his new shiny card and wanted to take it. Everyone believed him. Why would he lie right? Kids are simple so most of the time they don't question what they did. They just do and that's the end of it. Normally how this supposed to play out was I should go home, cry to my mother and forget about it in a week or two. And I just did that. Aside from one thing. I did not forget.

I remember being disgusted with Henry and all the other kids. I was not lying so why was I called a liar? Why did no one believe me but him? These were all the things I could think about. After some time I started elementary school and gained new friends. Every thing was okay for some time. Then I saw something similar happening to another kid but I am no hero so I did not step for him and even called him a liar just like others did to me. Still I was disgusted by myself. Eventually I stopped talking with the other kids and this lead to bullying. It did not stop till the middle school where I transferred to another school. This time having experienced what happened I kept some friends. Hmm, that doesn't sound right. Maybe it's more appropriate to call them shields? Yeah shields sound about right. So my life continued to go on like that till now. I do not know when but somewhere along the line I started to get into books still this is not important.

Anyway you see, this is why I am like this. It's not something tragic something that might be happening even right now." after finishing his monologue Linri was looked at Jaime. She had an astonished face.

"Seems like I babbled too much. Anyway that was not important. Let's return to main topic. You believed me the first time and do you really now why? Maybe because if I was telling the truth I would be the tragic guy with the troubled past and you would be the girl who can fix me. Even though that story was a lie you wanted to believe it but If I were to tell the real story from the start you would not believe me because it was not convenient for you." Linri stopped and looked towards Jaime before continuing.

"It is not convenient for you because in the real story I am not broken so I can not be fixed. Now do you understand?"

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