章 23: day 1 of Trip (never felt pain. )

KAKERU says in surprise """Don't tell me that ,your Moon was having physical relations with a girl. .....

JIHARA replied with sad face """"Yes, he was having sex.You are right he was having sex with girl At that time I could not believe my ears. , I could hear the moon's heavy breathing but still I could not believe it Or I don't want to believe , I couldn't stop myself My steps are moving forward on their own As I was moving forward, their breathing became louder and louder. The louder his voice became, the more I was breaking down from within. Both of them were engrossed in themselves, but in a moment my world had become sad. At that time I felt as if the ground would burst and I would disappear under the ground. I wanted my heart to stop beating.To be honest, I can't see the moon with anyone else. , I was not conscious of anything at that time and I was slowly moving towards Moon's changing room. But as I approached the room, I heard the girl's mad scream. My steps faltered and I took four steps back when my foot hit a water bottle. , and then I heard the voice of the moon "Whoever it is, get out of here right now," he said angrily....

I turned quickly and started going back when I heard the voice of the moon again. """wait ... He said from inside the changing room, whoever you are, now that you have come here, do one thing for me. Because I can't go out naked ,

KAKERU interrupts and asks """"what he said next .....

JIHARA says with sad face """he said wait ....So I stopped , then further he said """""I have sex protection in my dress locker, bring it to me, I forgot to bring it in a hurry."

KAKERU said in angry voice """""""What the fuck,,,,what a crazy boy ,,,,, ohh,,, I hate him so much...how can you fall in Love with him...How can someone be so stupid?,... Further KAKERU says laughingly,,, Well, I too was a similar kind of boy.I don't even remember how many girls I have had sex with, both in school and college. ,

JIHARA looks up and looks at KAKERU his eyes are still heavy Looks like these heavy eyes are about to rain ,,,jihara could barely speak """"Yes I know

KAKERU replies """Yes you and I were in the same college so you must know me I was quite popular ,...and then KAKERU saw JIHARA face ,,,he was shocked, and said,,,hey... little bird are you crying?....Kakeru was shocked Because JIHARA was crying, KAKERU says in surprise "But why are you crying again?"

He replied """I am not crying ... don't worry..

Kakeru says angrily "little bird, if you are not crying then why are your eyes wet?" Are you crying because I called your moon stupid and crazy?

He replied """Yes, don't say anything to Moon, I don't like it but that's not why I'm crying..... And I'm not crying i just feel pain

Pain.....? What kind of pain,,,,,? Are you ok? Are you sick?KAKERU places his hand on JIHARA's forehead and says ....tell me are you sick?

JIHARA holds KAKERU's hand and says """I don't feel pain in my body" , I feel pain in my heart ,Till date I have not been able to get over the pain of what I saw that day. ,

KAKERU laughs and says, "Oh, you are talking about love pain." , this is nonsense I have never felt any pain till date. , I have also been in many relationships But I don't know why I never felt pain.

there will be pain Yes, you will absolutely feel pain. , but, when , when you have true love , and to find that true love you will yearn for, you will feel pain then You would like that person to be yours but your wish remains unfulfilled. , you will feel pain ,,,then When you yearn for that one person, you will feel pain. ,JIHARA cried loudly while saying this ,,,,, Tears flowed out of his eyes with sadness like dew. ,.. JIHARA cried bitterly. JIHARA's voice became so loud while crying that nearby students started looking at JIHARA with surprise. , KAKERU who was still looking at JIHARA in surprise , he could not understand what he should say to JIHARA so that he would stop crying.It may be normal for a boy to cry in a closed room. But among so many people, a boy cries only when he is in a lot of pain.

A student shouted loudly """ suya SIR,,, Jihara was crying very loudly. maybe KAKERU hit him

Some other girls spoke on Kakeru's behalf, "Why would Kakeru kill him?"Have you seen JIHARA how strange he looks? ,

KAKERU who still couldn't figure out what to say He was just thinking about how he should make JIHARA feel comfortable. And for the first time KAKERU had said to someone so lovingly """little bird, please don't cry" ,,, I don't why but I don't like your tears please don't cry

JIHARA had looked towards KAKERU with filled eyes when he heard a voice. what is happening here .????....Teacher Suya is coming towards KAKERU angrily. ,

but then suddenly the bus stopped and the trip guide told that the bus had reached the place where the students would have to stay overnight.It was already 1 o'clock in the night, so as soon as the bus stopped, all the students started getting down. Teacher Suya also had to come down to see the management Because all the students had to set up camp first and then sleep. JIHARA had cleaned his tears but KAKERU was still looking at JIHARA with surprise. KAKERU has nothing to say He was just looking at JIHARA's innocent face.

JIHARA says with a fake smile """I am sorry" I may have made you feel awkward with my tears ,I cry very easily ,That time was a very painful moment for me.

Today when I went back to that moment ten years ago, I felt the same pain even today. Well I hope you sleep well in your camp You are looking very tired so you should also go to your camp and sleep. ,

JIHARA was just speaking alone, KAKERU was just looking at JIHARA.

""" What happened? why are you staring at me??

But KAKERU doesn't say anything And then KAKERU places one of his hands on JIHARA's cheek which is still wet with tears. ..... looking at KAKERU at JIHARA surprised But then the voice of CHISHIYA is heard .....hey KAKERU where are you? Come out, I am waiting for you...

.And hearing CHISHIYA's voice, KAKERU retracts his hand and gets up from the seat and says""I don't think I can share the seat with you." But I would definitely like to know further whether you actually gave sex protection to Moon so that he could use it with another girl??