Bab 21: confused? I don't care

"What's a mate? What's a Luna? Also, you can't own me. I'm not property, I only belong to myself" I ask everything I want to ask and explain my standing in all he said. I really want to know what I asked. I wasn't lying when I said my curiosity is worse than my meddling.

"Is she… bad in the head? Retarted?" one of the guys in the back seats asks cautiously but immediately shuts up when nick growls at him.

"Don't disrespect her!" Nick shouts angrily and I think his eyes shone for just a second.

I look at the back seats "why do you think I am retarted?" I ask curiously. I've been called many things but it's the first time I'm called retarted. I really want to know his reasoning; it sounds like fun.

"You… how are you so calm? Every human mate we brought like this is always trashing and shouting!" he says desperately and for the first time I look behind him. The ghost of a male is behind him looking sadly at him.

"Why are you so calm!? When my mate…. When he…" he stopped talking and looked away while biting his trembling lips.

I look at Nick for context. I still don't know what this whole mate ordeal is about but I think I'm starting to get the whole picture. Mates… they're wolves, so mates are their… lovers? But judging by the guy's reaction, it seems they can't choose their mates. So how do they know?

I need more information, too many loose pieces. "Mates are like lovers?" I ask Dylan that seems to be the calmest one.

He looks at me surprised but immediately returns his gaze to the road. "Well… mates are like soulmates. We have a goddess; the moon goddess and she bestows a mate to each of our kind. We can find our mate by scent once we turn 18. Some find them immediately, but others take more time" he explains, and I nod.

"You can't decide who your mate is going to be?" I ask and he nods. I look back again and the ghost starts to talk once he realizes I'm making eye contact with him.

"I… can you tell him I love him? That I took a rash decision? It wasn't his fault, I was just afraid of the changes around me" the ghost tells me and I tilt my head in confusion.

"I'm going to need more context than just that" I explain to the ghost. I'm being kidnapped by non-humans, I don't think they will care I talk alone. They can take it as me having a mental breakdown.

"oh… I dated him for around 3 years, after all those years he showed me what he was and I… I panicked. He kidnapped me since I was his mate… I ran away and rogues killed me" he says with a regretful gaze. He seems to be in peace with what happened to him since his appearance doesn't change after he tells me. It seems his only concern now is this guy.

"Can you tell Richard I love him? Tell him I don't regret the years we dated and that I only wished he told me sooner, I wish I took different decisions back then… tell him to give it another chance. To give a chance to his second chance mate, to love again, his new mate is awesome!" the ghost continues.

"Name?" I ask the ghost and he replies while smiling "Leo" I nod and look at this Richard dude. I'm not sugarcoating this, I'm tired and literally being kidnapped. They can get confused for all I care.

"Richard" I start talking and he flinches.

"H-how did you…?" he starts talking but I cut him off.

"Leo doesn't blame you, he never did. He was just afraid of the changes. He loves you and he never regretted the years he dated you" I start. Before I can continue the car stops, the breaks squeaking at the sudden change of speed.

"Dylan what the fuck!?" Nick shouts.

"How do you expect me to stay calm after what she said!?" Dylan says while freaking out. I put a finger in my mouth and then put it in front of my eyes. Red is staining my fingertips; I think I bit my tongue.

Nick grabs my hand and looks worried. "Are you alright!? Dylan, you're an idiot! She got hurt!".

I pinch his nose; he speaks way too loud for my liking "shut up. I'm tired and sleepy, I don't want to deal with your loudness" I explain with a straight face.

They all shut up and I sigh, this is getting annoying, really annoying. Richard gets closer to my face and looks at me with hoping eyes "H-how?" he starts tearing up.

"What do you mean?" I say casually, as always, playing the fool card is the best way to get out of these situations.

He shuts up and I take that as my cue to keep talking "He only wishes you told him about you sooner and he regrets the decision he made. He also wants you to give it a go, give an opportunity to your second chance mate" I end saying.

"Thank you" I hear Leo say and he fades away, he's gone. I nod and lean on Nick's chest again. Time to sleep, I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. I close my eyes and succumb to a peaceful dreamless sleep.

I feel the light touching my eyes and I groan. I try to cover my face with my hands but I have a warm tree trunk on top of my belly, keeping my arms in place. Wait, tree trunk? I lazily open my eyes and look down, the trunk is an arm, a huge muscular arm. I look next to me and a shirtless Nick is there. I move my arms from below his huge arm and slowly raise the blanket, sitting in the process.

All good, no blood and I'm still wearing my onesie. It seems I was not tortured or raped. I inspect the room and it's just a normal room, no torture devices, animal skins, or weird potions around… well, saying normal feels wrong. It's a fancy huge room with tall walls, I don't even think I can touch the ceiling by jumping.

I lay back in bed in fetal position, I get easily cold but Nick is like a warm water bag. It's comfy and I'm sleepy. I nudge my face in his side and I feel him hugging me. Warm and cozy. I like it.

I'm about to fall asleep when I hear him talking "see? I knew you like me" I look up with my dead fish stare. Can this guy shut up for once?

"If I say I do, will you shut up?" I ask hopefully. I'm not entering an argument with a childish selfish guy. He can keep his delusions all he wants.

He looks at me wide eyed and I hold his stare. He doesn't answer so I just close my eyes again ready to sleep. "Don't go back to sleep" he says in what I guess can be categorized as a loving voice.

I already have enough with Blacky, I don't need another person telling me when to wake up. "Get up Alice, If you don't want to get up I can think of many fun things we can do in bed" Nick says threateningly while smirking.

I sigh. I slowly lazily get out of bed and stand up. Looking at him once I'm on my own two feet waiting for the instructions of my kidnapper.

"The bathroom is in that door" he points behind me "I got some of my clothes ready for you, you have 10 minutes" Nick instructs. He's annoying but I decide to play nice for the moment, I hope he doesn't abuse my goodwill.

I get out of the bathroom once I'm done, I'm using a huge white shirt, I guess is one of Nick's shirts because it's so big it covers all the way below my knees, it also slides from my neck leaving one shoulder exposed, I don't mind though. I have a tank top and black leggings below the shirt, the clothes I wear below my onesie.

I have my folded dinosaur onesie in my hands and I carefully place it on the side table next to the bed. I finally look at Nick and his eyes are black, completely covering the white in his eyes.

He walks towards me and pushes me to bed, my back hits it. "Nick?" I ask confused. Was he waiting until I took a shower? Is this why he kidnapped me? Ummmm… well, I don't want to be touched by him, even the kiss was disgusting, doing more will be horrible.

He starts kissing my neck and I shiver; this is giving me goosebumps. His tongue feels sticky and gross. He raises his head and looks at me while smirking. I think he misinterpreted my shivers. He's a helpless idiot.

"You like that, don't you? Stay still… it will hurt for only a moment" he says and I'm confused. Is he going to do that here? right now? Weird decision.

"I don't want to have sex" I inform him and he smiles.

"I'm not talking about that" he says cockily "Stay still so I can mark you".