Bab 156: yearning!

She smiled at the bird and continued talking to it saying:

"But you know, there is this pain I keep feeling, it's deep underneath my ribcage. No matter the melody I listen to, no matter the elixir I take, there is just no remedy for this pain I tell you. It's not a pain caused by anger, pride, envy, jealousy, or lust. It's one that is caused by love… I want to forget it all but I can't, because memories come knocking at the door of my thoughts every day. It's funny to think that I have always been known historically as the great mighty warrior and goddess of the moon. I won many battles as a goddess and warrior. I did so many incredible things that the world will remember me for but when it all came down to love, you see birdy I lost in love miserably. I wish! Oh I wish I never cursed him in the first place. I wish I had let him go… even if I was pained terribly."