Bab 5: December
Tomorrows school 6 weeks
Mr. Lee is almost done with the upstairs a couple more days my mom said but then I have to fix all of the furniture not fun
Omg Elijah is so cute I seen him today and gave him two hugs he was crying so I had to make him feel better he rode his bike to the school I miss him already
Still working on the puzzle
I miss Nathan
Nathan has his 1st game on Tuesday but that's the day of my Christmas concert so I'm sad
Concert today
Christian still has a crush on me
Jason has a crush on me
But Nathan wow I don't even know if he likes me anymore
Christian cares about me more than Nathan
Christian also called me beautiful today which made me happy
How come Nathan doesn't call me beautiful that shows how much he cares and loves me Thanks Nathan
I'll stay with Nathan for another week then I'll dump his freshman ass
I think Nathan's lying about that gift I think he's just saying that to make Sierra shutup
No one really likes me or loves me
Mom's right I don't know what love is what's the point of having a boyfriend
Nathan got in trouble I'll be getting bugged about it tomorrow wish me luck
Nathan looked cute today and he might not get anything for Christmas I hope he doesn't
I wrote Nathan a letter I'm scared just to give it to him tomorrow wish me luck
jonathan gave me good advice yesterday about dating but I still don't know what to do
Brooke & Madi want me to break up with Nathan & Kylie doesn't I mostly agree with kylie Nathan does care about me but he doesn't know how to start a conversation Neither do I J-Bill (Jonanthan) said that everytime when I go by them Nathan's happy but it doesn't look like it at all I have never even seen Nathan smile at all maybe a grin but not a smile I better see Nathan smile next week before break and I don't know how to make him smile
I might try out for softball
I might audition for LCIdol
I've always wanted to try out for softball I was supposed to last year but conflicts happened and now I might have a chance at it next year hopefully my number would either be 3 because of my brother Chris or 14 becuase that's my mom's favorite number
Oh that letter that I wrote him I ripped it up and never gave it to him
I still have Nathan's number but I can't remember it and I never call him
He probably wouldn't answer me anyways who would I'm just a stupid Senior who doesn't know what love is I look at the couples at school and I think to myself that I need that but I don't need a man at all I have myself and my friends(kylie, gabby, amanda, & kayla) that's all I need in my life right now but I still have a boyfriend right and I'm only saying all of this just to make me feel better right Why am I even friends with Madi she just wants attention and Brooke I don't know I hate her she hates me anyways kylie's a true friend to me starting Monday I'm not going to talk to Brooke or Madi at all only kylie I just remembered I'm stuck with those two in two of my hours madi I have herin my pankow class ugh
Madi is an attention whore i don't need that in my life at all goodbye madi and brooke I don't need you two in my life anymore
I'm going to work on my puzzle until my sister and her girlfriend both wake up
see ya
so bored
i'm on Christmas break woo already doing government
2 months
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACY
"treat me like a queen, I'll treat you like a king, treat me like a game, i'll show you how its played."
All my boyfriend cares about is his phone he doesn't even pay attention to me at all time to ignore him and dump his ass
I'm writing my story oh I made a sock snowman her name is sparkles she's so adorableI feel like I'm crazy everyday 4 days till Christmas 5 days till Dom's birthday 7 days till school and I get my braces off woo-hoo bitch
28 days till HSM concert 72 days till my birthday
gotta write bye
13 times I wrote Nathan's name in my story wow
I wrote Will's name 31 times
56 times I wrote Nathan's name in here wow
Well I have to write about him because he's my boyfriend
I think I wrote a song about how Nathan doesn't love me I helped my mom and grandma with the food for tomorrow
I wrote another song but the songs that I write they don't sound good IDK maybe if I had music in the background oh I painted my nails red but I only did it for tomorrow then I'm taking it off my mom asked about Nathan coming through with that gift he obviously didn't get me anything I knew it I think he forgot because he was playing on his phone I swear if I get something from him when I go back to school idk what i'll say i'm just hoping that he won't be on his phone next year who knows I barely talk to him what am I supposed to talk to him about anyways theres nothing to talk to him about nothing good happens I tell all of my friends everything because nathan doesn't want to hear my family especially Sierra he cant even calm me down when she gets me riled up I dont think anyone can calm me down when it comes to sierra especially if i have to help her get ready for exams which are in 4 weeks then i'll be done with my exams yay I already got my gov review and finished it now i need english, choir, math, and I think horticulture I still have to check my gov grade that last test I know I passed it it was so easy I gotta pass government
merry christmas!
my big brother got me a laptop thanks nick i got other stuff too but a laptop wow
happy birthday dominic!
i've been typing my story on my laptop hopefully I can finish typing what I've written before I go back to school i made it to chapter 2 i' almost on chapter 3 i've written only 5 chapters i'm sure i'll get done typing it up
we put all of the christmas stuff away and we organized the storage room looks much nicer now
we didn't get snow this year but I still had a good christmas I miss Nathan I wish I had the guts to ask my mom if I could call him but I don't
writing descriptions of characters for my story
1 week till school it feels like i don't even have a boyfriend will Nathan still love me is Nathan mad that I didn't call him probably hopefully he pays attention to me instead of his phone
happy new year
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