Bab 59: Chapter 59. -Decision to leave or stay...

Sakashi looked at the window for about an hour before she looked back at Azusa. He was completely asleep on his side peacefully, she sighed. Closing her eyes for a few seconds she stood up and slid off the bed. Sakashi then walked out the room and saw Luke still on the couch. However he was passed out cold from a heap amount of hard liquor in his system. Sakashi walked towards the door to leave but stopped. She turned around and walked to the supply drawer and opened the drawer. She then grabbed a pen and piece of paper. Closing the drawer She turned around and walked to the kitchen then sat at the table and started writing. Once Sakashi finished she stood up and folded the paper. Turning around she jumped and got nervous. "Well well, What are you in here doing at this time of night? It's 4 o'clock in the morning." Wesley asked as he was leaning against the fridge watching her. "I was writing a letter." Sakashi replied. "Oh? For who?." Sakashi sighed. "Myself. It's private but It's a letter to my future self." She told him. Wesley stood up straight and walked over to her. "Oh? Can I read it?." He asked as he approached her. "NO! I just said it's private. You know? Like My personal diary." she told him firmly. Wesley smirked and snatched it from her hand and began unfolding it. Sakashi became nervous and angry before she suddenly kicked him directly between his legs and reclaimed her letter. Wesley hunched down and grunted. "I told you it's private, it's just a letter telling myself I want the life I have now with you guys." She told him firmly before running to the room and closed the door before locking it. Her heart thumped hard as she almost put herself in a tough situation. She could hear Wesley cursing in frustration but thankfully left her alone. Once she calmed down she stepped away from the door and placed the letter underneath Azusa's pillow. She kissed his forehead before she walked to the window and lifted the window shield. She felt the cool breeze and closed her eyes taking in the fresh air. When she opened her eyes she looked back at Azusa and saw how peacefully asleep he was. She smiled softly before turning her head and began pushing herself up to jump out the window. "Sakashi, I need you, I can't live without you... you are the only one who's given me hope and love I longed for." Azusa said as he was still asleep. Sakashi heard and froze, staying crouched on the window. She looked at the ground and kept blinking as tears fell from her eyes. She knew he was sleep talking but his words had her feeling guilty. She wanted to leave. Yet she also wanted to stay. Her heart began thumping hard as her body trembled to continue moving forward. She closed her eyes and slowly began stepping back into the room. Once she stood back in the room she turned and faced Azusa and blinked. Her heart wouldn't let her leave. She hated how she felt. 'Why can't I just leave? He hurts me, I'm miserable! So why do I stay?' She began asking herself. She pulled the window shield down and shut the window before locking it. She turned and walked to the door and cracked it open and peaked out. Wesley had gone back to bed, she walked back out and walked to the small room that young Ayato was asleep in and looked at him as he slept. She smiled softly before leaning down and kissed his forehead. He was now about 3 years old. Sakashi realized she has a family with Azusa and doesn't want to cause heartache by making Ayato choose which parent he wants to take him. She doesn't want Ayato to have divided parents. She knelt down to Ayato and lifted him up into her arms and walked over to the chair that can bend back into a small bed. She sat down and pushed the chair back till it went flat and snuggled into Ayato and began to slowly fall asleep.