Bab 37: Chapter 37: John's viewpoint (2)
I felt my heart shatter and I couldn't stop the pain that was now flowing through my body. Was that what he thought about me? That I was a whore and a liar? I walked back to my room with a calm that I defiantly didn't feel.
I had gotten up to go to the drink machine to get a coke. I was craving a coffee and coke drink but nobody was in my room. I took the initiative to go get it myself as I had been feeling much better.
It sounded like he hated me! And what was he talking about proof? What proof and proof of what? I felt the tears start to fall on my face and I couldn't stop them. It opened up a flood gate, tears racked my body.
I sobbed for what seemed like forever, but in reality, was most likely only an hour tops. I loved John and hearing him say that hurt. I had always been afraid that he would think I was a slut or that he wouldn't want to be with me, and now that fear has become true. I didn't know what to do.
The rest of my day went normally, meaning that my mom came in to visit and acted as nothing happened, Jett came to visit and acted as nothing happened and I sat there pretending that my heart wasn't in a million pieces and acted as nothing happened. I was released from the hospital one month later, healthier than I had ever been in my entire life.
I had not heard from John and I realized that I wasn't likely to again but I still hoped. My mom knew realized that I seemed to understand but we didn't talk about it. She bought it up once; it ended in tears and me not wanting to talk about it, so we didn't.
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"Amelia?" my mom called. I put Ava back on the ground and walked into the kitchen to see what mom want, but to my surprise, she has a letter in her hand and an anxious look on her face. "What is it, mom?" I asked her worriedly.
"A letter from John," she said quietly so that the triplet‟s couldn't hear. I stared at the harmless envelop for a full minute before I held out my shaking hand to reach for it.
To Dearest Amelia, I am so sorry. I knew that you wanted us to be a happy family and I decided that I cannot do it. I have left to go back to college, where I should be. I should never have come back, no matter the reason. I will help you support Ava, Mae, and Adam but I will not be with you at all.
I thought that if we both tried then things might have worked, but I came to my senses before we both made any stupid choices or made the wrong decisions. Can you believe that I was planning to marry you? I had a ring and everything.
It had a white diamond in the middle and blue sapphires surrounding it. I had a huge romantic plan and everything; the perfect proposal. It would have been a huge mistake to go through with it though. It has become very clear that anything between us would never work. We are too different.
I was beginning to fall in love with you. I know that I had said those three words before, I realized that what I was feeling wasn't love. I cared for you very much, but I realize now that it was never loving. I could never love you. You are a teenage mom that has no idea where your life is heading and I have plans. I want to explore the world
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