Bab 121: 121. Messages and Calls (Jude's POV)

Was it or was it not? Was this lust or infatuation? If I had sex with her, would I lose my interest, like I did with all my other flings?

'Wrong.' I corrected myself. I have never been interested in these girls in the first place.

Likewise, I had reacted to Lesly since seeing her in the cellar, since seeing the scene I would never forget in my lifetime. But it was also the moment I was back into my body, for real, for hours, and meanwhile for over a day.

The veil lifted, the distance overcome, the binoculars thrown away for their uselessness—maybe I was just an especially horny person when I could feel everything around me properly, my senses working properly.

Or perhaps… I had already fallen the moment I first laid my eyes on her.