"I am slowing down," I said as I looked at myself.
I don't want to slow down, but the pressure is high enough, that I am slowing down.
It had been five hours and eight minutes, and I was tired. So, much, I wanted to give up.
I immediately crushed those thoughts away and pushed my leg forward while circulating the method, which had also become a struggle.
The energy is so dense and powerful, that even circulating is difficult.
I am circulating slower than I do when I practice while studying in the core.
It's not like, I am not trying. I am, the faster I circulate, the easier it would be for me to bear this pressure, not to mention the energy is helping me dissolve the changes in me.
It's just that, I couldn't despite my trying.
Though, it didn't stop me from trying. I kept taking step after step, not how difficult it was and how much I wanted to give up.
I am on a mission, and I have to succeed in it.
Sorry for not updating yesterday. I went to the hospital for check-up and it took longer than I had expected.
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