Bab 40: This is not me

 As they go deeper into the forest, Lyla can't stop thinking of the unfortunate moment they had sometime ago.

 He... He asked for it, yet he didn't react to it. It makes her super mad at him! 

He asked for something and I gave it to him, now, he's either angry or that expressionless expression is taking a toll on him again!

Or he just don't want to relate with her for some reason, even if they are married.

 The cooing of owls make my brain to stop functioning for a little while before Magnus pulls the ropes and the horse stops running and pulled up like my carriage back at Barune.

 I climb off without anyone telling me that is should and face the other way round. Away from Magnus.

 If I kill myself, no one will blame me, right?

I pick a thorn from the ground and twist it between my fingertips. Pressing my thumb against the thorn I watch as my thick and red blood trickle down my hand.

 I stare at it calmly.