Bab 195: You can be of use

~Noelle~

"You okay?" The honest answer? Is no. I am not okay. I just met my sister for the first time. It wasn't pleasant. I'm not happy or even excited about it. But she's crazy happy to meet me, even though I tried to scare her. No I succeeded in scaring. 

She doesn't know half of what I went through and part of me- most of me….. all of me- hates her for growing up in a better way. I was taught to be quiet. I watched my shows on the low setting because I didn't want to attract on of those assholes and have my parents killed. 

I couldn't laugh out loud, I couldn't be too excite and yet I tried. I tried for my mother, and for my father. 

How did that turn out for me?

Right, I was fucked in the ass by their stupid decisions. 

At least my mother didn't care about me, or my sister. At least she hated us all and only loved Sulia. But my father? He looked at the two of us and he chose her…..and no matter how hard I try I will never get over that.