Bab 4: Alive
------MORNING: Lights House------
Hindi mapakali ang ina ni Light na bumungad sa kanilang pintuan ang kaniyang asawa.
"Bakit ka nandito?!", saad ni Mrs. Daniels.
"Gusto ko lang makita ang ating anak Clara"
"Paano ka nakalabas? Tumakas ka ba? Hindi-hindi ko papayagan mag-usap o magkita kayo ni Light. Parang awa mo Clark, huwag na huwag ka ulit pumunta rito sa ganiyang kalagayan", mrs. Daniels said and tried to push his husband.
"Clara, Im not sick!..I'm discharge now,and why would you dare to stop me from seeing our sons."
Kinuha agad ng mga nurses si Mr. Daniels na nag-aalalay sa kaniya ng makita nila ang pasyenteng tila pinipilit na pumasok sa pamamahay ng kaiyang dating asawa.
He was allowed to visit his family as part of the recovery session na hinanda ng psychiatrist para sa kaniyang may Identity Disorder kaya't meron mga assigned nurses ang umaalalay sa kaniya.
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FIRST PERSON's POV
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I opened my eyes. And I was still shock from the moment I felt gone.
Bumungad sa akin ang naka-wheel chair na si Syle sa gilid ko. NAkatingin siya sa akin and I know that our eyes meet bago bumaling.
"Nakikita mo ako?", I asked to Syle ng muli siyang tumingin sa akin.
Tumayo ako at napansing may saplot na ako. I can feel the silky shirt. I can smell his perfume from it.
"Paano?", I whisper when I realize I am visible and not glowing anymore.
I touch my hands and it felt so real. Am I really a human?
"Sino ka?", he asked
Hindi ko alam ang isasagot o kung anong sasabihin. Sino nga ba ako?
Bigla akong napaisip na wala akong pangalan, I never have one. Im just a ball of light who visited the earth and stayed for 20 years.
Who am i? Now?
"Anong pangalan mo?", he asked
"Bakit ka nandito?"
"Ikaw ba ang babaeng palaging kumakausap sa akin?"
"Tao ka ba... uhmm.. o .. uhmmm angheL? Ah, whatever.. Sino ka ba?
He keep on asking me without receiving answers.
Tumayo ako and only to realize I don't wear anything beneath and down there.
Biglang tumingin si Syle sa sahig ng tumayo ako.
I feel embarrassed and shy.. I feel so hot and its killing me to be infront of him.
The shirt is long enough to cover the part down there pero it is so embarrassing having no pants or underwear. Ang kamalasan pa ay nakaharap sa isang lalaki.
"AY.. uhmm.. you can borrow my boxers.", saad ni Syle na lalong ikinainit ng mga pisngi ko.
Biglang umubo si Syle pagkatapos sabihin yun and turn his wheel chair. Lumapit siya sa isang cabinet at napansin kong pumipili siya ng under garments.
Anong gagawin ko?, please, somebody.. anybody.. help me.
Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin kaya't nanatili akong nakatayo at hindi kumikilos.
This is too uncomfortable.
Ganito ba maging isang babaeng tao?
Is this what they called feelings? Emotions?
"Uhm.. here, bago yan, hindi ko nagamit", and he handed me the boxers ba ang tawag ng mga lalaki ditto?I think so, just seen it somewhere. From a magazine, I guess.
"T-hanks", I covered my mouth when I just said something I did not thought of. Thanks??
I said that? Where did I learned that? Oh my. AM I a freak? What the feel. Freak? Where did I get that word how did I know that? Freak?Maybe I watch a lot.. that's so.
"Aahh..", he uttered and turn back at me again.
The atmosphere is too much to take, this awkwardness is suffocating and the silence it was a slow killing. Oh my God.
"Ah... you should not be like that..UHm,, you.. you watched me since then, aren't you. So, so.. this should not be happening", Syle uttered, yet I heard enough and it makes me more embarrassed that I thought of flying away.
Im still holding the boxer he handed it to me.. And my hands is weakening for having it. This is just too embarrassing.
Gulp..
Isinuot ko nalang ang binigay niyang boxer and it feels awkward yet comfortable than having nothing to cover that part.
"Anong pangalan mo?", he asked again. And he sounds calm and normal now.
"I,... I don't have one", I honestly said.
"oh.. So what are you?", he said and I guess this is what they called introduction.
"Uhm, I'm not sure?", wala ata akong matinong sagot? Pero yun naman ang totoo eh.
"Bakit ka nandito?"
"Pasensya na pero hindi ko alam ang isasagot sa mga katanungan mo ngayon. It was still shocking to be existing like this and being so different.", I said.
"Anong ibig mong sabihin?", tanong niya at nilingon ako.
Bigla rin akong lumingon kaya ako naman ang nakatalikod sa kaniya.
Anong nangyayari sa akin?
This is crazy.
I clenched my fist because of the embarrassment I feel right now ng biglang bumukas ang pintuan.
FLASH FORWARD>>>>>
"La, hindi ko talaga siya kilala. Nakita ko lang siya sa aking silid kagabi at di ko nasabi sa inyo kasi baka magagalit kayo at kung ano pa ang masasabi niyo sa akin. I just don't want that you will think im a disappointment.", saad ni Syle sa kaniyang lola sa mahinang tono.
Napansin ko naman na naiinis ang lola niya sa akin. Para bang sinasabi niyang , Wala kang hiya! Umaalis ka sa pamamahay ko!
Ganun ba?
WHATT??
Why can't I read minds anymore?
I tried to focus on Syle, hoping I can read his thoughts pero wala akong mabasa.
Isa na ba akong tao?
Anong nangyayari?
"Iha anong panagalan?", saad ni Lola G.
Bigla ulit akong kinabahan.
Geez, im not used to this erratic heart.
Ano.. ano? Isip isip.. Aha!
"Ah, Light.. My name is Light, living light.... I-mean.. Light Levin? Levin", WHOO!!
What was that..
Bigla akong natauhan ng matanto ang sinabi ko? BAkit sa dinami dami ng pangalan, yun pa ang naisip ko?
It was just that. Light ang naisip ko kasi nga im a former ball of light and I am alive like one of those living creature, so, instead of living.. it turned out be Levin as my last name to sound more realistic.
This is danger.. Ano na ang gagawin ko ngayon, I have an unreal identity... and theres no identity I really I don't have one.
"Okay ka lang iha?", hinawakan ni Lola G, ang tuhod ko at nakita ko naman ang nakataas na kilay ni Syle.
Maybe they really find me weird.
This is a mess!
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