Bab 300: 03.10 Tears of joy

It finally snowed. It has been 2 weeks since I talked with the Captain on the roof. I can't get his words out of my head. I wonder if he has complained to anyone else like that. Maybe someone else from his team, someone his age, or older, or maybe younger even, anyone else besides me. Has he talked about his mundane troubles with them? Standing on the roof, alone with just their company, cursing away at reality. Has he done that with others?

The topic was casual, yet the way he spoke about it really troubles me. Not liking a marriage proposal is normal, but why think too much? The king can't force him, so why must he wish for death then just rejecting it?