Bab 165: New resolution: I will not back down

"Hey boy,

If you're reading this then that means you haven't kicked the bucket just yet. I wanted to stay in the country a little longer but things got a little wacky and I had to take my leave. I'm really glad you made it. I'm also sorry about Alisa. I intended to take the poor soul back to her own homeland and wanted to travel with you some more. But I've grown too old. Maybe it was for the best but who knows. The gods don't exist anymore, so I don't know. But what I can tell you is that before leaving, she said a few things. This might seem weird in a letter to have someone else's thoughts but why should I care? She said, "Please tell him, that I really wanted to travel with him. It wasn't because I wanted to see the world or anything like that. It was because I wanted friends; friends that would rely on me and I could rely on them. I wanted to share our good and bad times. But all I brought were bad times. Forgive me. And goodbye."