Bab 35: THIRTY EIGHT

Recap

Love, not obsession, and true friends, not casual acquaintances. Asking myself if my feelings for Christian go beyond a crush. Oh, don't even think about it; he loves me so much. Maybe he's just hopelessly in love. Perhaps all Christian wanted was to feel the touch of my lips against his own.

I don't want to let stress cause me to delve into the shadows of my mind. There is a shadowy part of everyone's mind. It is not my intention to delve too deeply into my melancholy. All they do is drag me deeper into the absurdity of our shared reality. I had forgotten entirely that people actually do reside there. That's the home of my worst fears. Some folks wish they could just stay away from the real world forever. My lifelong ambition is finally coming true: I am going to break someone's heart.

I'm going to bed with the intention of not waking up.

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